SANTA CRUZ

Hate To Hate You

God Damn

PATTERNS

Are You Okay?

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Written by Alex Carroll (Sentric Music) Josef Page (Thirteen-24 / B-Unique) Produced by Josef Page. Mixed by Philippe Weiss. Mastered by Robin Schmidt.

Violet

i don’t know what happened between 
playing in your mothers kitchen 
now everybody’s asking where you are 
and heaven knows i hate the ghosts 
that wore you down and took you over 
promise it won’t feel like this for long 

and i know its difficult to talk about it 
i know it’s difficult to talk 

cause violet, violet 
i know that you’re tired, tired
but oh you can fight it, fight it 
you can fight it, violet 
and it’s oh so frightening building back up 
when i know your mind is telling you off 
oh violet, violet 
violet violet 

the things that hide beneath your bed 
the creepy crawlies in your head 
the weight that’s sat upon your aching lungs 
its not the way you’re supposed to wake up 
fighting fires with a dish cloth
i promise it won’t feel like this for long

cause violet, violet 
i know that you’re tired, tired
but oh you can fight it, fight it 
you can fight it, violet 
and it’s oh so frightening building back up 
when i know your mind is telling you off 
oh violet, violet 
violet violet 

it’s difficult to talk about it 
it’s difficult to talk about it 
it’s difficult to talk about it 
it’s difficult to talk 

violet, violet
i know that you’re tired, tired 
but oh you can fight it, fight it 
you can fight it
violet

violet

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produced by @scrawnymusic & madilyn mei 
mixed by scrawny
mastered by joe hutchinson
artwork by madilyn mei

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Lyrics:

If we split up the group
Can I be paired with you?
Not for any reason
Other than the fact I think
We make for a good team
A side story or two
Slay a couple dragons together
and I can’t help but 
I can’t help but think that
maybe you and me
could kinda sorta
I’m not sure where this sentence is going
Um

I can’t help but think that
Maybe you and I
Could possibly try
To take on a side quest sometime

If we split from the team
But you wanna follow me
Or I could follow you
Come on let’s do our own thing

I sound like such a flirt
But usually this works
Something about you just leaves me all fidgety 
Speechless and wishing we were
Something a little bit more than the friends that we are
But I’ll take this if it means I get
To be around you 

I wanna make stories to put on a shelf
I wanna protect who can’t protect themself
I wanna do everything I can and more
So do you accept my side quest or-

I wanna make stories to put on a shelf
I wanna protect you when you can’t yourself
I wanna do everything I can and more
So do you accept my side quest or-
Do I gotta woo you a little bit more?

Side Quest Song

Stream

"You are so tired. I know you are so tired.
You're tired of catching things to be like people who makes tons of IDs then showcased it publicly because you couldn't came up with anything. You're tired with college. You're tired of catching someone that from Surabaya who were clearly 5 years older than you to convince her that you're being serious with her, but ended up you're blocked on every social media. You're tired of continuing the TPLS album. You're tired of meeting someone new from dating apps who were clearly you planned to meet them. You're tired of relapsing about your ex. You're tired seeing someone could be together again with their ex. You're tired because no one came to you exactly to help you. You're tired because you don't have anybody to be the one that really trusted you or even understand it.

Even more denial,
You're tired of being told to not kill yourself, and so you're tired of trying it. You're tired of being told "Hope you find someone better" because it sounded so irritating to you. You're tired of being told "Cheer up" or even "Go fuck yourself" because you already did both and still feel empty. You're tired of being told to make more Alva Bounce. You're tired of expressing your emotion, so that you became so numb with everything, surrounded by walls that were made by loud voices in your head. You're tired spoiling yourself. You're tired of being sandwich generation. You're tired of being depressed. You're tired of being anxious. You're tired of being tired. 

You're tired of being stressed. You're tired of crying. You're tired of being happy or even sad. You're tired to understand people. You're tired of being your current self. You're tired of taking meds. It's going to be an eternal cycle to yourself."

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Yeah I’m Tired was made before they broke up. Coincidentally, this song is completely related to the creator where they failed to find someone that they thought would fall in love with them unconditionally. Besides being down by the fact that they couldn’t be with someone that they’re into, they began to be more easily tired and their social battery easily drained out due to all the disappointment that they received from people that in the end, they became a phase or part of their life story temporarily. Delivered with UK Garage blended with the creator’s signature, Alva Bounce, this song is super personal for the creator themselves. 
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Yeah I'm Tired, (I'm so tired of it)
Yeah I'm Tired, (I'm so tired of it)
Yeah I'm Tired, (I'm so tired of it)
Yeah I'm Tired, (I'm so tired of it)

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At the end, this EP was brought by me to myself

Yeah I'm Tired [2/2] [Out via CHARGE RCRDS]

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My And I Love Her (Instrumental)

4E Jobless

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Barely Average