[. samsara .]
⦃68\\91bpm | Gminor⦄
everything done by me :)[with thx2 drama trial <333]

✦ inspired_by ✧
(re)percussion - drama trial
movies for guys - Jane Remover
words_frm the dying - sewerperson

. .『lyrics』. .
and you know where to find me
sitting by my lonely
staring into starlight
looking for her

and you know where to find me
sitting in desperation
staring into starlight
fantasising about her

[מִחָדָשׁ]
i want her to grip my tits and fuck me until my neck snaps
until my visions jet black
i needa get that
i want to leave this earth with her and never get back
dissipate into the sky
die to feel alive

[מִחָדָשׁ]
[looking for her]
[חזור]
[die to feel alive]
[מִחָדָשׁ]
[חזור]

[מִחָדָשׁ]
¿if i leave, what will it mean?
never here, never been
just a voice in peoples heads
just a ghost in peoples dreams
just a part of everyone who isnt me
ive never seen outside my iris
¿so what difference will there be?

[מִחָדָשׁ]
[¿what difference will there be?]
[חזור]
(i'll be here if you need anything)
(i'll be here)

---

dirt dress; 6 below
wooden cardigan; 6 below
earthly sheath; 6 below
let it eat me; await my rebirth

and you know where to find me
laying dead on your living room floor
with my blood soaking into your carpet
and my brains all over your decor

and you know where to find me
laying dead on your living room floor
looking for her
looking for her

[मौत]

---

physical death, earthly escapist
finally a time where my life isnt wasted
shattered mind, scattered crying faces
didnt care about mine so i fucking erased it

off to see my beloved
such a steep climb, i love it
treat me just like your puppet

fuck me till i feel nothing
[nothingisreal]
[nothingisreal]

---

¿will they remember me?
¿as the girl who couldnt fall;
as the girl who couldn't bleed?
¿will they remember me? [ნახვამდის]
¿as someone i could never be?

its a long way home
i dont have the time
to rewrite my past
it was a long time coming
but i hope they remember me
as doing my best

and you know where to find me [կորցրել]
as i ascend [ასვლა]
as i leave your world [მე არ ვბრუნდები]
as i enter בָּטֵל [ეთერი]

i hope they remember me [הֱיה שלום]
as doing my best
[all i think about is you]
[¿რატომ არ მიყვარხარ?]

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↺संसार²↻

here is one

* a citizen expresses their concerns.

track 2/7

self produced, self-written, and self assured

lyrics:
i can tell you how it starts
you can tell me how it ends
i can tell you how it starts
you can tell me how it ends
setter of trends, setter of trends
put me on a pedestal
i love to be my own false idol
show me where believers go
ten bodies at the edge of a cliff

now you're picking up
what he's putting down
(x2)
it's been getting easier to act like
i'm the main character of my life
and i'm afraid of where this might be headed
promise me
you won't let me see
all the ways i might fall short

i'm planning my escape
keeping a poker face
this game that we play
is getting old
how much longer will it take for you to
call off the dogs you think you own
you think you own everything
(are you committed to the bit?)
(it's eating you up slowly but surely)

excellence syndrome

Excellence Syndrome, or when the Joke Becomes Your Personality

prod. + written by thms.
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//Whats with the hourglass
//There's so much time that’s passed
//watching each grain fall fast

//I cant say why we wont last
//You wont tell me so face the fact
//Its over and that’s just that 

It’s the things you say to me
In the back of our car going 80, chasing dreams
It's all I can believe  
Why can't you see it?
 
Yeah I swear that we share the same please,
whats a life without your soul in me
Yeah baby won't you see
That im all you need

//what else can I say

I fought our wars
Bloodshed for you
These scars i've torn
Standing at your doors

And you wont accept these
Yeah why would you test me

things have run their course
yet i just want more
they march on my shores 
but yet i implore

Bring back the mars and envy
My blood was worth your every

And I know these 
don’t just go away
But I'm right here 
frozen in place

Swear to god say 
what you wanna say
That’s what I thought
you can't say it to my face

That's why you filter through my dreams
Gives me something to believe
Something no one else can need
That's why im right here

For you my dear
Not telling a soul who can speak
About all the things in me
that's why i write in stones

Too breathe it in once more
Didn't think this is what it would take
duplicates stay raised on my brain
Why would you leave me?

