[lyrics]

i say why you wanna know?
girl why u moving slow
uh

i tried to change my ways
stuck up in cocaine
and everybody looking at me with a sad face
percy in my nose xanax in my coat
sipping lean pour a 4
yeah that's the way
mclaren drive
im moving 33
im sipping wokhart codeine
im a dirty kid
i dont care what the haters finna say
im just a junkie and i like it that way
okay

here we are crashed another car
fucked up popping beans
have u ever gone this hard
i dont think you have
i dont think you know
what it's like to live like kid fucking benzo

it ain't a good life, its just a sad life
im crying in my room
cutting wrists every night
im mixing up my sprite
till im alright
and that's never alright
fuck the past life

i'm so detestable
so neglectable 
my life is incomprehensible
at the festival i was high as fuck
drowning in the drugs
screaming fuck your love
here we go tryna find a way out
no way out, so i'm falling back down
i need some molly that's sassafras
i fucked it up and did another bag

i blow the bag out then i blow cologne
weed up all inside my coat
oxycontin in my nose
woah
im a rapper and a singer
shoot you with a chopper while im riding in the dinger
i'm such a lonely guy
getting high like all the time
so lost inside my mind
oh girl i need to decide

what do i do what do i say
i don't even fucking know where i am today
what do i do what do i say
i'm alone in my mind and there's no escape
burning in depression constantly
my mind is such a bad place to be
psychedelics can numb it all
want to escape eternally (woah)

woah woah oh
answer your voicemails girl i'm alone
please pick up your fucking phone
i don't know anymore
tried to call but no response
just tell me what do u want
please just put your faith in god
oh, put your faith in god

what do i do what do i say

Past Life (prod.cursedstorm)

i   s i t   i n   s o m b e r   s o r r o w

(Lyrics)
You said that you loved me but
You dance with a better guy who's different
Kisses witnessed from my own perspective
Reconsidering every single thing I've ever done

Cause i know you're bound to fuck and that's my fucking issue
I sit in somber sorrow as i grab another tissue
How the fuck do you expect me to just trust you when 
I see y'all dance
When i see y'all laugh

Y’all have a connection
I get the neglecting
Along with regretting the choice
Of giving you chance after chance
I just dance but I can’t anymore cause this love

Is at an all time low
How can we float if there's holes in our boat?
This can’t be fixed and time has shown 
That once again that I’ll be thrown 

Under the bus
While you dance and you touch 
This other guy who’s something better 
Than what I’d ever be

What is wrong with me
I try my best but eventually
The same song starts like it's on repeat
As I stand and I start to scream

I didn't think I'd get hurt again but
Here I stand on the tallest mountain
Like the rainfall
I drop 
Oh so slowly
I call
But nobody hears me

IHY2 (CapsCtrl)

backyard beetle - withdrawal w/ lxst boy

It was a pleasure to work with cray on this, love this song.
(prod. sadface)

**lyrics**
(me)
You can hate me
You can hate me
You can hate me all you want, I'll still give you my heart

I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

Looking into all my thoughts & my actions
Hella reminiscent i've been living in the past tense
Well at least I had my fun while it lasted
Screaming in the mirror, pick out everything i'm lacking 

Back then you remember we were laughing?
Every time I gotta mess it up its automatic
Tragic, I witnessed everything that happened
Hate the way I cope 'cause its been getting problematic

(yungcray)
Girl I don't like this, woke up in my room I'm the highest
I said I'm so weak but bro I'm trying
everyday's the same but you don't mind it
i don't like this though

lets take a step back can we go back to what we was
lets let the time pass, think about all the things we could
i cant help but cry when I'm stuck up in this dark maze
you were the drug, now here comes all the heartache

(me)
I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

all that i had w/ yungcray

Chase The Moon w/ Devie & Blocktane

produced by Jacob Vallen & Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
on these warm September nights
fireflies dance in your eyes
we can take out time
I don't wanna grow up, we got the rest of our lives
time stood still when you kissed my cheek
when I close my eyes I see us in dreams
try to soak up this moment and make it last
when we're old and grey, hope we look back on

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Neverland don't seem so far away
when I'm by your side, I know I'll be okay
I know you know
soon we'll find us a home
hold tight, we're almost there
I'll hold your hand and push back your hair
look me in the eye when you say that you want this 
forever and ever and ever and ever and ever

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Seventeen Evergreen

u know that one guy courage the cowardly dog?? yeah im like him fr

imthecoward (ft. popularreject)(p. wokedown)

lyrics ⬇️

time flies by i know
make the life you wanna unfold
one eye looking down the rifle
countless tries they got me going thru a cycle

tbink back when i was young i would go hunting in the woods
grandpa taught me that yhe guns are only used for doing good
why is everybody toting all their guns up in the hood
i really think that i would change the world if i feel that i could

love, peace thats all that we need
everybody hates a single feeling of defeat

i always try my best to tell em how i feel
i dont like to crash the parties
i dont like to pop the pills
gimme paranoia 
used to gimme thrills
made me trapped made me stuck feelin ill
“whats up, poor a cup” no deal
maybe thats the reason i feel how i feel

they said that i gotta learn how to live
i wish that i could get past all the tricks
but i know nobodys an idol
so vital, the fact that you can lie tho

nowdays i think that honesty really got an appeal
theyll take ur heart when u think that they dont steal
yea you really gotta watch out 
cuz theyre gon tell you that you shouldnt ever fear

paranoia hits me in my ears
talking all the time thinking bout the years
i dont wanna think that you were ever even mine
you were with my peers 
it was clear

now i know what really came to my demise
but i dont wanna hear what i should really hear
always try to cover every single little lie
cuz i dont wanan kneel where we used to lay
but when its all uncovered ik how youll rlly feel
ill look up in the sky and hope ur still alive
im feeling really horrible and skippin all my meals
cuz i know im the guy that ruined ur whole life

nobody told me it wpuld be this hard
fell to my knees cuz it was ruined from the start

always felt like i need backup
yea but that aint even really rational 
could blame it all on bad luck
you know this life gets so personal

peace. (cl6udy x splashgang)

Sober ft ilykira (Prod.Ahnboi)

(ghostbxy)
I already know that were not gonna make it
You’ve been fucking around with them so shameless
You’re the reason why our love is tainted 
Do you think me dumb?
Do you think me brainless?

I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go 

You're not different
You're just like them
Veins were filled with toxin
That's how you lured me in

You might be poison ivy with the way you go invite me into your Toxic life and its fucking constant fighting

Cause you don't want to admit the truth
Burning all that smells proof 
Ashes stay like scent infused
Clothing that I bought for you

Giving my all but you don't give a fuck
Breaking my bones while you're breaking my heart
Telling me that this is all my fault

(halfhearted)
You don't know what you do to me
I don't think you ever will
Remember that night
You said I won't drive
I've been behind the wheel
Crossing the lines that I said I won't cross
???
???
You walked out the door
Why it take you so long

And I'm stuck in my head with no mission
Remember in school I would get you detention
Used to fall asleep, now I'm up all night
I can't dream
This is for the kid that I was
Headphones on in the back of the bus
Can't feel shit cause a knife in my gut
Let me live girl, I've had enough

(ghostbxy)
I’m always trying my best
But you’re lying 
Stabbing knives in my chest 
So I’ll go

A Sorrowful Heart w/ halfhearted

BURN OUT

never give up


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