This year has seen multiple bedhead eps drop with a solitary producer and a chronological track list of songs recorded within a single day. After driving to and from Portland to play at Day of Gloss, I slept on Colby's couch for an entire day. When I woke up there was a pack of crybabycam beats in my email and my microphone was already set up next to me. I wrote all of these songs in a notebook in the order you are hearing them; The same order I recorded them. Unlike my last few projects of this nature, everything was written down, and this tape was mixed and mastered roughly 4 times where all songs had to be worked on within 24 hours each time. Only good times everyone, just imagine...

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead
original photography by lil wet wet

ALL PLATFORMS

good times all the time

prod. flesh

lyrics:
a puddle of red i dropped
the cause i barely felt
it happened again, my god
a cautionary tale
you've been trying to save my life
so long you chased your tail
i can die by myself, it's fine
no i don't need your help

every time i close my eyes
i wish that i'd return to sender
terrified, i memorized
another place that's so much better
i feel my heart beat through my chest
oh i can hardly do my best, i lie
wide awake, can i do my rest?
all that i can try to do is shed some light

i never talk in these songs
like i do inside my head, in my human i'm embedded
i'm not a fighter i'm a cog
in illusionary settings, i use all my connections
and in spite of all the odds 
i get the message through the fog anyway
in my own home i'm lost
always knew that it would happen, i used up all my rations

overwhelmed by all my options
oh my god i'm fucking starving
don't remember why i started
but the concrete's hardened
so i step out of the garden
know too well the sky will darken
told myself don't get disheartened
cause the blood gets clotted

every time i close my eyes
i wish that i'd return to sender
terrified, i memorized
another place that's so much better
i feel my heart beat through my chest
oh i can hardly do my best, i lie
wide awake, can i do my rest?
all that i can try to do is shed some light

i never talk in these songs
like i do inside my head, in my human i'm embedded
i'm not a fighter i'm a cog
in illusionary settings, i use all my connections
and in spite of all the odds 
i get the message through the fog anyway
in my own home i'm lost
always knew that it would happen, i used up all my rations

blood / return to sender

dont forget

official music video: https://youtu.be/_9n5A6eBnc0

if u bring the camera, make my life a movie
i could b the actress if u wanna shoot me
what i mean 2 ask is how u wanna do me?
im not trynna mask, yr not trynna b a groupie
now im on my last ditch efforts of the nite
i dont wanna not hold yr hands this tite
i dont wanna stop, when we dance feels nice
and im feeling like myself, hope yr seeing this rite
when im out up on display, hold my heart up 2 the light
and im screaming every choice i made 2 lead me 2 tonite
and theyre saying that im made of star stuff, gotta shine
ive been starkid since 2 0 1 9
push 2 start it, light it up and spark it
torch it if its getting in yr way, its a target
u would think im famous when im working at a target
u dont kno what fame is, never even seen guitar picks
never had the grip tape tearing up the carpet
pedal board skateboard, amp sounds garbage
iPod touch only tunes when i charge it
i done fell in luv w/ the music when it started

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

starkid2019 (+ crybabycam) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

let me into yr head right now
my heart, all this blood ive bled out
it might pound, dont b alarmed by the sound
must say that im charmed yr still around
long nites so charged they feel tite now
ive been living life large, im alrite now
found a way 2 starve, need a bite now
i w8 til theres stars out 2 drive round
keep my headlights on and my soundcloud
keep my parents in the dark what im talking bout
til they give me something sparkly, bubbly in my mouth
u dont even wanna start me living in the south
how i felt about the army got me given hell
im not like my grandpappy but i wish him well
ill b like my granddaddy when im old as hell
going by my middle name, rebuilding porches til
i cant live 2 see another day but i look gorgeous still

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

r.i.p. lyman (+ crybabycam)

cant seem 2 live w/ or without her
try 2 talk, should b blocked so i lost words
lost world, ground i walk tilted upward
took a jog 2 the top, need a doctor
r my lungs filled with rocks? every breath hurts
i cant seem 2 get it off my chest when i text her
dont kno y im acting such a mess under pressure
think i like performing when im stressed, it keeps me measured
she wants my measurements and star sign, alrite
im a 6'3 libra, scorpio rise
water in my chart and my mood changes like the tides
cancer in my moon so my goth homies down 2 ride
got homies in my life that im rly down 2 die 4
u dont rly luv me if u hate me nitecore
only want a shawty i would wanna bike 4
its so hard 4 me 2 get 2 u im doing parkour
thinking bout it now yr not allowed 2 b impressed
i kno u saw me how i am, thats y i had 2 b repressed
while the time we spent together was so nice im still depressed
i cant luv u if u live in my device and in my head
it's divisive what i said, we're divided in the end
im reminded every day what its like 2 lose a friend
did i lose u 2 yrself or did u lose me 2 my friends?
didnt kno 4 so long, but im never on the fence 

