i really want to make a song like this, its beautiful

number 1 reason why we can't allow ayena to stop making music

produced, mixed and mastered by myself. 

i’m 18 now, and entering a new stage in my life and my music. if you’re reading this, i just wanted to thank you for your support across the past year since i first started making music. we’ve come so far as a community and as a family, and this journey we are on is far from over. i love you with all my heart, i do this for you <3

lyrics : 

i cant go on my love it’s my bad

i’ve been in the saint laurent in my head 

i cant forget the things that you said

i cant forget the things that you said 

bottle of pills right next to her bed

she might take some might end up dead

she might wake soon but she needs rest

i’ve been so

i’ve been so

TRANQUIA

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tranquia

Produced and engineered by Ayena Savant
Written and performed by Ayena savant
Sample: "Midnight Blue" by Puma Blue

lyrics:

these blinds won’t let me out

just please don’t leave me now 

i cant escape these thoughts they tend to stay by my bedside 

(ohh)

do i cross your mind 

(ohh)

alone and cold all night

(ohh)

you wish that you could feel him but he’s just too far away 

he’s just too far away

he’s just too far away

he’s just too far he’s just too far he’s just too far away

she’s just too far away

she’s just too far away

she’s just to far she’s just too far she’s just too far away

blinds

produced by ayena
guitar by ttthou 
mixed, mastered, and performed by ayena 
inspired by jd

♥️

i wish i could feel your skin 

wish i wasn’t alone 

witnessing new parts of me

i’ve become familiar with bone

are my friends really my friends or did i make them in my head 

do they really hate me or is it just me hating instead 

…

my memories painted in red 
my memories painted in red
hmm

my memories painted in red 
my memories painted in,
red

my memories painted in red
my memories painted in red 
i know 

my memories painted in red 
my memories painted in,
red

♥️

memories painted in red

featuring @kyotoclan

LYRICS

ARAEL IV:

SHAWTY LOOK AT ME LIKE
YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ME

WOULD YOU FEEL ON ME
IF, I WAS FEELING LONELY?

5 DAYS IN LOVE

I DONT WANNA RUSH THINGS

5 DAYS IN LOVE

SAYING YOU WOULD FUCK ME

SAYING YOU WOULD FUCK ME

SAYING THAT YOU WANT ME

BABE IM JUST OBSESSED NOW

I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU

I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU

I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU

AND I KNOW WHY

AND I KNOW WHY

AND I KNOW WHY

WE'RE BOTH IN LOVE

KYOTOCLAN:

YEAH I GOT MY OWN TASTE, OWN PLACE, I GOT WHAT I WANT
NOW I’M OK, WON’T WASTE, WHAT I’M WORKING UP 
JUST COME AND TEST ME, COME AND SEE IF I STILL GIVE A FUCK
I’M NOT RESTING, PEOPLE GOTTA SEE OUT WHAT I GOT

IT’S NOT PROBLEMATIC, I JUST WORKED MY WAY UP TO THE TOP
GOT AN AUTOMATIC, POINTED DOWN THE MIDDLE OF THAT LOT
DIDN’T SELL MY SOUL, BUT I GAVE IT RIGHT UP TO THE GODS
GO AND LET IT GO, LET IT ROLL, SHITS JUS LOOKING ROUGH

HE CAN’T BE HIMSELF
I CAN TELL HE WANNA BE ME

STEPPING OUT THE BOX
NOW A BITCH WANNA SEE ME 

AND I KNOW YOU NEVER LISTEN, THAT’S WHY I GOT IN MY FEELINGS
I’M A WRECK, BUT I’M HEALING, THAT’S WHAT MATTERS, I’M NOT ENDING IT

I’M NOT ENDING IT
I’M NOT ENDING IT
I’M NOT ENDING IT

PROBLEMS FT. SEREN VAUN

@ayenasavant
produced by me

LYRICS

ARAEL:

FEELIN SO DELAYED NOW

TELLIN ME IVE CHANGED NOW

I DONT WANNA HEAR IT

SAY YOU WANNA FIX IT?

BABY I CANT SEE YOU, I KNOW
BABY I CANT FEEL YOU, I KNOW
BABY I CANT SEE YOU, I KNOW
BABY WONT YOU KILL ME, I KNOW

BABY I CANT SEE YOU, I KNOW
VISION'S GETTING BLURRY, CAUSE YOU
BABY I CANT SEE YOU, I KNOW
I KNOW IM NOT ME AROUND YOU

PARTY TILL I PASS OUT
FEEL LIKE DENNIS RODMAN
GONE IN 48
I WONT COME BACK AND YOU WONT FIND ME
TELLIN ME YOU HATE ME
I DONT GIVE A FUCK, SO TRY ME
MADE TOO MANY BANDS
BUT YOU STILL PAY ME JUST TO FUCK ME (2X)

JUST TO FUCK ME
JUSTIFY ME
BABY PLEASE DEFY ME

KNOW WHEN I LEAVE
BABY PLEASE DONT FIND ME

TWEAKIN OUTTA MY MIND
JUST TO FIND PEACE

AYENA:

I CAN HEAR THEM CALLING ON MY NAME THROUGH THE WALLS 
CUP HEAVY SIPPIN NOW I SLUR WHEN I TALK 
MUD IN MY BOOTS SO I DRAG WHEN I WALK
I CAN HEAR YOUR MIND EVERY TIME THAT WE FUCK 

