constant songs

prod. clams casino 

Would you be my winter flower
If I lose track of my self 
I can’t ever take no help 
No self sometimes I throw it a fucking way
Wit the wind
I can’t even sit fuckin still for a second
Life’s a trip
I fuckin fell a couple times on my way
I don’t know what to say no more
I could get it in til the morn 
Uh I’m stayin up til the street sweepers stillgoin
Blendin these days more n more 
Blank page to filled page 
Like i ain’t got much to say no more
So imma get dope 
Spark it up I smoke
Problems get con fuckin trolled

wind

vocals produced at bridge east studios by john dello lacono 
thank you all for the love so far, without you i probably wouldnt have kept at this, <33333


my existence
is just something
that i would ignore
dont try too hard
you might fall
on your way out the door
i still feel quite alone
surrounded by the people i love
taking time
ill hurry up
still trying my hardest
but it wasnt fast enough

everyday the same routine
of forcing myself out of sleep
itd be much easier to breathe
if i didnt want to leave my dreams

can you look me in the face
and say the things you really think
before i end it all
and bury myself 
with these memories

the same routine

Original Sample - Nicole Dollanganger : Mean

☣☥♂♵♹♳♵♂☥☣ - cccxxiii

letdown

mixed by @wrcktngl

I don't think that you
remember what 
You said
it's fine,
I don't care
I just wanna
hold u again
x2

When I heard your lyrics
it fucking killed me inside
I want to be your everything
I don't want us to hide
from all our problems
I don't want us to fight
about all the bullshit
that we do to cope with life

If I can't make you happy
how the fuck did this all start?
If everything's so lonely
why'd you stab me in the heart?
If I can't hold you down
then I'm pissing in the wind
If I can't be something
that will make you whole again

I don't think that you
remember what 
You said
it's fine,
I don't care
I just wanna
hold u again
x2

make u whole again w/ wrcktngl

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=khUV37yUumQ


dont tell me fucking shit
stop pulling on my strings
tried telling you before
but you just wont seem to quit
im not throwin in 

im making myself known
and im ignoring inside tones
the race just started here we go
im not stopping till we dead
im fucking in

start (prod OmenXIII) (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

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Bet I'd miss that
Bet I'd miss that
pink on your nails
blood on my back

I say fuck that
Im always sayin fuck that
Ffckfckfkck

Yes I'd miss that
Guess I'd miss that
pink on your nails
blood on my back

I say fuck that
Im always sayin fuck that
Momma hit me up
To say don't hit me back

Walk on dirt thrones
Til u sink in
I know ur just as lost
But good at faking
Flick ash on the couch that I'm sitting
Wish I could spare it and combust instead
All of your faces are mirrors
Fighting reflections we hate ourselves in

Bet I'd miss that
Bet I'd miss that
pink on your nails
blood on my back

I say fuck that
Im always sayin fuck that
Ffckfckfkck

Yes I'd miss that
Guess I'd miss that
pink on your nails
blood on my back

I say fuck that
Im always sayin fuck that
Momma hit me up
To say don't hit me back

I want the sky to grab me
And shake me by the head
I want the sea to take your feet
and pull you deep within
Remember we were drunk
But we weren't afraid of shit
I want the flames to stop
But I can't tell where they begin

bet i'd miss that
bet i'd miss that
pink on ur nails
blood on my back..
i say fuck that
always saying fuck that
i say fuck...
...always saying fuck that
(x2)

pink on ur nails, blood on my back

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

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And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

https://soundcloud.com/anobodyreally



lyrics:
sitting up
in fields of gray
i hold my hands
and hope today 
this god up there
will hear me pray 
that the sun comes out
another day
hear myself breathing in
lost my voice from screaming this

nowhere to be found (prod ʎpoqou)

follow and support @nadiakuk

first vocal track released as 'cabe' so tell me what you think. there will be more next year...
other vocals and beats @kryptik_official

snapchat: kryptikbeats
instagram: yung_kryptik

lyrics:
it started with a sweet kiss . i guess you were my weakness...
somethings on your mind. tell me why
all the love was sweet bliss. red roses with the cheap tricks
somethings on your mind. tell me I'm the reason why
i never felt from the start, just numb
tell me I'm the fucking reason for this outcome...
all these feelings i can't outrun...

yeah.. 
i saw that you called...aye...
fuck that shit guess i'll miss them all... girl,
i thought you was the best of them all... but...
i was the dumbest one of them all... yeah...
fuck it pack another bowl... yeah...
all i have to do is make a call... aye
ring ring ring thats her on the phone... 
knock knock knock on the door now its on...

