recorded 4/30/25
told myself it would be easy to change
but im still a useless waste of space
nothing could ever feel worse than this but i tried way to hard to call it quits
u told me i can change well i guess its too late
am i the problem or am i not "ur holding me back" thats what i thought
u say i can be a better version of me but ik that i cant what dont u see
i could never change im finna stay the same
i didnt prod t his one

change

ngl couldv been recording better but my broke at that time so and not prod me

given up

first song ever really bad dont listne
told myself that idc
everyday see ur dumb curly hair
im so obsessed i stalk ur page,
im on delivered but it says ur not away
if i looked like him, you'd think that im cool
you said that hes pretty hot and idk what to do
it sucks theres no one like you its fucked ik i cant have you
its not that hard to check ur phone
are u doing it on purpose or am i just that unknown
to you, wonder how i look to you
guess im nobody at all jst a random fkin dude

cant have you

its like getting coal for xmas, like ur worth nothing at all
silent cry for help in ur room alone, no one will ever hear ur calls
u always find me in the corner of my room balled up about smth i cant choose
i never seem to win i always just lose, swear its a curse im never enthused

just another useless filler episode to u

will return to punk sound soon jst trying new stuff
nothing i can do all day i jst sit and rot
i dont really want ur help u treat me like a snob
i knew that u had plans ill just say i forgot
i dont really like u and i dont wanna talk
i know its unhealthy but i get lost in my thoughts
im a fukin creep think im always in the wrong
and i dont want ur help no i dont want ur help
you dont know shit think ill fix it by myself

i don't want your help

second song ever pretty terrible as u can tell dont listend  AEFszdvFWERa dsf H

I hate your guts

i know i cant do anything right
fucked up once, i was gone from ur life
said you'd always be by my side
i now know that you're full of lies
there's still something about you i cant get out my mind
im thinking about you, but im left behind
i just miss when we used to talk and
ik that i wont ever forget
hate the thought of you, i think and i get upset
i was in the wrong now i was i wish that i could be dead
dont wanna look back, so many things i regret
too much going on and im feeling so embarrased
we could talk it out, but u act like im a ghost now
everytime i see u i get anxious, im so scared now
ik its over now
i feel so burnt out
cant get u out my head
ik u want me dead x_x

PRODUCED BY me plz do not tell me i accidently rewrote another song yet again

it's over

idk i didnt prod this kinda bad song
im so stuck up on u
and idk what to do
ive been like this for a while
swear ur the reason i smile
its been hard cus u dont care
about me and its not fair
ill still dream of us while i play with ur hair
but no matter how i try im just not ur typa guy
why dont u care how i feel at all?
and no matter what i do u still wouldnt have a clue
about all the things i do for uuu

stuck up

verse:
i know that you have your
reasons to leave me on delivered
but its okay it was a mistake
ill tell myself coping all day

pre chor:
but now you seem to forget me
is it cus im too nice you dont like me
youuu know i try my best but you dont seem to care
and i break down cryin cus ik its not fair

chorus: were friends but i rlly think u cute but ik im in the wrong and theres nothing i can do
think i get attached a lil bit too fast and if u dont feel the same ik that ill be rlly sad
bridge: youre always fuckin lying to me 
you lead me on and i coudlnt see
what you were turly doing to me
but it was nothing at all and now your fuckin in my dreams

chorus repeats

end: were friends and i rlly think u cute but u think that im jus weird and theres nothing i can do
i know u will never feel the same but ill still lead myself on until i blow my fuckin brains

prod me

friendzoned

og before i changed it with slightly changed lyrics and higher pitched instrumental

crash

b$sobased