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

cancer moon (+ crybabycam)

hey, r u just busy now or so done?
honestly im not surprised if yr the last one
every time i close my eyes and think we'll last long
i have 2 open up my mind but is that wrong?
how could that b wrong? y is that wrong?
had 2 act so long im not that strong
im not that boy, bby u should move along
im a toy, come and play me til im moving on
its a choice 4 u 2 hate me, not the wrong 1
sip yr poison on the daily, do it 4 the fun
kill the person that u made me, look who ive become
im not living 4 u bby, now i like the sun
kinda like the way it feels 2 b alive or sumn
kinda like a summer breeze it blew my mind enuff
4 me 2 get up on me knees and b called on my bluff
im touching grass, r.i.p. 2 the bad stuff
im in a better place, still always make the sad stuff
so dark on brighter days, i havent processed that enuff
im always working thru my things but theres a lot 2 dump
im talking bout it 2 my friends even tho its tuff

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

is that wrong? (+ crybabycam)

i had 2 go last nite, so srry it was quick
took it slow last nite, said yr starting 2 feel sick
hit the road last time then i took another hit
will there be a next time? im so bad at reading hints
im so sure
of myself
dont realize
i need help
i kno we were vibing only lacking in the time
thinking bout it now trying hard 2 rewind
driving 2 my house so im going offline
but if yr planning 2 stop me yr ideas good as mine
we could get a coffee tho i shouldn't spend a dime
but im feeling like u want me wanna make u feel fine
wanna make u feel like somebody's altho u cant b mine
i need so much from so many bodies 4 me 4 i die
im so sure
of myself
dont realize
i need help
i.o.d.i. honestly hope i dont
but im not gonna lie, theres not much hope i wont
i miss codeine lines, no i dont want yr coke
the ecstacy nites r what i miss the most
and when i miss u most these tears aren't justified
couldnt care less 4 u now i just like 2 cry
acting so careless now like y wouldnt i
got me singing til my throat sounds like its been sliced

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

i.o.d.i. (+ crybabycam)

i kno she got a thing w/ ya, but i want u
i can hardly sit w/ ya, when i touch u
i dont have 2 think abt it u kno im abt 2
weve had a couple drinks, im not in luv but im allowed 2 b
i can give u what yr wanting tell me what u want is me
i can give u good times all the time all 4 free
mix it in a glass lemon lime on the rocks plz
i was rocked up last nite w/ the posse
catch me out on broadway trynna find roxy
im outside a safeway, shawty catcalling
call it what u want but i call myself appalling
if u find me appealing we're balling
find me in the garden, i feel like im marvin
im just in my room, pretending im a martian
she wont want me soon, i cant take the harshness
safe until i zoom, i refuse 2 wear the harness

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by crybabycam
recorded @ mirrorville. hq 6/30/22
art by bedhead

marvin luvs roxy (+ crybabycam)

this anxiety 
shit is killing 
I’m fighting every fucking day to find the better of me 
now I’m waking up at 2 pm again
I take a couple shots then lay back in my bed 
with you in my head 
I think that’s it’s time to clean up my act 
I need to get sober imagine that x2
fucked up again and again and again 
I’ve gone pushed away all of my fucking friends 
That’s why I play pretend 
I takes a lot of time to sit and think 
about my fucked up life 
and why I chose to drink 
Oh just leave me alone I think I’ll figure it out all by myself 
why do you 
see the best in me 
I’m drowning 
playing make believe x2

make believe (prod. DRMA)

prod. PartyAtTheMoonTower
Lyrics:

(babybri)
i don’t want to leave you here 
i just need to be alone
please tell me how much you care
don’t make me feel unknown 

(Gab6)
please tell me you care 
you make me feel less alone 

(babybri)
i know you, i know you’re looking out for me 
i’m not easily convinced
i know that, i know that you’d kill for me 
i have no trust, ever since 

i’m so lonely 
i miss you always  
i’m so clingy
never had friends this way 

(Gab6)
you make me feel so whole 
move before i freak out and start to lose control
i don’t wanna fuck our friendship
cause i don’t want to worry you, when i say i wanna end it

i know you, i know you’re looking out for me 
i’m not easily convinced
i know that, i know that you’d kill for me 
i have no trust, ever since 

