feat. @1axhelini

lyrics:
(solr)
baby why
won't you find
some piece of mind
i know that i
will try
to keep you safe in my arms
i won't let you go too far
oh, i'll keep you close to my heart
it's never this hard
i won't let you go this time.
we'll always find a way to collide

(axhelini)
tell me what you want
but i don't want to give up
heard the things you're scared of
you won't have to worry in my arms
let me take your hand
and i'll never let you go
do not be afraid
we can take it slow

thank you so much to ax for hopping on this. i know we had our differences for a bit there but you genuinely have been nothing but the sweetest person ever. i love u bestie, and im so proud of the improvement you've been havin grecently.

i won't let you go

banger
@valentineisntyours
@ivjorn
@1axhelini

im sorry idk what this is

produced by neverforever

"It took me so long to do so many important things. It's just hard to accept that I spent so many years being less happy than I could have been."

(absent)
i don't know if i'm deserving of love
people praise me but i think that they're wrong
at the end of the day i'm alone in my bed
on my knees praying to God

and i don't want sound like a maniac
i just don't want to be ashamed
when i'm talking about my savior
thanks to him i'm no longer afraid

"jim i called off my wedding because of you (absent)
and now we're not even friends
and things are just, like- weird between us
and that sucks- and i miss you
you were my best friend before you went to stamford
and i really miss you
there were a lot of reasons to call off my wedding
but the truth is- 
i didn't care about any of those reasons until i met you."

i am anxious i won't find a soul
who will tell me when i'm doing wrong
and i guess i just want her to hear me
guess that's why i am making this song
(absent)

savior [neverforever]

michael harrison

lyrics:
i've got albums of songs that i've made about you
it took so long to feel sane without you
i'm right back here again
sent, sit for hours, now im left on read
ruined my life just so you could pretend
that i don't exist, that we're not even friends
and i can't believe that i love you again
and i can't believe that i want you again

can't stop myself from looking at our texts
the ones you don't bother to send
ethan and avery think i don't make sense
for dealing with your shit instead
of finding someone that can give what i want
without me having to beg
i get that what you're going through is hard
but i should be part of the mend

and it should be easy for me to move on
but i can't keep myself in check
and i can't show myself respect
if it means that you're only there in my head
my shoes are wet, the sun is gone
the moon is cold again
the burns are back, the scars won't fade
i wish we just had stayed friends

a beautiful planet, my Mercury vanished
don't wanna depart you again

mercury

produced by neverforever

this song is obviously about absent club and specifically 3 very special to me people. claire, avery (and the third person who's name i will not share) - you have no idea how much you've helped me throughout the past few months, ily with my whole heart guys<3

lyrics:

(absent)
i'm sorry claire
i feel useless
every time you talk
i'm clueless
i'll lend you a hand
won't let it end that way
you'll be okay
i'll always be your friend

i'm sorry avery
i feel bad
i don't even talk
and you tried so hard
sometimes i wonder
if i belong
i love you guys i hope you know
(absent)

i met a girl
i hope she won't see this verse
cuz every time we talk
my heart's running in reverse
it makes no sense
cuz we just met
don't want to make
the same mistake
i told claire and ave about you
i think that i'm starting to like you
but i'm scared you don't feel that way
don't want to lose the thing we have

so i'll take my time
i have traumas
i don't talk about
i want to heal my wounds
so i don't bleed on you
don't want to force you, too
i want to be your muse
(absent)

i'm sorry

this is a cover, original was made by joji.
cover art by @dreich_squirrel

Pixelated kisses got me goin' insane
Replicate this moment from a million miles away
Waiting for the signal, baby, never make a sound
If you never hear from me, all the satellites are down
Yeah, they're all down

Falling through the atmosphere right now
Baby, are you really down?
Baby, are you really down?

Pixelated kisses got me goin' insane
Replicate this moment from a million miles away
Waiting for the signal, baby, never make a sound
If you never hear from me, all the satellites are down
Yeah, they're all down

Falling through the atmosphere right now
Baby, are you really down?
Baby, are you really down?

PIXELATED KISSES

prod. neverforever
picture taken by @dreich_squirrel

lyrics:

shut all my blinds and closed my eyes
don't want to see them in my life
they say i've got problems, ain't that right?
all of you trying to pick a fight

i don't know how to throw a punch
but i'll go ahead say what's on my mind
i don't like people, don't like to talk
it's not that i hate you, it's all because

one of my friends has stabbed my back
it's not the first time, not the last
made me hated, said i suck
he came back later, i don't give a-

YOU ACT LIKE YOU ARE SO "HEAVENLY"
YET YOU FORGET WHAT YOU DID TO ME
I TRY TO ACT SWEET AND HARMLESS
YET YOU TRIED TO PAINT ME AS HEARTLESS

never thought i'd be this way
looking for love, so far away
i'm still just a child, yet i want so much
but in all honesty, am i asking for too much?

i still can't forget how i used to want to die
ask me how i'm feeling and i'll say that i'm just fine
chris and i may not be friends but he still saved my life
so bring him up again and i'll make sure to ---- you up

it may’ve been my fault that he is nowhere to be found
but that’s none of your business i will finally stand my ground
trying to bring him up again to paint me as the villain
yet you didn’t bring your first gf didn’t know that you were cheatin’

im sorry idk what this is

axebeprofen