https://li.sten.to/dear_diary
6 songs written and performed by me
cover art by me
all production by r000 @oaelis

thx @onlyinterpretation for additonal production on track 2
thx @chewflores for verse on track 4

with love,
azkii

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dear diary

single from my upcoming EP—"dear diary" out december 18th
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prod @oaelis featuring @chewflores
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i got fresh shit on me, onitsuka on my tee
i just wear the shit i like dont need to rock expensive things
step with rob up in the scene soon i know we’ll be stacking green
independent since the start bitch i wont ever need no team
i wont ever need no team bitch im always on my own yeah
got too used to moving i cant call no place my home yeah
got too used to losing thought that it was set in stone yeah
but times are changing now im fucking up just like a drone yeah

thorns on my body
come too close you might get stung
you was talking all that shit but look now cat got ur tongue
cant compete with me i wanted to do this since i was young
struggling since i was young
i learnt not to give a fuck
i learnt not to care at all
why would i care if they dont?
why would i care if he doesn’t?
doesnt matter now does it?
it wont matter when im standing tall up there at the summit
it wont matter now because its over and ive been above it

yeah u know what i been on
i been hanging on my own
its a jumpscare to my brain
every time u hit my phone
if i dont text back pls dont think that its ur fault
hows ur heart so full of hate that u share it all day long?
well i guess thats just ur loss
ive been feeling so fucked up
idek the cause
i wish i cld buy shit and forget abt the cost
im not as priveleged as u mfs are

i know i cant be replaced i know my worth hoe
cant hang with just anybody im not your bro
all i knew was that i didnt wanna hurt no more
all i knew was shutting myself off and closing all the doors
i wont ever need no team bitch im always on my own yeah
got too used to moving i cant call no place my home yeah
got too used to losing thought that it was set in stone yeah
but times are changing now im fucking up just like a drone

thorns on my body
come too close you might get stung
you was talking all that shit but look now cat got ur tongue
cant compete with me i wanted to do this since i was young
struggling since i was young
i learnt not to give a fuck
i learnt not to care at all
why would i care if they dont?
why would i care if he doesn’t?
doesnt matter now does it?
it wont matter when im standing tall up there at the summit
it wont matter now because its over and ive been above it

thorns ft. Chew Flores (prod. r000)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary

i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
still i dont know what to think
yeah i forget how to think
i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
shit cut way too deep i feel the pain inside

feel the pain inside still i dont know how to lie
i stand petrified with thoughts of my future life
perspective was so different i saw shit thru younger eyes
sometimes i feel like i should let it all burn in the fire
i cant think straight i cant see straight
im tryna draw a perfect picture i ran out of paint
am i the one to blame? am i the one to blame?
wasting all my given time to end up in the list of names
 
i cant even hate i see yall going up
u cant ever be like me tho been me from the jump
slow couple of months ive been stuck up in a slump
bitch i post up in the uk i told @chewflores pour me another cup
they cant catch up we on diff pace
all they make is fuckin waste
talk down turn em into paste
talk down get hit wit a mace
hiding from what i cant face
in the galaxy still need my space
u cant compare im a diff case
im wit twin too real nah we never fake

i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
still i dont know what to think
yeah i forget how to think
i cant feel but im ok
waiting for my own decay
rot n rot its everyday
i forgot how to convey
i forget how to convey things
shit cut way too deep it stings
shit cut way too deep i feel the pain inside

O.K. (prod. r000)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary
additional production by @onlyinterpretation

(try to silence me then ill get louder)
(number nine sheet music on my trousers)
(stacking fat bands they like chowder)
(i used 2 be scared to put myself out there)

we hear ur tracks and then its volume down
im out with @yamamayamaybe bitch we run the town
if theres lames up in the function then i gotta bounce
most of the time wont even go ill just stay in the house
theyll say they dont know me but ive been around
i think that ill die before i get my crown
i got k.o.’d but still got up for another round
think i might die before u see me up

i feel its too late
i need a new face
but im myself so i cant i know
cant hear what u say
im in my own lane
i cant keep on hiding this pain i know
x2

(try to silence me then ill get louder)
(number nine sheet music on my trousers)
(stacking fat bands they like chowder)
(i used 2 be scared to put myself out there)

im stacking green like gex
ill pull my damn hair out cuz of this stress
i cant live without this i wont have regrets
post up with rob we making moves just like its chess
if u dont give me the respect u get finessed
vision so complex bitch i dont how to express
yeah i step out in some bullshit but i still impress
ill step out in some bullshit ur hoe still obsessed

i feel its too late
i need a new face
but im myself so i cant i know
cant hear what u say
im in my own lane
i cant keep on hiding this pain i know
x2

