vlm x diary 2

FALL 24 🍁

Not Even Ghosts Are This Empty

[VERSE I: Yung Revelations]
can i ever get a moment to myself?
each moment that passes is fleeting
i try and i try to escape my own life
at this point yall should call me houdini
it always ends up with me bleeding
or so overwhelmed im retreating
back into the hole that i tried to climb out of
it always ends up self defeating
i'm addicted to sex
addicted to drugs
really whatever will make me feel loved
i dont care what you think
yeah i dont give a fuck
im still out here shining as bright as the sun
and no matter how hard it gets no matter how tough
dont disobey when i say just gimme the gun
if i dont let me demons out to breathe
ill end up with some horns or a pair of fucking wings
come and visit me from time to time
to all the bitches that i was ever with
youre still on my mind

[VERSE II: Lil Psalm]
pushing that coupe in the rain
think i been going insane
popping and smoking and drinking is how i been coping and dealing with pain
snort up a line with my mom
yea i just be hoping to bond
another day working and wasting away the exact thing that i wanna buy
that’s time
i’m in that double R falling the fuck apart cooking up my frontal lobe
play it strong on the phone but i cry when alone cuz my daddy just hit a new low
fuck
every day bad news
every day cash rules
fuck what i did it’s what have you done lately
fuck that poetic shit got a chrome metal stick up to my brain just to know heaven for a bit
yea i just wanna run away
but all i ever do is run in place
the tears i cried it could have iced my chain
and on the best days i cant feel my face

Finding Shelter in My Larynx

[VERSE I: Indiana Slicky Fort Wayne]
i’m screaming fuck love cuz i guess i never got enough
shark attack an album every summer like i’m oddy nuff
grey gorilla i’m gripping my harambe nuts
how can i trust when my own blood be acting sus?
fuck
i got feelings i could never feel
keeping a blade up under my tongue just so i can guard my heel
constantly eating pills like i never skip a meal
them hoes they wanna chill i just give em vistiril

[VERSE II: DUCKBOY]
all these missed calls
texts left on read
when i do answer the phone
it’s usually “who is this again?”
i can see it in their eyes that they see me as a check
as a threat
fucking hating on me
waiting for me to miss a fucking step
they would love to catch me slipping
yeah thats why i learned to fly
always tryna touch the shun before i fall to my demise
broken skeleton scattered im only buzzin cuz of the flies
but i gained a million listeners on spotify overnight

A Little Trauma Can Be Illuminating, and I’m Shining Like the Sun

[VERSE I: Lil Remains]
lately i been feeling like i don’t know who the fuck i am
tryna figure out where the stage ends and i begin
‘til the bitter end i proceed with a hollow heart
cut my wounds and call it art
watch me as i come apart
pull up cullinan they wondering which sport i play
i say what i want and what you can’t afford to say
unless i’m hollering “grey” ain’t much else i gotta say
i made a gang and i made a way
and i made the wave and it’s here to stay
faking a smile while im flexing alarm going off for my anti depressant
my girl is up early and bitching and stressing about how im here but i’m lacking in presence
i tell her i love you but it’s lacking essence
and now i remember just who i am
but give me a pill this one for the win
i’m gone again

[VERSE II: Lord of Loneliness]
my type of vacation is isolation
i wanna be left alone
gonna see how long i hold until i end up fighting off temptations of self-annihilation
i’m holding myself hostage by all of this emotional blockage
i can’t fucking stop it now it’s all coming out
a verbal kind of vomit i wish i could gut it out
take away my stomach fucking rip it all apart
a hollow cage of calcium that used to hold my heart
i know i’m meant to be alone
i can feel it in my bones and in my soul

I No Longer Fear The Razor Guarding My Heel (V)

I NO LONGER FEAR THE RAZOR GUARDING MY HEEL (V)

