ECHOLALIA

THIS IS WHAT I KNOW
THIS IS WHAT I SEE
THIS IS WHAT I DREAM
WHAT I BELIEVE

ECHOLALIA

Reinterpretation of an early Interpol track.... "Untitled"

Untitled (Surprise Sometime) Interpol Reinterpretation

I wait for the right, the right moment
I wait too long
I wait for the right, the right moment
I wait to long and now its gone

Sometimes I look to the stars
Sometimes I look from a far
Sometimes I see it in my eyes
I can't have it, I want it all still the same
Sometimes

Sometimes

When the hollowness speaks
You know you're down
All your demons flock homeward bound
In silence you can't make any sound
Haunted ghosts spin round and around

Hope or pain you can't tell what's worse
Fear or shame, whatever comes first
You searched so hard
Collapsed to the ground
Nightmares circle round and around

This is what you think you deserve
Hide yourself you don't have the nerve
Endless questions just confound
Only you can turn things around

There's no sense in
Beating up yourself
You can break that spell
Cause you've so much to live for today

So don't let desperation leave its mark
Know there's always light in the dark

Round and Around

I must be feeling low again, lower than low
I must be feeling low again, lower than low

But some feelings feel the same
I fear it every day
But I can't complain
I must have gone insane...

I'm stuck within my mind tonight
When will it end?
I don't belong
I won't become just another one of them

I'm tearing out my brain
I struggle on in vain
How could I complain?
I know that they're insane...

Photo by Robin Schreiner from Pexels

Feeling Low

This is an alternate version of Surrender that I use for live performance.

Original version here: https://soundcloud.com/myjoy/surrender

I want you to surrender
I want you here tonight
I want you to surrender...

Look this way
Turn this way
Yield to the hold I have upon you
You'd better do as I say
Don't disobey
You can't ignore your pulse it calls
Give in to sin without remorse

I want you to surrender
I want you here tonight
I want you to surrender
I want you to submit to me
You'll surrender
I won't let go 'till you completely surrender

Head the signs
Fear my designs
I need to know your every part inside out
So give in
Resign to your fate
Our interests are aligned
We need no alibi

I want you to surrender
I want you here tonight
I want you to surrender
I want you to admit to me
You surrender
So just confess and scream with pride you surrender

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Surrender (Where the heck did I put my guitar? mix)

It's just a bad dream
That I can't seem to wake from
Can't seem to filter what's real

It's such a long time
Since the darkness descended
Won't play along with your games

I'm sick of your lies
Lost count of all your abuses
Grown tired of all your excuses

There's only so much
That one can take before patience
Is overcome by vengeance

I see you
Right through you
I can't trust you
I could kill you

Your menacing ways
The constant tirades and broadsides
They don't scare like they used to

So do what you want
But know I'm so much stronger
Don't underestimate me

I see you
Right through you
I can't trust you
I could be you



Photo by Vijay Putra from Pexels: https://www.pexels.com/photo/black-and-white-hands-mask-bussinesman-64699/

Kill You

Songwriters: Marco Pirroni / Adam Ant
© Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Original track: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tM3M3DDB0-4
From the album "Kings of the Wild Frontier".

I live the life that I've been left
I leave most things unspoken
But deep inside Geronimo is tearing me apart
I've seen him in the streets
And I've seen him in the pictures

Killer in the home
Killer in the home

Now's the time I must digress
From going through the motions
Take my head out of its sling
Free the warrior
I'll fight him in my dreams
And I'll fight him till he kills me

Killer in the home
Killer in the home

They cut you in half with a gun
And give you a band aid
They gut you in half with a gun
And give you a band aid

Killer in the home
Killer in the home
Killer
Is the home

Photo by Pedro Figueras from Pexels

Killer in the Home (Adam & the Ants cover)

It's not the way that I planned it
It's just the way that I am
It couldn't have been avoided
So let's stop the pretence
This is nothing unusual
We were not playing games
I thought the feeling was mutual
Now you're fanning the flames

We will never get used to this
It's just the same as before
The inevitability
Was clear when you stepped through my door

But back when it all started
We could not foresee the pain
All the hurt we imparted
Where only guilt remains

We could only delude ourselves again
It's the way people are
So move on
And don't let our fate be sealed in the same way...

It's Not The Way That I Planned It

Weak fragile minds
Bleed through the cracks formed between tough times
Screaming cold hard emptiness
You stand alone
Your concrete ego
Drags like a stone
Confusion, poison and madness

I've never been so aware
Of the feeling you just don't care
When I have always been there for you
So tell me
How in your life of luxury
Can you enthusiastically
Embrace such paranoid fears?

Eyes to the floor
So you can't see what you can't ignore
Lest you feel what you cannot bare
Ears to the ground
There is no sound cutting through the dead air
Just a twisted web of despair

I hung on your every word
Which now seems so absurd
I drowned myself in your fantasy
So tell me
Do you believe in what you say
Your words spread so much misery
Propagating your fears

I thought we were the same
That we're on the same side in the game
But now you're just the strangest stranger to me
No one's  indestructable
You're no less disposable
You've realised your worst fears

Fears

B[ur]eaucrat by day and electronic music artist known as Beaucrat while I should be sleeping. 

My music is a collide of organic raw imperfect music rooted in post-punk with the precise perfection of electronic music. All wrapped in elements of new wave, downtempo, ambient soundscapes, goth and a touch of industrial grit. I call that Orgonic. 


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