I’m auditing the structure of integrity
scanning fractures in the spine of my identity
performative, benevolent, masks of serenity
underneath, rotting in obscurity
fragmented, disjointed, incoherent
falsity is parasitic, the sickness is inherent
I speak in dialects and scripts I never wrote
I’ve choked on lies lodged deep in my own throat
I have a mirror but the image is distorted
every noble impulse I ever had has been aborted
by cowardice of comfort, the sedation of the herd
I’m terrified to utter another single honest word
because truth is a scalpel, truth is severance
it cuts through piety, it cuts through reverence
leaves you left bloody with who you really are
a creature full of malice gazing up at stars

if you don't burn them, lies build cells
and pave roads right down to Hell
so call the Devil by his name
strike a match, feed the flame

deadwood, dry rot, accumulation
a psyche of tinder waits for incineration
think you’re avoiding pain? Hallucination
you’re adding interest to the devastation
burning is mandatory, suffering is constant
choose sacrifice or living as a respondent
consequence of chaos, totalitarian states
manifesting gulag through things we tolerate
we know where bodies are
we know how to manufacture avatars
a collective psychosis born of individual lies
closing eyes to truth as benevolence dies
so I’m standing, contending with a monster
not the one under the bed, the one I foster
the malevolence inside me waiting for a slip

and it hurts
God, it hurts to let parts of you die
to witness ego shrivel up and vaporize
but look at the alternative
look at what happens when we don't
we make Hell

making Hell

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NO BACKUP PLAN is a conscious hip-hop album about realizing there’s no safety net left.
It documents the quiet fear that comes with loss, aging, isolation, money anxiety, comparison, and watching the future feel smaller than it used to. Not crisis moments — the in-between ones. The thoughts that don’t get spoken because they aren’t dramatic enough, but still shape how you move through life.
These songs reflect what it’s like to live without guarantees:
to feel unprotected, to see others move forward while you’re still figuring it out, to carry secrets, to want connection but hesitate to trust, and to understand that one mistake could cost more than it ever did before.
This isn’t an album about giving up.
It’s about staying upright when there’s nothing to fall back on.
No motivational speeches.
No false hope.
Just honesty.
If this resonates, it’s because you’ve felt it too.


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