It’s the things you say to me
In the back of our car going 80, chasing dreams
It's all I can believe  
Why can't you see it?
 
Yeah I swear that we share the same please,
whats a life without your soul in me
Yeah baby won't you see
That im all you need

//what else can I say

I fought our wars
Bloodshed for you
These scars i've torn
Standing at your doors

And you wont accept these
Yeah why would you test me

things have run their course
yet i just want more
they march on my shores 
but yet i implore

Bring back the mars and envy
My blood was worth your every

And I'll never understand the maybe
Is it why im so damn hazy
The decision seems clear 
so baby

Please save me 
im drowning in this

Lake
your raising 

Won't understand why you hate me
Just reminders of our new daily
Won't ever waste my time

yeah lately
things seem

Just as there 
meant to be

im drowning 
please save me
please save me
please save me


//Whats with the hourglass
//There's so much time that’s passed
//watching each grain fall fast

//I cant say why we wont last
//You wont tell me so face the fact
//Its over and that’s just that

expectations

not enough 2 (sxthsns, me)

we on!

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/5Tc58sFJ4l2G5UZBeShbzg
featuring https://soundcloud.com/user-190331108

(bevel)
why should i care
when the thought of my work will fade
you can try to stay alive
but the passage of time will consume you
(does it really mean that much to you?)
what will you focus on
when all happiness is a carry-on
and the realization gets to settle
oh, why should i try at all
for things that dont last
need my own death to take the fall
of facing my own past

(tang)
(why should i care)
(why should i care)
(why should i care)
(why should i care)
lately ive been feeling worthless
like nothing that i do is worth it
i used to wanna be so perfect
but everybody dies so whats the purpose
say i got rich and all the fame in the world
achieved all my dreams and always ended up first
why should i care about that now
why should i care about that yea
laying in my bed, dirty clothes on the floor
i used to think i could be so much more
but time will consume us so Ill just ignore
all of my dreams and my wills from before
i don't know what to do anymore
might as well drop dead on the floor
nothing matters, what's it all for
nothing matters anymore

Forgotten Memories from Forgotten Lives

why should i (feat. tang)

gasping for air | Track 6/6
written, performed, produced, mixed & mastered by Micah Callari

made in one day on August 29, 2023
https://open.spotify.com/track/1Vk9KVO4JwH9aYozcd2AhG?si=bc8a3297868349e2

[Verse 1]
Chamomile tea, I don’t think it’s really helping
But I’ll still sip, if it means that I’ll be better
For tonight, when I sleep ten thousand years
And wake fatigued, like usual

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Verse 2]
Sometimes I wish, in times like these, that I had a temperature
For my temperamental body, but I don’t
I never do, it’s always 98.6
Maybe people would listen, if it was in Celsius, I guess

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ll suck it up and take it on
Head first, congested ‘til the dawn
I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong
Even after my body’s gone
I’ll suck it up and take it on
Head first, congested ‘til the dawn
I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong
Even after my body’s gone

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Bridge]
Non-verbal at the function, there’s something in my bones
I doubt there’s a contagion, but I should still go home
Trying to make myself take these pills
But something’s stopping me, it’s otherworldly, these hands are not my own
They’re stained with blood from something sinister (For sure)
Couldn’t be me, couldn’t be me, it can’t be me, I’ve barely moved the past few days
I’ve prayed to God that I’ll administer (The cure)
It couldn’t be, it couldn’t be, is this what comes from never changing my ways

[Chorus]
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, sick again
Here I am, here I am, in the dumps, once again
Sick again, sick again, sick again, I’m sick again

[Outro]
Here I am, here I am (I’ll suck it up and take it on)
In the dumps, once again (Head first, congested ‘til the dawn)
Sick again, sick again (I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong)
Sick again, sick again (Even after my body’s gone)
Here I am, here I am (I’ll suck it up and take it on)
In the dumps, once again (Head first, congested ‘til the dawn)
Sick again, sick again (I’ll still get told that’s nothing wrong)
Sick again, I’m sick again (Even after my body’s gone)

sick again

@tj12318

https://soundcloud.com/tj12318/fml

break my life !!!!

Housekeeping

endless . old*

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all tracks are written, produced, mixed, and mastered entirely by me, unless stated otherwise

why should i (feat. tang)

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