Don’t mind me just ballin my eyes out now cuz how pretty this is!😭🥺

IT'S YOUR FUCKING FAULT (5head X Flower)

prod me :)

lyrics:

it takes a lot to understand
and a lot just to forgive
i got a song stuck in my head
and the words just make me sick
because it makes me think of you
and that's the last thin i wanna do
we were kissing til we can't 
making angels in the snow
now i've got an empty hand 
and a lump within my throat
and i just can't seem to renew
because there's no one else like you

i
don't wanna cry
so leave me inside
where i'm without harm
lie
i hate when i lie
i'm feeling like ice
i'd like to be warm

so
where u been at, where u been at?
cold
i'm used to that, i'm used to bein
alone
will you be back before i turn to stone?

no
i don't think that you'll make it even close
and god i wish i didn't have to know
i didn't have to know

i don't wanna go
but i don't wanna stay
cuz everywhere i look i see your face
i don't wanna go
i guess i'll stay the same
i've never felt like more of a disgrace


I GUESS I'M TALKING TO MYSELF, LOVE
HAVING CONVERSATIONS WITH A GHOST
I SWEAR THE THOUGHT OF YOU'S A PARASITE
AND I'M A VERY WILLING HOST
I'D GIVE IT ALL TO SEE YOU BACK HERE
BUT I DON'T HAVE A LOT TO LOSE
I GUESS I'M TALKING TO MYSELF, DEAR
BECAUSE IT CLEARLY ISN'T YOU

Echo 419

:)

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lyrics:

where do we go from here?
i don't really know
no, i don't really know much
got a lot on my conscience
bear the weight
only cuz you tell me that it's nonsense
try to stay calm
but my mind is a moshpit
and it's growing obnoxious

spend another late night
driving back from your place
didn't wanna stay there
i can't get to bed if i don't feel like i'm alone
cuz otherwise i think too much
they tell me live a real life
i am not familiar with what that would even feel like
i cannot relate to the feelings that you know
but you don't understand that much

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

apophenia (hero)

New song "Disappointed"
featuring casperrr & neverxhappy

-lyrics-
You were the thing that 
That took me out of bed
And now that you are gone
I’m stuck inside my head 
But all the memories we made
Just before you left
I’m sick of going after someone
Who makes me feel dead

You were the one thing that 
That tore me out of bed
And now that you are gone
I’m stuck inside my head 
But all the memories we made
Just before you left
I’m sick of going after someone
Who makes me feel dead

You make me feel dead
Or is it in my head 
That every night when I close my eyes
I can feel your hands 
They’re choking me blue 
I’m disappointed in you
The way you act terrible 
Then always play me for a fool

Empty apologies 
Now what’s the point
You made up your mind
You made your choice
Everything you say to me
Is just empty words 
There’s nothing that you could say
To stop this hurt 

Im sorry that I’m not the guy
That could change your mind
I’m sorry that I’m not the type
To waste your time 
Cause I see it in your eyes
When you look at him
Don’t worry babe 
I’m just a little disappointed 
Im sorry that I’m not the guy
To sweep you off your feet
Im sorry that I can’t give you
Everything you need 
Don’t worry babe I’ll be okay
Just go back to him
I’m just a little
Just a little disappointed

I’m disappointed
That I’m a disappointment
(That I’m a disappointment)
I wasn’t half the man that I should’ve been 
(That I should’ve been X2)
I know that you’ve been so alone 
And I’ve been in the snow 
And you’re still with him 
Thinking of me instead of him  

Im sorry that I’m not the guy
That could change your mind
I’m sorry that I’m not the type
To waste your time 
Cause I see it in your eyes
When you look at him
Don’t worry babe 
I’m just a little disappointed 
Im sorry that I’m not the guy
To sweep you off your feet
Im sorry that I can’t give you
Everything you need 
Don’t worry babe I’ll be okay
Just go back to him
I’m just a little
Just a little disappointed


prod IOF
mix by all artists on song

Disappointed (feat. casperrr X neverxhappy)

backyard beetle - don't let me fall (prod. immortal)

trapped in a world where we
dont know what we're doing
we're REALLY fucking clueless
vices on my desk, contraband in my head :/
its fine to us,,
i got party in my dna ^-^
i cant even brace , or hurt
cause i cant feel my face, uh.
rum and everythings fine 
i do what i want

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh...'

i still hurt sometimes

nothing makes sense :(
another bro got jaded >:(
i think they laced him >;(
TELL ME WHAT THE PAY IS
i got real bones ache and they sure ache
i cant even stand to see my own face.

