produced by me

@avoidr
yeah-uh, the pains getting greater
you dont know, yeah you love me harder
yeah-uh, the numbness getting better
you dont know, i dont wanna live no more
i put a knife to my heart, i've been dying now
killing myself, bleeding out losing all of it
you really thought that i'd be living in a world like this
thats kinda silly of you to pursue im out of it

@lexanax
still pursuing all of it
i said its a waste
come find me in the dark
i really miss your face
i could give you my heart 
if it would make a difference
i could choose to belive 
but it's all just fiction

@avoidr
hell nah, you thought im living in a world like this?
oh girl, you dont know what is going on
help me, im stuck inside of this endless loop
nightmares, thats what im trying to be living in

@lexanax
everything you say is a complete contradiction
wanting me to stay, 
then you're leaving without saying 
i've been losing sleep, 
all my dreams are haunted
said you wanted me, 
yet you don't like who i am

@avoidr
im so stuck inside an endless loop
i dont know if im holding on
im so stuck inside an endless loop
i dont know if i can trust you now
i put a knife to my heart, i've been dying now
killing myself, bleeding out losing all of it
you really thought that i'd be living in a world like this
thats kinda silly of you to pursue im out of it

@lexanax
still pursuing all of it
i said its a waste
come find me in the dark
i really miss your face
i could give you my heart 
if it would make a difference
i could choose to belive 
but it's all just fiction

@avoidr
thats kinda silly of you
thats kinda silly of you
to pursue im out of it
to pursue im out of it
thats kinda silly of you
thats kinda silly of you
to pursue im out of it
to pursue im out of it

out of it

out of it w/ LeXanax

mentally ill nb trans excuse of an artist <3

@nvrlvdnvr

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私たちは生きていますが、何のために生きているのでしょうか？

Follow My Sound Cloud and it means the world 🥹🩵 

dm for collabs u can send opens or beats or i can prod too :3 (free ofc <33)

uhhh yeah i make music bc its my only escape from myself ig <3

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i just wanna say im not promoting any of the shit i talk about. this is simply my way of trying to survive through it all and i sing it as is. much love <3