Nurko ft. Chandler Leighton - Disappearing Now (AXIDNT Remix)

Sadece Böyle

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

one of my favorite songs i've ever made. big shouts out to the homie guardin for getting on this with me!! check him out here:

soundcloud.com/guardinmusic

sample credits: https://soundcloud.com/yungcold

sad chill - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWgkYnqG4u4
guardin - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfn_ugMCzmQ
静的 static - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V_UlSTkw1k

california dreaming (feat. guardin)

Everything is going to be okay, we're going to a better place now 
Verse 1
I saw you drowned in the bath tub/
But
The pills hit hard like a Mack truck 
I been tryna save me so I didn't save you/
Now I stay just swimming in the sad stuff/
Pretty girl ugly scar I know You've heard it all/
To the feet of a greatness Ima failure/
Stranger standing in room full of takers/
Break me tears fell when I saw both of your wrists caved in/
Decipher the shapes of the blood stains/
Your Id was scraped had no name/
Your body left was white like the cocaine/
That you would stuff inside to feel no pain/
And I hate the god that made you feel so odd/
So you danced and prayed that you could shake it off/
Now the shadows play inside your lonely loft/
So I fight to stay with a heart so soft/ okay
Chorus//
You were my angel 
I couldn't saved you
You don't trust nobody 
I should have known you were numb
You were my angel
Your body breaking
I don't trust nobody 
But I didn't give you enough 
Verse 2
Pick apart All the pieces broke from your lonely heart/
Feel the razor blade your body pierced and marked/
From place it ends till the time it start/
Heaven bleeds/
From the holes that you made in you sleeves/
And I shake and I pull and I scream/
And I rip and I stare and I stay/
From the place that you left but now chest is a cave/
Now my life is a maze/
Now your eyes a blazed/
With the gas of your heart/
And the room is in flames/
With the pain in your hands/
With the pain in your head/
This was never the plan/
Now I'm falling instead/
Rummage through the puke/
Swallow all the blood/
I don't wanna chose/
running out of luck/
Lobby full of drugs/
This is all a dream/
My Bodies full of puss/
Your corpse is where I sleep/

Everything's going to be okay, we're headed to a better place now-prod(datboidj)

fats'e - apathy (ft. guccihighwaters)

Guccihighwaters-you cant really save me

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@syndrome-beats

Life is a fuckery
People that you used to be
Best of buds with might turn out to be an enemy
Earn your stripes
Get em swiped this world don't have no referee
Treat their friends like doodle shit while you remain the centerpiece
It does have a moral code
You fuck up you really gotta let em know
Accept the negativity and let it show
They your brothers, if anyone would, they'd let it go

Getting out of bed my body got more heavy
Family balancing controllers tryna keep me steady
All this fucking power from the ones who love me
Despite the ups and down I never been more ready

Eating alphagetti 
In the morning ‘fore I leave
Got a 8 hour flight somewhere out east
And all that's on my mind is how I'll let you eat
For the past 20 years you allowed me to breathe

That goes to my mom dad brother and my g's
Stay gassin me up and that's what gave me all the steeze
I was was stuck in debt and I was still buying weed
Man would pull through with some harveys and a deegs 
When I poured it out and had no blood to bleed
Man would rise against the circumstance and help me from my knees

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
What vibe am I on
I'm just tryna accomplish something
I'm just tryna accomplish something
Before I die before I'm gone

Is this the life you want
Is this the one you want
Do not know what vibe I’m on
Music will stay when I’m gone

When I’m stepping on the block
See I’m gliding to the top
Call me Deku, I’mma drop
Anyone trying to talk

Breathing heavy in the wild
Lips sweet like black and mild
Nothing brighter than her smile
I’d run mile after mile

Deceive what I see like the shape of a column
Fear stems out from all of my problems
Shaking I’m feeling more and more solemn
I don’t think that I ever will solve em

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solemn - ft. 9tails (prod. syndrome)

i'm not suicidal, ur suicidal!

If I were to die tonight would you try to save me 
If I were to die tonight would you miss me 
If I were to die tonight would my sins be forgiven 
If you were to die tonight I couldn’t keep on livin 

Water on my wrist drip like a fuckin faucet 
I’m just tryina chill bitch stop the fuckin nonsense 
Me and my crew responsible for the progress 
If you wanna grow gotta stick with the proses 

Lately I’ve been feelin kinda scared 
Thoughts of suicide 
Feelin like nobody cares 
Metal state deranged 
So I’ll hit the blunt again 
Liquor on my tongue
Bitch I can barely stand 
Crying in my bed so I’ll pop a couple xans 
Spend all day blowin poison like a fan 
No I’m not ok with just being fucking friends
Lately baby I just really want to start again

So I’ll sit 
With a broken heart
And a bottle of whiskey 
And think of my death 
And how that shits risky 
How I could hurt my friends 
And the people around me 
But I can’t seem to help 
That I feel like I’m fucking drowning

If I Were To Die ft. Broken  (prod.sketchmyname)

Prod Kado

Art by mattiswithdrawn

I feel that man,  good luck! I’m sure you’ll come with something great
❤
1
Wed 3:57 PM
Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try 

Everybody knows that it’s my fault 
That I fell asleep on the sidewalk 
No sleepwalking too fucked up for talking 
Pretty soon be an outline made of chalk 
I’m gonna die soon
And when I do 
I hope that you know it’s not about you 
Turns out I didn’t know enough about you 
Turns out the world don’t revolve around you 
But in my head, everything’s bad 
Everything’s wrong, everything’s sad 
Been way to long I feel like that 
Pandemic vibes, miss mom and dad
And the little lost pleasures I once had 
Is the measure of my life really my stacks
Whether or not you’re better off in my bed
I want to Love what I treasure and clear my head
So get the fuck away from me if 
This isn’t where you want to be then
Just Go abead, you can leave and when 
It’s all over you can be free 
I don’t really understand my thoughts 
That it’s all my fault 
When it’s clearly not 
Every time we talk 
I test my luck 
Then I fuck this up, who would’ve thought yeah 

Backwoods on the front lawn say I’m alright but it’s all wrong 
No I’m not fine
Shaking like a fault line
All my fault right? 
Only happy when I’m recognized online
I’ve gotta quit wasting my time gotta quit chasing your light 
Getting high all night 
Can’t stay high for my whole life 
But I will try

Where You Want To Be

bass music from vegas
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