Сбатил токсин у самого себя 

Benedixhion

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/muppbeatss

I dont wanna loose days like that 
Look at my past 
Loosing all nights, try to recover my back 
Nowadays are dead 
Future is blind 
Don’t take a sense, i don’t living my life 

And i ain’t gonna tell where i’m gonna go 
I’ll turn off phone, nobody gonna call 
I took my bag and i’m on a road 
You ain’t gonna call, that’s i know for sure

I woke up, i took pill
I call it my happy meal 
That’s makes all my day full of happiness 
So I’ll prolly take a three, yeah
Why do you act like a bitch?
You’re bump, you a act like snitch 
Something screaming by my back 
On a stage i hear: “clap clap clap”

Pill of happiness

Benedixhion - StillTOXIKK

Lil Rage - Die Die Die

Hold Me Back

"TOO FAR GONE"

my first ep/album "SADnRAD" out now on all platforms!

@KadeMcAlli
kademcalli@gmail.com

SADnRAD

DEAR LUV

capoxxo: https://soundcloud.com/capoxxo

lyrics:
who am i to judge
baby, yeah i know
i was freaking out
when you called my phone
i have nowhere to go
i smoke lots of dope
fucked up everything
it's so hard to take it slow
i cannot take your lies
i'm so damn hypnotized
and you're so beautiful
but i spark blunts to the skies
baby you know
we can do drugs in the skylights

i don't know
lil shawty, could you tell me where to go
i don't know if i can make it without you
if you love me then just tell me that you do
sick of feeling blue

there's nothing left of me
i think of it frequently
baby, if you don't hate me
why couldn't you just believe in me
you just came out of nowhere
and stole my heart, that shit's thievery
and you stayed for a while
i wonder what you could see in me

i wonder what you could see in me
i still wonder why you're leaving me
and i just wish we were meant to be
but i'll just fade in your memories
i just wanted something real
instead you gave me a fantasy
and there's nothing in that pill
i'll smoke my way back to sanity
not someone you want
i just fed into your vanity
just something to flaunt
guess it's a tragic reality

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deaded w/ capoxxo [prod. 5v & odece]

i don’t think that i can change 
lately i been feeling stuck inside my ways
pretty sure my life is just a fucking waste
yeah
maybe i should go ahead and throw it all away

sick of life 
i wonder what’s after
i’m a fuck up
i’m a disaster
i wish that i would die faster
restless nights, could use dreamcatcher oh
‘cause you left me all alone
never even met you, only saw you on my phone
yeah
i still miss you on the low
i cannot stop thinking bout the day that you went ghost
yeah

so i’ll make it on my own
i don’t need you anymore, it’s time for me to go
yeah
all these girls are tryna hit this
they don’t really want me, but my name is on they hit lists
damn
so i think it’s time to dip bitch
i been chasing after my dreams
and yes i’ll risk it
you best get up out my way
i’m on a mission
you always got sum to say
but never listen

would you hold me close
i can’t let you go
you already know
how i feel bout you

spotify

dreamcatcher [prod. ahnboi]

[produced by dj khaled's son]
[mixed and mastered by neek and convolk]

lyrics:

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

stuck here
in the same place
everyone fake 
they all wanna save face
my heart chokes
intimate notes 
everyone wrote
when i lost my way

you don't know what i been through 
i don't show what happened to 
me back when i wasn't cool
me back when i was a fool

feel like i'm kanye back in 06
feeling like what i say, people notice 
colder than an ice age cracking both fists
colder than an ice age heart is frozen 
x2

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

swear to god

popped off
yeah i did it
i been making smoking weed and making music for a living
goddamn
i split designer on my fit bitch
i been tryna cope by spending thousands on my wrist it’s
lit
and lately i been on my mischief shit
cuz i been really tryna make it big
i wish i wasn’t such a misfit kid
i’m always bleeding so my wrist stay slit

these drugs may have cost my soul but it’s worth it to me boo 
so i’m over it
cocaine in the bathroom stall like it’s 1982 took two lines n dipped

she hates what i have become
and i hate that i am so damn numb 
i pack my bong and fill up my lungs 
lately i been feelin so gone
i wish that i would just die
‘cause i’m already dying inside
i hate this world i hate my damn life
might just end it all tonight
don’t waste your time on me 
i wish that you could see
we just aren’t meant to be
i guess that you should leave

