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if i write this shit on paper does that mean i feel it less
branches out the window like im starin at impermanence
and balance feels impossible i walk out n always lose my step
i changed up the scenery but i still wont go and take it in

down n out like
its just me no doubt
and its just pound for pound
and i'll reach back n take em out
some days i be layin down in my place like
why am i still the same 
in my bedroom burnin sage
stealing time like day to day
and thats the way

yeah im feeling slow
i wipe off my knife
and toss it back n go
life is just an obstacle
in a cosmic heavy undertow
i got ripped apart n hide the damage
you dont need to know
feelings visceral man i cant manage
and i know it shows
make me something im so tired of being nothing
they think that they the second coming
i just want someone to love me
i dont even trust me
not enough to even be me
countertops are rusty
and my grey matter is bleeding

down n out like
its just me no doubt
and its just pound for pound
and i'll reach back n take em out
some days i be layin down in my place like
why am i still the same 
in my bedroom burnin sage
stealing time like day to day
and thats the way

bitter (NVY)

love you ryan<3 talk to you soon.
beat prod by: wisssery x nihil
written and performed by: popularreject

Ryan's song (p. wisssery x nihil)

lyrics ⬇️ 

there’s an institution that I been building in my 
Head 
i don’t pay no tuition instead I lay up in my bed
i put my thoughts in submission 
so that I could maybe get rest
life so explicit I hope that I could get the best

time slowed down
and then I look up at the messs
I know now that I was awful like the rest
shouldnt go out I gotta awful lotta doubt
i don’t know crowds but ima look around the town
Oh

yea I don’t know what else to say tho
done it to urself watch the pain grow

ten rows down from the person that could that say so
tough luck now look like you walk on a tight rope
more excuses everyday but who likes that
If I had time to go to waste
then maybe you would be back
Instead I chill at the lake sunny day I relax

and I got away from issues that you stab in my back 

No I can’t back track but I wanna move forward
and I don’t know what happened 
Or what happened before
you would always attack me I would fall on the floor

and this life is ever lasting so I wanan restore
 
all my horrible tendencies go away in the Forrest 
as the leaves fall and the branches crack I’m no longer sore
i watch the rainfall as it pours and I wanan explore
walk through all the fog but ima hide for the storm

are you even really sure that you wanna ignore
every night since the end of us it been a war
problems out the door ever since you cut the cord no no

institution (cxrter x tahtx)

cracks in the pavement w/ decks & brecken  [irby]

lyrics 


water
yeah
i know that u take me to the slaughter
if u ask me then ur a monster
u had left the remants in the locker
u think u culd hide it w the blockers
u need ask forgiveness from the father
u go far but i think i could go much farther
the candles out it makes it so much darker
i return unburdened by the marker

winter weather frozen my soul
up in ny and im shivering cold
rotting away in the stronghold
chairs all collapse and the food molds
dont wanna ask u what u know
look at the ice in this wood bowl
look at the damaged old ship hull
look at the damage ur brain holds

this forest leads me out to open air
its been twenty months since i had found u there
held my lungs so i culd try compare
but nothing u had tried could let ur soul repair
the salmon swimming down the riverbend
had been ur final meal, for that i make amends
and if u find urself on this plane again
i hope u let the grudges guide ur sweet revenge

water
yeah
i know that u take me to the slaughter
if u ask me then ur a monster
u had left the remants in the locker
u think u culd hide it w the blockers
u need ask forgiveness from the father
u go far but i think i could go much farther
the candles out it makes it so much darker
i return unburdened by the marker

Folk Tale As Old As Time Itself But Forgotten By Many

nobody listens to me 
watching as everyone leave
ill be here falling to peices
outside for autumn to see
I cannot see thru the madness
theres too many secrets to keep
ill meet you out by passage
ive hidden a sword in my sheath
see im grittin my teeth
waiting for problems got somewhere to be
But everyone fake
yea i cant beleive
were all struggling underneath 

yea under the surface
youll find a purpose
its not picture perfect but
my lord gimme courage 
so i promise ima stand up

Its like every night every night every night i cant
understand really why
i cannot stick to the full plan


wonder why everyone lookin at me
i might throw up right off the balcony
anxious and idk how i can keep
walkin around when everyone follow me
why am i paranoid
washed like a janitor
never take steroids 
but i got mad at her
Hurt in my chest
whip in a challenger
i can adress 
ive got a lot learn

one minute im gone
next minute im next to you but
after you hear this song
you know that everything i said was true

passage (cxrter x cobalt)

Early morning promises never see the light of day 
What was it like when you were half the earth away
And nights I couldn’t sleep I told myself it wasn’t cause of you 
Now I’m older think it’s over take the hint I’ll take the clue 

I’m just glad I found some folks that keep me around 
And passing down the torch I wish the flame would just go out 
This ideation holds its grip
I’ve gone too far with it by my side 
This echo goes in my essence  
Don’t abide don’t abide 
It’s just a cheap trick they play to keep you off their mind 
Oh oh 

Early morning promises never see the light of day 
What was it like when you were half the earth away
And nights I couldn’t sleep I told myself it wasn’t cause of you 
Now I’m older think it’s over take the hint I’ll take the clue 

Afternoon I find myself starting off the day too late 
Remember who I was when you were half the earth away 
Now I cannot eat I cannot sleep no answer will comply 
And now I’m colder broken shoulder lean on me I’ll bid my time 
Is it way too much to ask 
For something in this life 
To maybe just last 
Long enough for me to even know what the hell to do 
I get far enough 
But all I really needed was you

early morning promises (king theta)

lyrics 


get to the point
or get out my way
im so excited im starting to shake
im way too anxious i picked up the shakes 
but how would u feel when i end up erased
upping my take
im upping the stakes
someone u luv is just someone to blame
i run away
u aint have to say
cuz i see it myself
and i carry the shame

ill do whatever but
what do u want
sit in my room and im starting to rot
im so accustomed to blowing my shots
why r u near me i dont wanna talk

not surprised u cannot handle the shock
not surprised i couldn’t be what u want
im the one u thought wuld help u along
but i got some problems to deal on my own

think im growing up
and it better now
but im going off
and i let u down
think im growing up
im too sheltered now
but im trying way too hard
just to help you out

poems ii

For Life

UBLYUDOK (prod. thisaintgoht)

Attention (prod. stalkerrekryt)

/pronounced avoid/

i will see it thru


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Folk Tale As Old As Time Itself But Forgotten By Many

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