from the start (prod. nadiak)

produced by nofeeling
@killstation
my vocals m/m by @prohibeo

nothing left to say ft killstation (prod dysphora)

TIME IS JUST A STR8 LINE U DONT GET SECOND CHANCES
IVE BEEN WORKIN SO HARD TRYNA GAIN AN ADVANTAGE
CHERISH EVERY BREATH I TAKE DONT TAKE EXISTENCE FOR GRANTED
LIFE IS JUST A GAME OF CARDS U PLAY THE DECK THAT UR HANDED
SO PLEASE DONT GAMBLE WITH YOUR LIFE CUS U COULD LOSE IT 
U GOT A BRAIN INSIDE UR SKULL THEN FUCKING USE IT
FACE THE FACTS U GOTTA LISTEN TO THE MUSIC 
I FEEL WORTHLESS I DONT KNOW WHY I DO THIS 
I AM JUST MY BREATH, I AM JUST THE BLOOD THAT IVE BLED
AINT NO TELLING HOW MUCH FUCKING TIME THAT I HAVE LEFT 
BUT IMA MAKE IT THE BEST, I WANNA SPREAD HAPPINESS 
EVEN THO IVE BEEN DEPRESSED I KNOW LIFES BETTER THAN THIS 
SHIT IVE BEEN GOIN THRU IT SOMETIMES U GOTTA DO IT 
U GOTTA TAKE A RISK, TAKE A HIT OR MAYBE TAKE A LOSS
TAKE THAT SHIT ON THE CHIN, PAIN AINT NOTHIN TO A BOSS 
BLOOD LOSS DONT SCARE ME I DONT WANNA FEEL EMPTY ANYMORE

LiL 137 - 6. Angel Tears (PROD. ÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷)

Forever In Love  produced by suddencold

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kquAUAmBrVk
soundcloud.com/anobodyreally
vocal mix by soundcloud.com/iamrellim

someone go get him
he’s losing it
again
you not the only one
moving on
slowly from
a once in love
but now fucked up
bond as one
i don’t believe in love
after all I’ve done
i belive in trust
thats first things first
i don’t put past
a lot more loss
dragging from the back
of my cars old trunk

I’m alone 
I’m alone
i refuse to pick 
up the phone
i won’t check a
text or call
leave me be 
let me go
I’m alone 
I’m alone
drive the car till it won’t go
cut the breaks 
drive right off the road

don’t take
another turn
don’t make this
pain worse
hour after 7
times 
only beginning 
a sort of kind
of religion
with what I’m bout
to get in
you don’t want to know who 
I’ve become
stuffing down
the mess 
I’m working to repress
burning up
the last chance 
of blissfulness
ill ever have to get
oh great another text 
from a number I’ve 
never seen
asking if its me
what the fuck do you think?
i wonder who
it could be 
do i have to 
be any more subtle
don’t need
another rebuttal
please shut the fuck up
please just 
don’t talk

I’m alone 
I’m alone
i refuse to pick 
up the phone
i won’t check a
text or call
leave me be 
let me go
I’m alone 
I’m alone
drive the car till it won’t go
cut the breaks 
drive right off the road

leave me be (prod ʎpoqou) (video in description)

i don’t expect you to be submissive 
If I’m transgressive or aggressive 
I don’t intend to be dismissive 
Non attentive or oppressive 
I dont pretend to be cohesive 
Or impressive or permissive
i jus try to be expressive 
And progressive not regressive 
I’ve accepted that my memory’s repressive 
And selective 
Im still working on my self 
Im still crossing off my check list 
I know that you try to help 
And feel helpless when I’m depressive
And I’m sorry
That I’m broken 
And it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning
As I attempt to maintain control 
And I’m learning
That a fire is hard to hold 
But I’m okay
And I think its cause I’m cold 
And that numbs me 
Or at least thats what I’m told
Puzzle pieces fit together til we see th bigger picture 
Smaller patterns create larger patterns with their Lil mixtures
But as I solve the puzzle I see I'm not in the picture 
So I'm staring at u standing there with someone else's figure
Well go figure I'm not perfect I just create the perfect mixture 
Of aggression and depression in my body like some elixir 
And I don't need the scripture like my father or the liquor 
I self medicate in other ways I guess you get th picture 
So I solve these little puzzles getting more frantic by the second 
And as the picture becomes clearer I always start to second guess it 
It's like the puzzles just a mirror and I'm scared of my reflection 
So I hid behind my fear and I suppress my own depression 
So I'm sorry 
that I'm broken 
and it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning

start (prod OmenXIII) (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

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