(babybri)
ever…….ever since

convince (feat. babybri)

prod. flesh

i woke up late made nothing
so i'll just make up something
maybe someday it'll be worth something
got no money but i still keep chugging along
and im praying i can keep this running
all the time i wasted playing along
in a game where we dont win nothing

sometimes i just wish that i could die
but i know you'd miss me so i stay alive
all these years i never thought that i could try 
now that i got energy i feel alive
no no i dont want the fomo i wanna vibe
cause i dont wanna miss my shot
and i know i've missed a lot
but i just wanna make some friends
so i'll just give everyone all i've got

i woke up late

does it ever fade 2 a new shade
oversaturate it til its 2 late
understimulated by yr new bae
they got planes cars and trains slide 2 my place
u can take up all my space i got plenty
havent recognized my face since i was 20
and id b in yr good gaces if u let me
but u need sumbody 2 hate so u upset me
saw my chest bleed, put on the pressure
looking down on me and now yr neck hurts
id have to drown to be laid with my treasure
yr trying 2 track me down thru all my debtors
they think i owe em sumthing but they never pay
the games getting old when i play it every day and
i cant cure the mold but itll scrape away
if i locked u and the old me out my happy place
blood moon black lungs in my old age
expendable funds with no time 2 waste
wasted all of my time im not 1 2 wait
if i need it then i get it if i dont i stay

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by sphere merchants and bleachh
recorded @ the gloss temple 1/9/23
art by bedhead

oversaturated (+ sphere merchants x bleachh)

i wish i could build u back from memory

prod @branwenmusic

lyrics:
blood spills on my sheets but i still made my bed
i’m still in love with who you live on as inside my head
write the pages in a frenzy cover my palms with the lead
kill the echoes of the words you claim that you never said

“i never loved u”
those 4 words broke my heart
they left me dazed and confused
feeling stunlocked, kidney shot, fuck u
mutilate me n u vanish please be done soon
screaming out for mercy until my lungs blue

those 4 words broke my heart
they left me dazed and confused
feeling stunlocked, kidney shot, fuck u
mutilate me n u vanish please be done soon
screaming out for mercy until my lungs blue

pulling off the petals she loves me i think she loves me not
so much inside my head my thoughts are looking like a basquiat
leave me in the rain let me rust ride until the wheels fall off
no time to play it safe i see how easily people forgot

wont wish on u what i been thru
keep me safe is what this tint do
she keep me up on a shelf
cause my existence ornamental

running away from the past
how come this love never last
should i stay or should i go
all these emotions are starting to clash

windows down cold air wake me up
cause it’s a long ride home
usually i’d have ur voice
but lately i can’t stand the tone
maybe i’m just naive
and the thoughts of us were overblown
maybe i was covering 2 deep and lost track of my zone

windows down cold air wake me up
cause it’s a long ride home
usually i’d have ur voice
but lately i can’t stand the tone
maybe i’m just naive
and the thoughts of us were overblown
maybe i was covering 2 deep and lost track of my zone

windows down cold air wake me up
cause it’s a long ride home
usually i’d have ur voice
but lately i can’t stand the tone
maybe i’m just naive
and the thoughts of us were overblown
maybe i was covering 2 deep and lost track of my zone

maybe i just lost track of what’s important to me
maybe it’s my fault cause ur love was foreign to me
maybe it was smothering and left no room to breathe
maybe i just need some time alone so i can grieve

“i never loved u”
those 4 words broke my heart
they left me dazed and confused
feeling stunlocked, kidney shot, fuck u
mutilate me n u vanish please be done soon
screaming out for mercy until my lungs blue

those 4 words broke my heart
they left me dazed and confused
feeling stunlocked, kidney shot, fuck u
mutilate me n u vanish please be done soon
screaming out for mercy until my lungs blue

warsong gulch (branwen)

I am going to see the brian jonestown massacre soon and I am excited :D

lyrics:
That's just how it goes
I'm just hopping that you'll listen 
Its like im reading prose 
But she treat me like science fiction 
game is getting old 
I Know I'm not the 1st edition 
Go and break my heart now I need stitches 
Sins I can't atone 
I know all that shit still plague me 
Like a rolling stone 
Call me brian jones I'm crazy 
Look me in the eyes like what do you want from me 
Like if you want gas I could get that for cheap 
Or if you need space please tell me that at least 
Lets make this last it's all in the past for me 
And I know it's the last thing you want 
So I'm taking the blame for it all 
Like we're written in different fonts 
All the space that's between both of us 
And I'm sorry for pain that caused 
My mistakes I don't need your applause 
I'm a joke I'm a fool I'm klutz
That's just how it goes
I'm just hopping that you'll listen 
Its like im reading prose 
But she treat me like science fiction 
game is getting old 
I Know I'm not the 1st edition 
Go and break my heart now I need stitches 
Sins I can't atone 
I know all that shit still plague me 
Like a rolling stone 
Call me brian jones I'm crazy
And I know it's the last thing you want 
So I'm taking the blame for it all 
Like we're written in different fonts 
All the space that's between both of us

is that wrong? (+ crybabycam)

bedhead

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