@zzoos @maxynejournal @chewy @concerninggggg

@zzoos
i cannot get enough
fairy dust all on the paper bitch i pack it up
just let me disappear youll see me in a month
holding on 4 dear lifee i think my time is up
no i cannot care ab it
allmy problems adding up
its like im tryna climb a mountain
i love making money
n she like when i count it
threw all my coins in the fountain
i cannot go on without it

u just wna know what it feels like
ill face another one just2 feel right
broken beyond repair my wires tangled up inside
id find my way back2 u in another life
i wont hold back th tears but i dont wna cry:(
tear away my eyes
i dont wna cryy
i got myself caught up inside another lie
id find my way back  2 u in another life

@maxynejournal 
my  wires stripped down
i could build myself back up for u
id do it now
roll up another one when im feeling down
when its like ill drown
drown these feelings out
(i dont wanna talk)
i dont wanna talk
i just wanna listen to u 
every single thought
doing what i want they cant put me in a box
my life go full circle everyday i feel so lost
back to square one but i dont think that ill stop
no i dont think i could stop you
i gotta go soon so what u wanna do
i needa be alone i need some solitude

fairy dust prod heroine & vin

@maxynejournal @zzoos @tillamookbay

@maxynejournal
i walk around till i go back to where i started
i got steel armor on my body bitch im guarded
ive been dreaming bout walking around inside a garden
passed out on the couch feeling discarded
if my bro sad then im sad too
ive been on this path too long i gotta go back soon
i cant be myself i always gotta wear this costume
i fade into nothing think i lost you
im nothing ik
roll up ima smoke
im with signs they my bros
kill me off on a high note
ik everythings gonna be fine thooo

@zzoos
where u tryna go
step out brand new fit n my jacket finalhome
i just do myself they see the swag they tryna clone
post up w my bro we gon fill the room w smoke
i step out the door n they starin at my clothes ya
u keep tryna catch up its not even close ya
i dont wna talk ya she js wna get closer
he keep talkin we gon put that boy up on a poster
i get 2 faded
got my own swag u cant fake it
i dont wna b here i wont say shit
im 2 high starin at the wall i see faces
ya we put that metal 2 his mouth like its braces
idc just go away
5am im so awake
stay in its a snow day
if im rollin up then im okay
i swear i cant switch up ya
no way

@maxynejournal
i walk around till i go back to where i started
i got steel armor on my body bitch im guarded
ive been dreaming bout walking around inside a garden

into nothing prod michimani

production by https://soundcloud.com/heroz2299 https://soundcloud.com/faintthearted
vocals done by me

shoutout @sinefelt & https://soundcloud.com/solxrrz for the tags

Put some colors on my nails hope i change my ways
And i do more for myself but i'm still the same
And i feel the amphetamines taking over my brain
Wish i could change my name, change my face, love myself, go far away
Stress puts me in a cage, can't ever escape, my mental battles, i don't remember Yesterday

And yall give need to give me some respect oh my god
And yall demanding to much like oh my fuckin god
And i try to lay my head down but no i just cannot
I feel myself losing it i can't connect the dots
Fucking up my brain i just repeat then i rot
Eight teen years old i don't got a j*b
Nothing on my name; i can't ever stop

I call my mom, i tell her I'm lost. . . and i don't rlly care at all. . .

can you hear me?

can you hear me? @heroz @dull

produced by @imnotrydxr + @sleepcravings
mixed by me

lyrics:

(i've told you-)

hook:

wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i've told you-)
wake 'em up, wa-wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wa- wa- wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i- i- i've told you-)
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, i pray to god
pray to god, im pretty shaken up
its hard to say a lot
made a way, paved it all alone
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i've told you- i- i- i- i- i-)

verse 1:

people lame as fuck so why i give 'em love
pe-people want me gone but I ain't giving up
(turn it up joie)
pe-people want me gone but I ain't giving up-up
everything i've ever wanted i got it all
everything i've ever wanted i got it all
lotta money fallin out my pockets i rlly ball-ball
eugh
fifty ball my whip to big can't park it, whatchu know
pointers on me ball just like its harden, way2cold-cold

Finlince:
man you're fucking with the one and only man
real REM shit right here, real REM material man
turn it up joie

verse 2:

yuh
got a whole lot in my dome
it gets hard 2 focus
i talk ab things that they dont
these lame bitches know shit
i rlly wake up and get dough
pls stop stealing my motion
mfs hate me cus i rlly be me
i know it, i know it
diamonds cold like ocean, frozen
wintertime, frozen
color of a lotus, pink inside the soda
percocet pill in my system 
it ain't hard to throw up
been a couple years know that
i been here on my lonesome
(huh)
i take these pills no diagnosis huh
concerta 30ball keep me focused
hopeless, you're fucking hopeless
you fuckin dopehead
imma dopehead, fucked up and folded
fucked up my loved ones
this shit's just a cycle i can't get out of
this a part of me that i ain't really proud-proud of
(sound)
everyday feels like an uphill battle, ain't proud of it
oxycontin, xanax bars and downers, i drown in em
(why)
promise i'm doing better, i get up
gotta do things that i can that they can't so
gathering up myself so i'm better
back home, kick the door right in, just like beckham-

hook:
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wake 'em up, wa-wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wa- wa- wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i- i- i- i- i love it here!)
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, i pray to god
pray to god, im pretty shaken up
its hard to say a lot
made a way, paved it all alone
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up

(wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up)
(wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up)

wake up II

wake up II p. rydxr + kai

bitch im too lit in this shit 
i got too much shit on wrist 
yuh i got so much time, im so lit
speedin thru these ranks ion gaf abt it 
swervin in that benz, idc if i live

pull up wit my team takin flicks 
doin all this shit, damn i used to be a bitch 
hoe fw me cuz she know imma be rich 
driving in dat big body, driving in dat lex 

doin fucking flips in dat lex 
doin hella shows im like, “tryna see whats next “
ive been doin all this shit for the flex yuh 
yuh walk into the show n i jump out 
niggas be so weird, yeah they fanned out 
bitch im too lit, im acting out
at my fucking shows imma jump the crowd

lex (fakejoy noa)

Cash In (earbleedin)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary

i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
still i dont know what to think
yeah i forget how to think
i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
shit cut way too deep i feel the pain inside

feel the pain inside still i dont know how to lie
i stand petrified with thoughts of my future life
perspective was so different i saw shit thru younger eyes
sometimes i feel like i should let it all burn in the fire
i cant think straight i cant see straight
im tryna draw a perfect picture i ran out of paint
am i the one to blame? am i the one to blame?
wasting all my given time to end up in the list of names
 
i cant even hate i see yall going up
u cant ever be like me tho been me from the jump
slow couple of months ive been stuck up in a slump
bitch i post up in the uk i told @chewflores pour me another cup
they cant catch up we on diff pace
all they make is fuckin waste
talk down turn em into paste
talk down get hit wit a mace
hiding from what i cant face
in the galaxy still need my space
u cant compare im a diff case
im wit twin too real nah we never fake

i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
still i dont know what to think
yeah i forget how to think
i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
shit cut way too deep i feel the pain inside

O.K. (prod. r000)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary

(tell me im worth it …)
(tell me im something …)
(tell me im doing it right …)

(tell me im worth it …)
(tell me im something …)

just tell me im worth it
tell me im something
tell me im doing it right
live with the curse
end up hurting and hurting
i feel this way every night
take a shot in the dark
try to feel how i feel
its a long way down so sit tight
i cant sleep n im shaking
get lost in my words
u wont know what i mean but thats life

im learning its all part of the process
felt like im lost in the ocean
i was always standing with my arms open
i was always trying to be chosen
now im fine by myself i dont need nobody
dont need u acting like ur so sorry
now im fine by myself i dont need nobody
dont need u acting like ur so sorry

just tell me im worth it
tell me im something
tell me im doing it right
live with the curse
end up hurting and hurting
i feel this way every night
take a shot in the dark
try to feel how i feel
its a long way down so sit tight
i cant sleep n im shaking
get lost in my words
u wont know what i mean but thats life

yea thats life i think its looking up
dont know where its coming from but im still full of doubt 
do u even feel this and know what its about
the feeling that i get is something i cant live without
lots of thoughts that i cant seem to get out
emotion that i cant seem to express
lots of the thoughts that i cant seem to get out
now ur looking disappointed and i feel so incorrect

just tell me im worth it
tell me im something
tell me im doing it right
live with the curse
end up hurting and hurting
i feel this way every night
take a shot in the dark
try to feel how i feel
its a long way down so sit tight
i cant sleep n im shaking
get lost in my words
u wont know what i mean but thats life

that's life (prod. r000)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary

i was ready to end it yuh i was ready to end it
but i got up and im safe yea now i dont no friends bitch
get my racks up in a moment now im just trying to spend it
how u hate but do the same shit rlly i cant comprehend it
rlly i cant comprehend rlly i cant comprehend
without all this i would be dead
i would be dead like u know that i would be dead
life shit fucking with my head
not making moves id rather just stay up in bed
i got cut up and i bled
but time heal wounds so all will be good in the end

i was ready to end it yuh i was trying to end it
but i got up and im safe yea now i dont no friends bitch
get my racks up in a moment now im just trying to spend it
how u hate but do the same shit rlly i cant comprehend it
(rlly i cant comprehend rlly i cant comprehend)
(without all this i would be dead)
(i would be dead like u know that i would be dead)
(life shit fucking with my head)
(not making moves id rather just stay up in bed)
(i got cut up and i bled)
(but time heal wounds so all will be good in the end)

end it Outro (prod. r000)

Ch3d (daln)

SOUL SCREAM 2 prod. Zayosama808

"dear diary" Out now
info.azkii@gmail.com

O.K. (prod. r000)

azkii

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