cute

basement song (soft)

Where Do i Belong  _123255853.mp3

The Last Wilson (for Brian Wilson)

ill start today making my way away
who says you have to wait to have anything
i know what you really want isnt just me
thats what i wanted too but you fucked it up more than you can see
i want to wake up dead
never feel a thing again
and i wont be scared of it
i just need to
and im not even sure if im pushing or falling away
out of your arms that held on too loose to me
cause the words that come out of your mouth are mold on my skin
and right now i bet you regret ever letting me in
i want to wake up dead
never feel a thing again
and i wont be scared of it
cause everything is just pretend
i think i want you to know
all the places that id rather go, than be
with someone who understands how i feel
and it hurts that you're so much like me
and i guess thats why i think we should be
as far apart as can be

get out

support @wishing-music
bandcamp: https://wishing.bandcamp.com/album/to-forget

make your way back home
to the other side of town
or anywhere i don't come undone
but you hold my hand and you promise me
that we'll be just fine when we fall asleep
you'll be the one that holds me up

but when you're gone it's all just
black walls black sheets black eyes black clothes
black cars black streets black skies black holes
i'll be the one that's giving up

make my bed and leave
soap and shower clean
tugging on my sleeve
i need to leave
hope you got that job
at the bakery
it keeps escaping me
crazy me

are you coming home?
you've been gone all week
i can feel the gaps like they're missing teeth
you're the one who keeps me up
but when you're gone it's all just
black walls black sheets black eyes black clothes
black cars black streets black skies black holes
i'll be the one that's giving up

https://wishing.bandcamp.com

to forget

wishing - missing teeth

an old version of lilies from before I got julia to agree to sing on it and also made it more electronic

lilies, but different *unreleased*

@brenden-bilbao
s/t https://smileideation.bandcamp.com

smile ideation

ilysm

i don't want to hold you back from doing everything you want to, whenever you would like to

frail is how I see me
giving up on changing is ending me
feeling like I can’t feel
just another symptom you can’t heal

find nothing in everything 
mend my brain don’t want to break again
i can make you crave to be
someone that you’re really afraid to see

ignoring that corner inside of my
mind
tried to make sense of the patterns
im wrong
dream of a beauty in being so 
dull
disordered condition of living 
done choice

heart pounding why not be
learn to swim inside the dark abyss
you can make me so weak
use me like you used to when im sick

ignoring that corner inside of my
hell
tried to make sense of the patterns
they’re gone
dream of a beauty in being so 
numb
disordered condition of dying 
done choice

lilies, but different unreleased

bedbug