cant believe it took this long to admit im wrong
i know you wont hear this song, you're moved on
i gotta own up to my sins
i feel sick just sitting in my skin
dont know why i was tryna find ways to blame you
your compassion more than i deserve, so thank you
i felt bad but somehow i forgot you feel too
i felt bad but somehow i forgot you feel too
it's really for the best it fell through
cuz you deserve the best and i'm not that
i knew that it was selfish and i still did it
why would i break things off, ask you to get back together in less than a month?
why did i make things hard?
coulda been friends, coulda moved on
could just accept what you want
now i gotta accept you gone
and it feels so pathetic to say it but i loved you
i did
sorry you had to put up with my shit
and when i cry i hope it wash away my sins
if i could go back in time i woulda never did that shit
never did u dirt
never did u wrong
forgived me when i didnt deserve it, what a beautiful soul
and u told me u know im a good person, bet your opinion changed by now
i would agree a hundred percent, i would agree a hundred percent
im tryna not be like my dad, somehow still turned out like him
and it dont matter if i feel bad, you felt worse for sure
i know i cant change the past, but i can change the future
you're the first love i ever had, can't believe i left you hurt

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i wish i wouldve been kinder to you in the last few weeks/months we knew each other. not that being sorry absolves me of anything. but i realize now how extremely selfish and unreasonable i was

whether that was normal asshole-tier behavior or something more serious than that im honestly not sure. either way im truly sorry and dont think ive ever been more sorry for anything in my life

and i know it's pretty cringe and uncomfortable for me to still be hung up on this but i cant help it

i dont think you're reading this but if you are somehow, im sorry for making another song about you, this is the last one i promise. and sorry for making challenger deep if you heard that one. it was dumb and i took it down

i want to be good

feel 2 [prodbysams]

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