This song was made to reach out to those struggling with self-harm, depression, suicide, and to spread a message of hope and love. 
If you're experiencing any of these, please seek help right now. twloha.com/find-help/local-resources/ 

Credits: 
Photo Credit: Fulgee vsco.co/fulgee 
Beat produced by Kamikaze www.youtube.com/channel/UCy2k2icln9Qk8EAg6GrSiBg 
Piano Sample Credit: Suzuo - Heavenly soundcloud.com/impintheforest

Lyrics: 
I can finally buy a car just with a beat 
Sell exclusive and a couple hundred lease 
I been stacking cash just like I got them cheats, shit be just like GTA with a Ferrari in the streets 

I been grinding hard 
I been on my guard 
I'm climbing to the top with nothing but my bars 
You never seen them but I got a couple scars 
They on my heart and I got plenty on my arm 

I'm not ashamed to explain where I come from 
Yeah, I just wanna be a better man 
I'm not afraid just to say where my mind was 
Yeah I'm lucky I'm still here I got a plan 

Yeah I had a couple friends that I lost bro 
Yeah they meant the world to me I guess they'll never know 
Bet I wanted to go join them but I can't go 
I just gotta stay strong yeah I gotta grow 


All the money in the world it don't mean nothing 
All the fame in the world it don't mean nothing 
You just gotta find yourself and be something 
Yeah before you know it you be up and coming 


Yeah my corny ass is tryna speak some wisdom to these teens 
I just wanna let em know that life has purpose and a dream 
You can overcome this shit if you stay close to all your team 
Just know that you are important it'll help your self esteem 

I just wanna make it clear 
That you have nothing to fear 
Keep your friends and family near 
Gotta hold on to what's dear 

Yeah I know that feeling of loneliness it just tears you up 
Yeah the darkness and the stressing you feeling it's just too much 
But remember that your life is important so don't give up 
You just gotta make it through but then you be coming clutch 

Listen to me please you are not a burden 
You are needed and I love you as a person 
Hope is real and your story is important 
I'm here to listen to your words that paint a portrait 

I wanna stay 
I wanna breath 
I wanna swim 
Instead of sink

stay (Prod. Kamikaze)

produced by @ihateshinigami
engineered by heartbreak jake and shinigami
written and performed by macho randy and shinigami

I'm so sorry for what I did last night at that party with her :(

SHINIGAMI & MACHO RANDY "IDK why I'm like this"

a mess, inside a body of a man

featuring my friend @guardinmusic

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

lyrics: https://genius.com/thebreathingbackwards-what-i-am-lyrics

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what i am (ft. guardin)

follow me on twitter @jakkystealurgrl
prod/mix/master by meee

i’m blind 
why’d i get attached like last time 
she been on my brain now i’m tongue tied
ya i’m tongue tied
I don’t even really know why i go try ya
  
and i’m like why  
why is she still on my mind
tried to get her off my recent search but there she fuckin lies again

hey i know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now i want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain ya
give a boi a break like wait 

i’m okay despite of everything
tell her i’m okay despite of everything 

Pull to the side I don’t think you wanna know
how I feel I’ll shut before u wanna go 
I been thinkin’ bout the rest   
I’ve been doing better drugs i’ve been blownin up a check ya 

I don’t even need this now
she just make me feel a type of way somehow 
I don’t really wanna give in quite yet but god i kinda know 
she don’t even love me so I gotta go… whoa

hey I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait 

I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait

Give a Boi A Break

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

@splashgvng
@barrenwaste

premiered/hosted by sad chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBF9w0jchUM

dont you hate the part
when we start to fall into pieces?
and its a work of art
the way you walk into my room
and how u keep me awake
even when ur not around
she always puts me to shame
its such a lame relation
ill take all the blame as long as it helps you sleep at night
i hope to haunt your life

maybe someday we’ll get past it all
but for right now you can watch me ball
got your front seat on the sidelines
and i dont give a fuck if u start to cry

yeah u sow what u reap baby
ive slept in all damn week baby
im still waitin for u to come back to me

lost it all again
but ill get back up every time til i win
lost it all again
if u loved me once, u can do it again

i loved you once but thats the last time itll ever be
ill be fuckin damned if u ever again make a fool of me
wastin all my money on the drugs that keep me lonely
anxiety ridden phony
let the 9 cock back and blow me
out of this planet
and ill b damned if
any of u fuckers take the one thing that i need; its singin a song
for all u singin along
tried to love u once but now u know im done

Follow me <3

like melo, baby (ft. barren) [prod. splashgvng]

Bae Robins x BasedLordJorffy ~ Lost Love

@splashgvng
@curtainss

im a disaster 
im goin thru it
move faster
push thru it

but im plastered to my bed
cant escape that silent dread
im awake but i feel dead
guess im lost inside my head

serotonin’s synonymous
with the worst parts in all of us

i dont care if every letter in this makes me wrong
i wear my pain like a sweater
i been better
wont be for too long

and if it looks like forever 
dont forget that
nothings everlong

baby u got me tethered
im anxious, whatever
pop it into a song

take me for the moment
let me stay tonight
fuck me or whatever
love me, it feels so right

you cant shake me
been ballin lately
my old friends hate me
im goin crazy

look into my eyes
tell me if its real
cpt sad on the mic
thas a real big deal

time will tell
if all these lies went well
keep it inside my cells
left underneath my nails

imma mess and thats never gunna change
without the pills, needin somethin to arrange
the world is fallin around
i think that death is callin
i see ur smile
and drown
but im just gettin started

SEROTONIN'S SYNONYMOUS (prod. splashgvng x curtains)

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

ft. @ihateshinigami & @youngburial
guitars: @93feetofsmoke & @youngburial
prod & mix @93feetofsmoke
master @youngburial

- shini - 
Jollyranchers in my mouth
now she fell in love with me
give me sugar baby
you're so sweet 
i want you here with me
kiss me on the cheek
so I know you're coming home with me
blunts in the cadillac, imma get that money back
feel like FM fuck everybody run it back
wait wait wait wait run it back
casting magic on the track
you don't understand 
you don't get it
you not with the shits
smoke a backwood then i dip
datasquad we run this shit

- fats'e - 
would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

- 93 -
I been taking so much acid
I don’t fit in 
Hit my juul so much
I never really feel it
Every pods
Another labyrinth
I’ve been locked in 
Soul in gauntlet 
Imma run this every season 

Nevermind 
I’m way too high 
To even link up 
Fuck my life
Air Force muddy
Needa clean them 
Watch your mouth 
Tell my teeth 
Before I brush them 
From the south
But I’m burned out
On the lean ya 

I see fiends 
Nah
I don’t fuck with your team
Bruh 
FUKK IM CLEAN ur a stain
And blood is bleach 
Yup
Marble counters
I’ve been working 
OCD
Huh
cut off quick
So it’s less painful to bleed out 

I got digiracks encrypted in my 6s
wonder why I’m so stressed
Giving skin and gaining pavement
Losing patience 
3am I’m faded
guess I’m chasing 
Sunlight from the basement 

- fats'e - 
would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked

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never come back ft. Shinigami & fats'e

official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbsOizVRjWA

ft. @ihateshinigami & @93feetofsmoke
prod. @ghostrage & @jakkyboi
mix/master @youngburial