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nineteen82 [prod. number48]

feels like love but i know it isn’t
i’m so damn numb who’m i kidding
i hate life i wish that i didn’t
i’m poppin percs just to fix it
but i know that i’ll never fit in
an outlier to the human race
i’m a lost soul and i’m drifting
i wish that i could just be erased
i hate the me that i have become
i’m just a fiend and i need more drugs
off a thirty i’m so fucked up
i’m running out i best hit the plug
i took a journey with no way back ay
i got money i’m chasing so ima make that ay
she jus pass me a swisher so ima face that ay
if you ain’t talkin benjis then just get outta my face
please let me lie here
i wanna die here
i’m so sick of this life
i wanna give into my fears

pain in my head guess i’m broken
i’m already dead they don’t notice

its2much [prod. zach sutton]

let me die
i don’t really know what the point in life is
everybody knows that we won’t survive
i jus wanna go shawty i can’t fight this
always on my page but you never like
it’s fake
you ain’t really love me
that’s great
i been counting up my bankroll 
all day
i been drowning in my problems
let’s escape

i been in my bag
and i ain’t stoppin bitch
i love poppin tags
so i been shopping
i don’t understand
girl what’s your problem now
you make me feel dead
cuz you’re a toxin bitch
i already know your love is counterfeit
pretty sure she hates me but she loves my fits 
strung out on the daily but these drugs are bliss
i don’t wanna live i’m fucking done with this
i don’t know what i should do
i’m lost and missing you
i wish it wasn’t true
what the fuck am i gun do
oh whoa
i’m just dying in my room
oh no
i keep falling for you boo

why’s my mind feel like it’s a prison
i don’t understand
i just wanna life that’s worth living
won’t you hold my hand

toxin [prod. thatboineco]

i keep asking is this really love
shawty tells me i should sober up
ion know if i can take this
i can’t take another fake bitch

big bands in my hand
i’ll count it on my own
ain’t need no fake friends 
i’m better off alone
yeah
why’d you stab me in the back
again
what the fuck is up with that
goddamn
you don’t really love me
can you just tell me the truth
you’re dreaming of my money
while i’m stuck dreaming of you
oh
it’s a lie
you never cared
i don’t know why
you’re never there

put my money in the bank bitch
yuh
lil shawty made a lane switch
yuh
pass the blunt i think they laced it
yuh
but you know i’m still gun face it
yuh
basic
you’re really basic
i can’t fucking take this
you make me so sick
left me on the pavement
thought you were my friend
i’m always sedated
i fucking hate it
cuz you’re so basic

pseudoLove [prod. sketchmyname]

different
everything’s so different
i feel so removed
i been really feelin distant
they ain’t really wit it
i’m really wit it
money spent while sad
couple thousand on my jewelry bitch
why you mad
well i’m better by lonely bitch
so i’m glad
the really drugs control me it’s
not a fad
i really need em bad
and i really want you back
shawty won’t you hold my hand
yeah

feel the drugs inside my system
yeah
they abuse me i’m a victim
yeah
then again i fuckin picked them
what is there to say
maybe i’m insane
cause i treat life like a game
my bad
this is just a faze
that’s cap
i been switching up my lanes
that’s fax
so you best get out my way
‘fore you end up in a grave
yuh
i been really in my head lately
will you love me when i’m dead baby
i won’t even lie don’t think this life’s for me
cuz i’m trapped inside my head
so won’t you set me free

when i pull up i’m so faded uhuh
i’m jus really glad i made it uhuh
feeling like this is the matrix uhuh
‘cause this shits a simulation
i feel your vibrations
yeah
look
i’m so sick of waiting
let’s jus hit the road shawty
me n you’ll be famous
oh my god
nothing’s in our way bitch
whatchu thought
cuz i’m really finna make it
yuh yuh

victim [prod. urbs]

you got what you wanted all along
you told me you loved me
but you didn’t you were wrong
yah
i been falling on my own
i don’t wanna lie i think i’m better off alone 
yah

hey love
you gun watch this fade away or you gun save us
you gun watch me die today i’m outta patience
cuz i do not wanna play these games i’m tryna make up
cuz we ain’t finished
won’t you hear me out
just for a minute
all these people run they mouths
but they don’t get it
baby i jus need you now
won’t you please just be yourself with me
times running out
are you down to go to hell with me

or nah
i got lots of problems
please just call
are you a really a true day one
or a fraud
she jus want me for my paystub
bitch get lost
when i leave i’ll take a coffin with me
cuz i’m so dead bitch
if you really wanna problem with me
you finna get it
type back type back
don’t want you sad so i always write back
trapped in my head always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in my head
yeah yeah feeling better off dead
honestly i’m upset
honestly i’m obsessed
with you
you’re shining like a diamond
always blue
when you say you love me
is it true
give a fuck about the money
i want you
i just need my boo

go2hell [prod. thatboineco]

life is just a rave
and i’m frowning in it
percy to the face
you can’t save me bitch
i’m drowning in it
everything was fake
it was counterfeited
pills inside my brain
i jus wanna feel
a fucking difference
no i’m not okay
i’m so lost
stuck inside my head
i can’t sober up
feeling better dead
is this even love
all this weight thats in my chest
got me feeling stuck
life is so fucked up

i don’t wanna know what you’ve done
i’ll jus shoot my shot like a gun
everyone dies so let’s jus have fun
i needed you but you didn’t want me
i’m so dead i feel like a zombie
everybody’s fake they’s jus copy
life ain’t fair cuz nobody loves me
oh
then why you still haunt me though

i keep staring out my window
in my room without you
was it really something baby
i weep when i think about you
it is what it is you
left me like i’m nothing baby

i don’t understand
you said you needed me
wasn’t in the plan
cuz you ain’t need a thing

chemicals [thatboineco]

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