Jovan

Diary + Pluggnb Vol.5

jovan x #2003

drank twin (deathntune)

cya (luvpurp&symelz)

jovan - so confused (9smjay symels ysl)

go (symelz)

viyah - bug me (symelz&jkjmetasco)

Stanya9 (kojo Jalen Symelz)

Starlights, Startlgihts
late nights
car rides
i feel like all we do is fight
tell me what youre going through 
i know that i understand you
all we do is throw fits
girl tell me that youre worth it...

doin waht got nun to say
i got nun to say
when you tell me yea leave ts it made me insane
i dont wanna stop everyone tell me to stop
contemplating with a glock
get my robe on and my scythe too
youre times up i just gotta slice you
red eyes..
i just got my sharigan
sorry .... I know that it hurts..
fuck this music shit i swear its a curse
hit me where it hurts
i said fuck my dad too..

sorry babyyea im northside..
i just wanna die im sorry the cocaine i cant feel my eyes..
just give me a  drink i dont need no ice.
tell me this shit striahgt ion need the lies
ion need the lies..
ion got the time
i tell you its alright
everything is not alright.. </3





thelosinghope (marilynworse)

I'm in the ring I gotta win, because I struggle hard when I look in the mirror. I can't stand my reflection, I punched a wall and I saw blood I'm needing help bruh. I cut myself I cut so hard I'm needing help bruh. I’m stitched together, with sorrow and with shame. Each scar a story, each cut links to a name. Since I was 12 shit hasn't been the same, she’s calling me, she called me by my name.

You're being passive aggressive to me, like while u don't even fucking know me. You always try to be bitch and offend me, like how tf would you do that to me. You can't be surprised when I take a distance, when I was like 12 I'd take blades from the kitchen. And then I ended up w wrong friends, ended up w wrong drugs. Bro I was like 17 when someone called my phone up, she was on the train tracks crying. Everyday I think bout giving up and dying, used to get bullied I was scared to go to school: you're tryna baby me yea u look like a fool.

I know we bleed the same blood but that don't me that we're close , I've seen way too fucking much I'm traumatized yea we know. I almost lost my life last year I wanted to go, popped too many pills last year I had to stop that. I was on like 5 drugs bitch I almost died there, will I ever get love? Bro I'm so damaged. Yea these bitches wanna talk bro for my body, but who is gon be here for me when I need somebody? I just want someone to hug me. I just want someone to hold me, I just want someone to tell me I'll be okay.

I know you see me smile too fucking much but I've never been okay... I can't believe I've been betrayed, nothings ever been the same. Yea these friends they come and go, all my friends have gone away. I think I'll stay in my bedroom, and make my music today. Yea my body's full of cuts: I think that I'm out of luck, I think that I'm out of luck, I think that I'm out of luck. 

I don't know who to trust, I'm too paranoid. I don't know who to trust I'm too paranoid. 

I'm in the ring I gotta win, because I struggle hard when I look in the mirror. I can't stand my reflection, I punched a wall and I saw blood I'm needing help bruh. I cut myself I cut so hard I'm needing help bruh. I’m stitched together, with sorrow and with shame. Each scar a story, each cut links to a name. Since I was 12 shit hasn't been the same, she’s calling me, she called me by my name.

raging bull

SPOTIFY

raging bull (prod bleachcraft)

kynlary - itpitch (symelz)

soundcloud.com/stat / instagram.com/jovanxx1

co hosted w/ @zulexkys & @bl4nkradio

jovan ~ telly [symelz&nivek]

kobe (rippnova&kin)