FUCK FUCK 

I KNOW I’M NOT WHAT YOU WANT 
WANT WANT 

NO ONE TO CATCH ME WHEN I FALL 
FALL FALL

NOW I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME 
TIME TIME 

I DON’T WANNA KILL YOU
I-I-I JUST WANNA WATCH YOU BLEED 

I CANT SAY I LOVE YOU
I KNOW THAT YOU’RE WATCHING ME

I DON’T WANNA KILL YOU
I JUST WANNA WATCH YOU BLEED 

I CANT SAY I LOVE YOU
I KNOW THAT YOU’RE WATCHING ME

DENNIS RODMAN ft. AYENA SAVANT

started when i was 17 , and now i'm 19 . one step closer to where i'm trying to get and the only people i can think to give thanks to is all of you .  together we will continue to grow and get closer and closer to our goals .  you are all my family , i love you .

produced , engineered , written , and performed by ayena savant
samples : belvedere by Scott James & Nside by Steve Lacey

lyrics :

nothing at all,

nothing at all,

i feel nothing at all,

nothing at all 

not the feel of a cold winter mattress, no

not the feel of your hurt when i end everything that’s good for us, 

i’m sorry, if i can’t love myself, how could i ever love you


turn off the fan, 

if we’re to get to sleep tonight,

stop me if i start,

considering everything i might. 



if i could give you a hug, then you know that i would 

but we’re too far apart in the beds we lay to 

living life from afar, and my vision is blurry 

i cant see my face, are you sure that it’s pretty 

do people really love me, is that okay?

are you sure that they don’t care if i’m broken 

are you sure that they don’t care if i’m frozen 

cause i feel, 

cause i feel,

nothing at all 

nothing at all

i feel nothing at all

nothing at all

not the feel of a cold winter mattress, no

not the feel of your hurt when i end everything that’s good for us 

i’m sorry

if i can’t love myself, how could i ever love you

nineteen

produced , engineered , written , and performed by Ayena Savant
sample(s) : super soft by Puma Blue
inspired by arael iv ( @arael_iv )

lyrics:

yes i know 
yes i know
i’ve been gone 

i don’t know
i don’t know 
what you want 

would it kill me to reap what i sow 

would it kill you to leave me alone 

me alone 
( x7 )

and my eyes feel low, oh
and my eyes feel low

and your hands feel cold, oh
and its all my fault

but it cant be so, no
but it cant be so

ive done what ive done now i reap what i sow

leavemealone

produced , engineered , written , and performed by Ayena Savant
sample(s) : Staten Island Ferry by Elijah Fox

lyrics

i'm, afraid to meet your eyes

cause im not, who you would want to find

do i, ever cross your mind?

cause you, never escape mine

im afraid

afraid to meet your eyes

ive been wasting time

im forever blind


i lied to be your answer

the guilt inside is killing me like cancer

i cant catch her, if i can barely catch myself

seasons passing, the snow is all i smell


im afraid

afraid to meet your eyes

ive been wasting time

im forever blind

afraid

produced , engineered , written , and performed by Ayena Savant
sample(s) : Instupendo

lyrics:

through mid morning fall,
i still see you there

running out of tomorrow,
i only wish that i could care 

how am i still alive?
i can feel your pulse by mine don't waste your time

cause im all out of mine,
darling close your eyes, your eyes,
dont ask me why

ocean beneath the skies,
split the sea to view your moon

my brain floods with thoughts of you,
i wish i could see them through

no dont talk to me,
cause honestly,
im half asleep,
right now

half asleep right now

half asleep right now

through mid morning fall,
i still see you there

running out of tomorrow,
i only wish that i could care

comfort

produced , written , and performed by ayena savant 
outro produced by arael iv ( @arael_iv ) 
sample(s) : allure by Brent Faiyaz

lyrics:

( ohh )
i don’t know my self
i don’t know 

( ohh )
can you please send help
i’m alone 

you own all of me cause all of me hates who i am inside 

inside 

inside 

you own all of me oh my

oh my

oh my

you own all of me oh my 


i’ve been on my own for way too long
there’s comfort in my hurt 

i know i made a mess of us
i’ve become my worst 

i’ve begun to lose my voice 

my voice is suffering my love

don’t look at me 
im not the one 

i cannot speak i’ve tied my tongue 


why do i feel the need to lie?
i don’t think i’ll live this time 

you own all of me cause all of me hates who i am inside 

inside

inside 

you own all of me oh my 

oh my 

oh my 

you own all of me oh my 

( ohh )
i don’t know myself 
i don’t know 

can you please send help
i’m alone 

you own all of me cause all of me hates who i am inside

own me

produced , written , and performed by ayena savant

lyrics :

i’m falling away

there’s not much to say 

cause you’re not worth my time 

indulge in me , the sand is fine

but you’ve gone hard to hear 

i recognize the words but they just don’t make sense to me 

they don’t make sense to me 

…

i’m not afraid 

help me raise my hand

tell me in my temple can you help me understand 

if i could change the world , 

if we ever cross our paths , 

maybe i would hate me cause i just can’t love you back

memories painted in red

ayena savant

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