-

ghastly imagez..

lil nightshift

ghastly imagez.. p. lil nightshift

stay a little longer

LYRICS:
And I'm sorry bout the things I said
There's no need to leave me left on read
But I get it girl
I've been thinking bout the days we fight
Walking on thin ice
I'm the fire to your candle girl
Best believe me I'm trying heal us
But baby girl I'm no genius
Gotta tell me how you feel, It's between us
Argue, late nights, I'm left sleepless
~
She wants dates nights, I want nights in
Got a bottle on the night stand
Bite my tongue so she stops crying
and I'm so sick and tired of lying to get what I want
Either you love me or leave me alone
Calling and calling please pick up the phone
I remain silent when I hear the tone
~
Girl I need you bad
Always on my mind
I've been in my bag
Remember all the time that we spent?
Late nights high, blowin smoke out the vent
now you always wanna vent
I'm like what'd I do now
Girl just tell me, I don't got a clue, nah
Why I got to fix shit when you're feeling blue?
Cause when I feel the same I got to fix it too
I'm done
Tell me how it is or I'm done
If you not gon try
Girl I gotta run
I can see it your eyes that you puttin on a front
On thin ice, hope it cracks, so I plunge
Freezing to the bone, Got me feeling how you felt
If you truly love me girl maybe I can melt
If not, oh well ... leave me cold, shattered and broken
~
And I'm sorry bout the things I said
There's no need to leave me left on read
But I get it girl
I've been thinking bout the days we fight
Walking on thin ice
I'm the fire to your candle girl
Best believe me I'm trying heal us
But baby girl I'm no genius
Gotta tell me how you feel, It's between us
Argue, late nights, I'm left sleepless
~
Rainy days
Hear lightning striking
I remember getting geeked when She typing
Now I'm lucky for a text without frightening
Me to the core, little love left Syphon
Crying cause memories haunt
Grasping whats left
Cause what's next I don't want
I lost myself in you
Parts of my heart
Thoughts of my past with her tares me appart

Thin Ice [Luv2Feel]

beat prod by: wisssery
written and performed by: popularreject x breakupbreakdown

bulletproof vest + breakupbreakdown (p. wisssery)

Sorry for my inactivity recently. been finding it hard to put my thoughts into writing. thank you for 2k on your loss with @caspywaspy, thank you for my first 5k, and most importantly thanks for sticking by me. Ill be back fully asap.

Lyrics

man fuck why does nothin ever last
Wonder what that means for the people that i have
Will they miss me like ill miss them?
if they dont then what does that say about my worth 
Uhh , will 
I be okay?
usually i can sleep off all the pain
I tell myself the same every night 
Tomorrow ill be feelin alright

ill be fine when i wake up
Hate when they treat me like something im not 
trying my best to suppress the depression but im so damn close to just giving me up
Fuck
Sorry mum
I wish that i could be the son that you want
A credit to you but im useless as fuck
I should kill myself i wish i was enough
(I wasnt enough)

not doin enough
promise im trying my best to keep up
with all of my friends and my family my loved 
but this shits so hard with my mind in the mud

ill never be who i wanna be
Just a fat piece of shit with a brick for a mind
How did people ever like me?
What do you see in this excuse of a guy
Why do you all stick by me?
i did nothing to deserve that
shit would be best if i died, see?
Spilling my blood in the cold bath

ill be fine when i wake up
Hate when they treat me like something im not 
trying my best to suppress the depression but im so damn close to just giving me up
Fuck
Sorry mum
I wish that i could be the son that you want
A credit to you but im useless as fuck
I should kill myself i wish i was enough
(I wasnt enough)

enough (autrioly)

christchurch 2023

I won’t be upset
If you let me down
Mm cos im such a mess
But you already know that
Do you think of me less
When im not involved with you
Could you give it a rest
Cos im over it now
(Bitch, you see)

You left me out in the open
And if I don’t see you tonight
Yeah you probably know why
That’s why I don’t care
And if you need something from me
I’ll probably tell you to leave

Oh I was waiting all night for a text back from you
Ill check back an hour later
And those hours turned into days
In moments like these
I know you’ll never call back
Well you should check on yourself
And maybe cut me some slack
Cos if it weren’t for the songs im making
Id have a lot of feelings to crack

You left me out in the open
And if I don’t see you tonight
Yeah you probably know why
That’s why I don’t care
And if you need something from me
I’ll probably tell you to leave
Cos no I don’t care
Oh you mean nothing to me
And I just want you to leave
Cos I don’t care (no I don’t care)
Oh you’ve stolen my heart
Im the rogue to your thief

Im the rogue to your thief
Yeah you’ve casted a spell, and its making me weak
Can I ever get over this?

Oh I need some time
To get all my feelings in check (darling I loved you)
Im still figuring it out
Im still figuring it out
Im still figuring it out
Im still figuring it out
Im still figuring it out


But you left me out in the open
And if I don’t see you tonight
Yeah you probably know why
That’s why I don’t care
And if you need something from me
I’ll probably tell you to leave
Cos no I don’t care
Oh you mean nothing to me
And I just want you to leave
Cos I don’t care (no I don’t care)
Oh you’ve stolen my heart
Im the rogue to your thief

thief

never give up


also known as sixthirtyeight


musician / graphic designer / engineer 

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