"is it a no or a yes? i need a response"
holding her close to my chest, she say my heartbeat speeding up

she like,
"boy what you scared of? boy what you scared of, huh?
would it be so terrible to let me in for once?
you gotta let me know, i can't keep going off inference...
chris, what's ‘potential’ if it isn't us?
i'd rather try and fail than not try, there's a difference"

baby don't get too close to me, i'm not the man that you think i am
don't wanna see you hurt, but somehow i do it again and again
it's not what you wanna hear, but i think we're better as friends
it'll hurt less if it ends, right?

she tells me,
"take a risk for one time in your life, boy.
i promise there's water there, just trust and leave the dive board.
okay, you lived and learned, what else is life for?
okay, we've all been burned and we survived it still...
when you're old and frail don't look back on life like 'i wish i manned up and didnt hide'"

sometimes i hate myself
im so stuck in my head
can't carry all of my regrets until im dead, but fuck it if i wont try
only way that i know to repent
am i ready for love? it depends
would you hate it if im closed off when i dont have a beat and a pen?
cant do this face to face
it's hard to face the facts
you don't wanna be with me...it's great until it ain't - because this phase can never last
honeymoons gon fade away
that quirk i have you love might turn to one you hate
and it may not be today, and it may not be next week! 
but i know the day might come that you hate to hear me speak
and my fingers on your skin dont make you feel a thing but yearning for the past and that version of me
but oh, we can't go back...now this is the status quo
we can make this memory last, cut short at 24
i need to let this go
it'll have to be a no

"is it a no or a yes? i need a response"
holding her close to my chest, she say my heartbeat speeding up

she like,
"boy what you scared of? boy what you scared of, huh?
would it be so terrible to let me in for once?
you gotta let me know, i can't keep going off inference...
chris, what's ‘potential’ if it isn't us?
i'd rather try and fail than not try, there's a difference"

try & fail [prod zingo]

benchday