(try to silence me then ill get louder)
(number nine sheet music on my trousers)
(stacking fat bands they like chowder)
(i used 2 be scared to put myself out there)

Out there (prod. r000 & innocence)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary

(appreciate the art while im still there)
(only thing that will be left of me)
(clocks ticking it feels so unfair)
(i try to make myself worth it i swear)

fuck
i keep talking they wont hear it
bitch i got my own swag if they tried they cannot steal it
24/7 365 im number 1 and they cant be it
living life but sometimes ill get on a track and simply kill it
my wrist hurt ive got to freeze it
i cant fw all that beefing
cant fw a „scene” thats full of kids too focused on succeeding
where expression go? its like im the only thats really feeling
try to make the most of it but i know my time is really fleeting

appreciate the art while im still there
only thing that will be left of me
clocks ticking it feels so unfair
i try to make myself worth it i swear
im wit rob we moving everywhere
im wit all my bros u know we moving fucking anywhere
life hit like a truck n it feel worse when ur just unprepared
way too stressed out like im bout to pull out all of my hair

fuck
i keep talking they wont hear it
bitch i got my own swag if they tried they cannot steal it
24/7 365 im number 1 and they cant be it
living life but sometimes ill get on a track and simply kill it
my wrist hurt ive got to freeze it
i cant fw all that beefing
cant fw a „scene” thats full of kids too focused on succeeding
where expression go? its like im the only thats really feeling
try to make the most of it but i know my time is really fleeting

(appreciate the art while im still there)

memento mori (prod. r000)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary

(tell me im worth it …)
(tell me im something …)
(tell me im doing it right …)

(tell me im worth it …)
(tell me im something …)

just tell me im worth it
tell me im something
tell me im doing it right
live with the curse
end up hurting and hurting
i feel this way every night
take a shot in the dark
try to feel how i feel
its a long way down so sit tight
i cant sleep n im shaking
get lost in my words
u wont know what i mean but thats life

im learning its all part of the process
felt like im lost in the ocean
i was always standing with my arms open
i was always trying to be chosen
now im fine by myself i dont need nobody
dont need u acting like ur so sorry
now im fine by myself i dont need nobody
dont need u acting like ur so sorry

just tell me im worth it
tell me im something
tell me im doing it right
live with the curse
end up hurting and hurting
i feel this way every night
take a shot in the dark
try to feel how i feel
its a long way down so sit tight
i cant sleep n im shaking
get lost in my words
u wont know what i mean but thats life

yea thats life i think its looking up
dont know where its coming from but im still full of doubt 
do u even feel this and know what its about
the feeling that i get is something i cant live without
lots of thoughts that i cant seem to get out
emotion that i cant seem to express
lots of the thoughts that i cant seem to get out
now ur looking disappointed and i feel so incorrect

just tell me im worth it
tell me im something
tell me im doing it right
live with the curse
end up hurting and hurting
i feel this way every night
take a shot in the dark
try to feel how i feel
its a long way down so sit tight
i cant sleep n im shaking
get lost in my words
u wont know what i mean but thats life

that's life (prod. r000)

https://li.sten.to/dear_diary

i was ready to end it yuh i was ready to end it
but i got up and im safe yea now i dont no friends bitch
get my racks up in a moment now im just trying to spend it
how u hate but do the same shit rlly i cant comprehend it
rlly i cant comprehend rlly i cant comprehend
without all this i would be dead
i would be dead like u know that i would be dead
life shit fucking with my head
not making moves id rather just stay up in bed
i got cut up and i bled
but time heal wounds so all will be good in the end

i was ready to end it yuh i was trying to end it
but i got up and im safe yea now i dont no friends bitch
get my racks up in a moment now im just trying to spend it
how u hate but do the same shit rlly i cant comprehend it
(rlly i cant comprehend rlly i cant comprehend)
(without all this i would be dead)
(i would be dead like u know that i would be dead)
(life shit fucking with my head)
(not making moves id rather just stay up in bed)
(i got cut up and i bled)
(but time heal wounds so all will be good in the end)

end it Outro (prod. r000)

"dear diary" Out now
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