disfigured

Huge thanks to https://soundcloud.com/torturedskin for coming on stream for the interview! 
He made this song on stream
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-8GyUhL1S48

Lucille - Still (prod. Lucille)

idk what genre to put this as. idk why this got taken down off everywhere but lucky I have a copy of it :3

addition (w_ lucille) prod me - bunii

till next time.

It's been a day without the light
And I feel fine
Oh, I'm better than ever, really
Stepping outside and now I
Feel like my head is spinning off

But it's the game I play
It's my only way
That I can escape this place
Every minute of every day
As soon as you're in it, it never would change
There's no way to fix it, I'm going insane
And no one will listen to me
Maybe I'm in a mood

When I walk away I feel it following me everyday
It peels my open by my cuts, my wounds
My scars are solid but they're still there and show me in every way
And they know it so why don't they say my name?
When I opened they bought it and threw away
'Cause you know when it's cloudy; expect the rain
They tell me it's nothing but it's never what they show

But it's the game I play
It's my only way
That I can escape this place
Every minute of every day
As soon as you're in it, it never would change
There's no way to fix it, I'm going insane
And no one will listen to me
Maybe I'm in a mood

Every minute of every day
As soon as you're in it, it never would change
There's no way to fix it, I'm going insane
And no one will listen to me
Maybe I'm in a mood

Now, does no apology make it right?
'Cause it sure might bark at me but won't bite
So I'll try to dine with the socialites
But they're all so perfect and I'm their vice
When they see me I'm sure that they stop and stare
Realize I'm being myself somewhere
They can judge me honestly; I don't care
'Cause when I'm up, they're down, it's a shame, we all gotta play a role

But it's the game I play
It's my only way
That I can escape this place
Every minute of every day
As soon as you're in it, it never would change
There's no way to fix it, I'm going insane
And no one will listen to me
Maybe I'm in a mood

grand mal

something wrong (music video out now)

prod. lucille

oh god, i fear i'm way too involved
i put it all on the line
i'll be awaiting your call
said this shit a million times
guess you don't listen at all
i'll take a shot from your gun and blow my brains on the walls

i might just lose it for you baby
hold my hand
i'll be the loser for you maybe
in the end
i'll still be here when it gets crazy
god damn

i never seen this side of you
how do i get through
defiled, lie in you
and your cold
cold

shoot me dead
what's the point
a million rounds
fill the void
slay me down
kill the noise
watch it all fall down
paranoia

hate you
i wanna break you
i'm scared too
face you
i swear i'll find you
phase through
all your lies

oh god, i fear i'm way too involved
i put it all on the line
i'll be awaiting your call
said this shit a million times
guess you don't listen at all
i'll take a shot from your gun and blow my brains on the walls

i might just lose it for you baby
hold my hand
i'll be the loser for you maybe
in the end
i'll still be here when it gets crazy
god damn

i never seen this side of you
how do i get through
defiled, lie in you
and your cold
cold

shoot me dead
what's the point
a million rounds
fill the void
slay me down
kill the noise
watch it all fall down
paranoia

paranoia

lyrics:

waited a while, i don't see you around
life feels so unfamiliar, my heads in the clouds
oh i'd save you from hell if you wanted to salvage
the torture and torment that you left around

oh i, love you so
let it decay on my skin & bones
my head is plastered with you i know
(oh with you my darling)
so irrefutable
your scars are beautiful

you'll be my poison
ill be your cure
know death is certain
i'll be unsure
poke and pry, tears out my eyes
stab and lie, i'll be just fine

i hate the summer but winters alright
lost my purpose in spring, but in autumn it's perfect
i'm so damn demented, your closing the curtain
decline in my mental, i never was worth it

i still waited a while, i don't see you around
life feels so unfamiliar, my heads in the clouds
oh i'd save you from hell if you wanted to salvage
the torture and torment that you left around

oh i, love you so
let it decay on my skin & bones
my head is plastered with you i know
(oh with you my darling)
so irrefutable
your scars are beautiful

you'll be my poison
ill be your cure
know death is certain
i'll be unsure

you'll be my poison
ill be your cure
know death is certain
i'll be unsure

oh i, love you so
let it decay on my skin & bones
my head is plastered with you i know
(oh with you my darling)
so irrefutable
your scars are beautiful

you'll be my poison
ill be your cure
know death is certain
i'll be unsure

you'll be my poison
ill be your cure
know death is certain
i'll be unsure


unfamiliar

lyrics:

And I'm falling in too deep
How could I just succeed?
When it's hatred that you seek
And I feel so incomplete
Never enough
Tryna wipe my smile
While I'm in a rut
As I clench my tightrope
Hope I don't fall
Cause it's unclear
If you wanna delete me or if it's fear

Cause I traveled far away
In hopes that it'll change
But my heart beats all the same
And my chest feels out of place

(Whatever, I wouldn't my worst)
(Just won't stop it's getting worse, I tried forever)

I tried forever
In hopes this shit would get better
I was down on my luck when I told you I'd never
Point the finger and fold under pressure
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever
(Bleh, whatever)
(Bleh, whatever)
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever

Turn water into, wine
I fear you wasted, time
In the end I'll be alright
I know, I swear I tried forever

In hopes this shit would get better
I was down on my luck when I told you I'd never
Point the finger and fold under pressure
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever
(Bleh, whatever)
(Bleh, whatever)
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever

I do this shit won't work
I'm stuck in place
It's all downhill from here

You watch as I just spiral
I can't look inside the mirror
And I traveled far away
In hopes that it'll change
My heart beats all the same
And my chest feels out of place

(Whatever)
(Lost my friends, I'm like whatever)
(I'm still waiting like whatever)
(Hope you know-)

I tried forever
In hopes this shit would get better
I was down on my luck when I told you I'd never
Point the finger and fold under pressure
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever
(Bleh, whatever)
(Bleh, whatever)
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever

Turn water into, wine
I fear you wasted, time
In the end I'll be alright
I know, I swear I tried forever

In hopes this shit would get better
I was down on my luck when I told you I'd never
Point the finger and fold under pressure
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever
(Bleh, whatever)
(Bleh, whatever)
Hit on the chin, I'll take it whatever

whatever

Eavesdropping on tonight's hangout; totally human, totally raw, one take, no edits. Just real music and real feelings for real people. Hope you enjoy. :) Special thank you to Joey Camps and J.D. Halstead 🤗🤗

cozy [raw version 8/6/25]

Written by Green Day
Original Song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwEyuzaNUTA&list=RDzwEyuzaNUTA&start_radio=1

Time of your life (Green Day cover)

We outran a landslide
we know the end so fast
theyre mad cause we’re so high 
you were a wide armed man in times we were moving   
It was a long game plan
kept me a new thing 
All that weight in your breath without a thought, that little edge.
the voices said: echo this, said: on your mark, said:
Get set, get up up up up up up up up…

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aydn park