@taylor @4evrgone

in that jun takahashi fit, that's just how i move 
i got water flowing on my wrist, on my earlobes too
go berserk, boutta down a couple shrooms 
paulo santo still burning in my room 
dance with MJ im not talking bout smooth 
it feels like the end days, i saw it in a dream 
even though it's empty it means something to me 
stepping in mihara and rolling up supreme 
i throw up my mudras i gotta stay at peace 
i move like the moon does so i come back with ease
wake up like a june bug the sun is calling me 
reborn like a scarab im rolling up some shit 
u can see the carats, cats and dogs on my wrist
riris and gelato yea im flipping all the zips 
really got the racks coming in im like woa 
know they gonna ask what i did, i dont know! 
i just made it happen ya dig that's the flow 
i hope that u fastened in, pedal to the floor 
i just took this acid im going thru the doors 
smoking on that gas and i always got some more 
ancient swag u can't find it in a store
always stacking it even when i snore 
yea im rocking mountain research 
burning thru the reefer 
get the gold like im a seeker
out with the old, it's a rebirth

2 Berserk (p Taylor Morgan & 4evr)

13 reasons why in the whip i fly, trippin like a cyclist 
let my ego die, im here for the ride, icicles up on my wrist
in the cut like a razor, smoking tree in topanga
indica imma blaze it, fall asleep for the day yaaa
its dawn of a new millennium 
they doubted me, dont know any of em
imma rise like a phoenix, illenium
i feel good like im daya
making sales cuz they just cant beat my prices
fly my sails, keep my eyes on the horizon
i was scared of a heart i couldnt silence
but you make me you make me feel good, i like it 
you & me in the summer
but you cant stop the winter
bought some new undercover
elven rings, watch em shimmer
i can feel everything ive felt
it gets hard sparking up some kelp
im a sea turtle in the air
fell asleep, her hands in my hair

Music VIdeo

Feeel Goood

https://on.soundcloud.com/LzN9QJZMK9RvWBtu6

Babylon

(chorus)
days come and go
u took my heart
took my soul
u want me to take control
all alone in my room
thinkin bout dem times we had together
i miss us together
we was so strong together
dont know what happened to us
we was walkin in da halls
i was picking up yo books for you
i know you hate when i tell u what to do
i just know whats best for you
i just want the best for you


and i want the best for us
having 2nd thoughts bout us
was it real or was it lust?
i hate wen she fuss
hate wen she get mad and she block me but she turn around and unblock me right after
she call me back right after
dont know if i really want her

(chorus)
days come and go
u took my heart
took my soul
u want me to take control
all alone in my room
thinkin bout dem times we had together
i miss us together
we was so strong together
dont know what happened to us
we was walkin in da halls
i was picking up yo books for you
i know you hate when i tell u what to do
i just know whats best for you
i just want the best for you

want the best for you (violet)

20$ @dimpleb @jannahsent @kuriyai443 @bxxngan @lilsadboiiudig @1sowhat

june2024 @dimpleb @jannahsent @kuriyai443 @bxxngan @lilsadboiiudig @1sowhat

1. whatwasleft
2. prosper
3. 444 w/ @jun12s
4. lettersofremembrance
5. lastwords!
6. sidewalkbranches
7. amongthewiltedflowers w/ @yuzien
8. mist
9. shorebreak w/ @prodsmash
10. ifiseeyouagain w/ @yuzien
11. recollections



https://www.instagram.com/jun12s_/

https://www.instagram.com/1yuzien/

https://www.instagram.com/smash29k/

recollections - june2024'samples (ft. candle, yuzien & smash29k)

@mxsui

I've been lost and found
lost and down 
tossing around
can't clear my head out 
you fine you stand out 
don't look for handouts 
just glad I can now 
just glad it's all over 
still I'm not sober 
I can't get over 
that you with him 
why with him 
guess I'm not him
why you did it 
If I say I'll be wrong 
I can say I'm alone
I can say if it weren't cip what would I be doing 
fuck it where would I be going 
don't know how I'm still going 
when true colors showing 
you weren't here for me
got my head steady rolling 
playing games and I ain't knowing 
how I ain't know 
hurting my soul 
taking a toll 
swear I don't mean it 
girl you the reason 
if one thing i know 
you had left me feigning
you had left me dreaming
all the shit we done had 
was it for no reason
wasn't for the keeping 
left me in the deep end
you ain't have no reason
cuts on me I'm bleeding
I've been sorrier 
I'm so sorrier 
I done cried for worse 
you done left me hurt
no no don't go 
I don't wanna be alone
but at times I get distant 
don't want attention 
no one I'm missing 
soul just ascending
tell you don't get it 
tell you don't hear me
but I speak clearly
why do they fear me 
why am I teary 
why do they go go go.......

kynlary + viyah - what the blame (jannah)

#2003