prod xona <3

@heylog

-lyrics-
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live, I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held
but I’ve tried 2much,  2much right now..
but I can lie and that’s alright (:
but all my friends
push me on edge
and they do not sense
on why I feel dead..
oh I might try
to end myself and neglect my health and I don’t need one more-
reason to live!
I don’t need a friend
I could care less :/
for her help and I don’t need no pills to keep me held

oh i might cry :,(
when this blade touches my skin
i don't need remorse
for all the sins that i commit
i don't need a friend
to tell me what i'm doing wrong
you think i don't know this
i could tell you the exact same thing
you better watch your back
i see the folks you call your friends will try hurt you
don't be surprised when it happens
cause i was surprised when it happened 
hating on myself
makes the 2 of us
no i don't need help
or any pill
the story of my life
i gotta chill
feel like pennywise
giving me a thrill

spotify

care w/ heylog♡

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

produced by sleepwater
piano by melon musik

wait for me in my next life
i swear that ill be fine
got three new chains on my neck fye
tell me im divine
got a deer trapped in the headlights
in a road full of pine
its coming near, following through me
i dont really mind if i die
through the window my neck and spine
i watched my body die
on the ground theres blood on the floor
never leave my side
tendants broken to the core
pendants my neck when im sore
penance she let her mourn
permanance purgatory
in doors

It's october, branches casting 
dont let go were everlasting
antidote w car fumes rising
way too close my hairs nearly frying
check his pulse a boy here is dying  
dont convulse a tear, see him trying
release from every joy now im crying
convinced u not to steer, into the dying

chemicals in my heart i feel so gloomy
with you youll tear me apart
im scared youd lose me

me
her

mourn

produced by heylog

lyrics:
let me show you how to act right
if you listened it would define
just the type of person u are
it doesn't matter what you go by
cause you'll always be the same person
and you'll always be one of the worst friends
you always were the one to go
when i thought i could count on u the most

lesson learned, don't hold your grudge
even if it could lose someone
hate to know the truth be told
now everything is overthrown

do u wonder where u come from?
picturing at what you've really done
does it affect the way you see your arch?
do they look at you less than what you are?
cause you've always been the same person
and you've always fought the urge to sin
& goodluck tryna get me back
at 2am it kills you bad

no, you messed with the wrong person
yeah you messed with the wrong
you messed it up on purpose
yeah you messed it up
hopefully lesson learned 
i hope a lesson here was learned
i did what i had to do man
and in all honesty 
you're hurting

continue

Noahmadethiss - Currents (feat. sace6)

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

bound w/skele & heylog

君の好きな歌を聞いて
一緒に撮った写真を見て
私はつい思っちゃう
君は元気にしているのか？
体はちゃんと大事にしているのか？
夜はまだちゃんと眠れないのか？
それと、一番大事なのは
自分の心を託される人は見つけたのか？
私は-

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

won't ever change, i thinks it's genetic
engraved in my brain
used to the problems not used to pain
praying something makes it all go away
all go away
u left me alone dealing with MYself
u said u were gonna watch over my health
taking all the pills lined up on the shelf
like a buncha soldiers killin in stealth

chip me away, slowly
make me do it ur way, like it's holy
take our ring, break it
show me u never cared, bout me

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood
don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

don't say u hate me, i know u do (king theta)

All Platforms - https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/vil13/existentialist-feat-heylog-2
Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

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Existentialist (ft. heylog) [nora evelyne]

Lord Heal My Son

[Intro | hopeful effect]
Hey... 
Have you seen the letter that I gave you? 
No I'm not sure about that.

[Verse 1 | steady build]
I sent you a postal to your dark home,
Look at the message that's flown over.
Just sending the message about you,
The truth is I dont have long it's due.

I have a terrible illness that can't be cured, 
A sickness without you here is to rue.
Just reach over to me and hold me,
I won't be satisfied until I see it free. 

[Guitar Solo 1 | Rifts Exploding] 

[Pre Chorus | loves rising]
This letter will serve a purpose for you,
I'm telling you that your my best friend.
Sending my best wishes over here,
Dont fear the compassion ever.

A written poem to show my gratitude,
I put my best effort into the magnitude.
Only one thing will satisfy this pain, 
The rain in the inks writing prowess.

[Chorus | powerful & repeating]
A written letter is just a trail of emotion, 
Devotions of another is in the writing.
I'm inspired to know why you did this,
Your an important figure In life. 

This is meant to be the letter of pages,
You raised me up to be a right person.
Ink comes from the pages that relay, 
My first letter is to praise you.

[Verse 2 | more calming]
These ink stained hands are hurting badly, 
The pages are now just burning away.
The calm of the storm is turning rye, 
The writting is churning inside out.

I put my whole heart and soul into this, 
This letter needs to be in purest bliss.
I will always bring this letter to you,
No one stops me from it being due.

[Pre Chorus | repeat for cohension] 
This letter will serve a purpose for you,
I'm telling you that your my best friend.
Sending my best wishes over here,
Dont fear the compassion ever.

A written poem to show my gratitude,
I put my best effort into the magnitude.
Only one thing will satisfy this pain, 
The rain in the inks writing prowess.

[Chorus | main hook again]
A written letter is just a trail of emotion, 
Devotions of another is in the writing.
I'm inspired to know why you did this,
Your an important figure In life. 

This is meant to be the letter of pages,
You raised me up to be a right person.
Ink comes from the pages that relay, 
My first letter is to praise you.

[Bridge | breakdown / Glitch FX]
Letters will be shipped to you from my place, 
Remember to get it from the box you raise.
These are my last words to you brother, 
Remember that letters hark another.

[Ending | Fade Out]
Yeah... 
Letters always hark to another, 
But it's for you alone brother.

Noahmadethiss - Currents (feat. sace6)

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