this is my fav song by you.... plus it just gets me everytime </3

Benedixhion

Happy birthday to me.

Produced by Living Puff

Lyrics

Told her she was all I needed and I meant it
She said, "Ken I mean it too" but she didn't
I don't wanna feel anymore feelings
Girl you great but what you see in me is not what it is

I'm a lost cause baby, it is not all
Greener on the other fucking side when I am the fault
I'm the reason that you can't get right
I got demons and they meeting with me every single night

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

She's a bitch but I know I'm no better, I'm an asshole
And it's been 3 years but she still the one I call though
I'm a fucked up sad little lost soul
I don't know how it got this bad when I fought so hard

Got so far from myself in my own mind
Tar on my breath, I do wrong when I know right
Where you are? I don't know
If I get in my car I'ma throw it off the road

Turned 21, wish I didn't
You sent me a sign, I didn't get it
Why am I'm alive? I need a minute
All this fucking time, I just been sinning (x2)

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

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XXI. NITELIFE

Lately you aint never look me in my eye
Now I'm thinking you gon' put me on the side
Baby I don't wanna hear another sigh
I see you die before you jumpin' out my ride

Now I'm jumpin' out my side, where you at?
I never thought you'd do me like that
And you know I'd never do you like that

So why the fuck you steady plottin' on my bag?
I got big stacks
She got big racks
And a couple good tats

Baby Imma love you even when you say that I'm the devil
I got you cryin' on my shoulder, chain around her ankle

I aint done talkin' my shit
I got racks in this motha-Fuckin bitch
When I get a Lexus Imma swerve that shit
Boy you aint get no bitches you gon' wait to hit

Got a couple bad bitches in my crib
You already know that we been gettin' lit
I saw your bitch she pop a pill just like a zit
That shit's embarassin'
She call it her medicine 

Sigh Freestyle (Prod.6astardcanrise)

Cat Scratch

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXKsn1cHmLU

гули // ghouls [prod. DC 1-30] (video in bio)

capoxxo: https://soundcloud.com/capoxxo

lyrics:
who am i to judge
baby, yeah i know
i was freaking out
when you called my phone
i have nowhere to go
i smoke lots of dope
fucked up everything
it's so hard to take it slow
i cannot take your lies
i'm so damn hypnotized
and you're so beautiful
but i spark blunts to the skies
baby you know
we can do drugs in the skylights

i don't know
lil shawty, could you tell me where to go
i don't know if i can make it without you
if you love me then just tell me that you do
sick of feeling blue

there's nothing left of me
i think of it frequently
baby, if you don't hate me
why couldn't you just believe in me
you just came out of nowhere
and stole my heart, that shit's thievery
and you stayed for a while
i wonder what you could see in me

i wonder what you could see in me
i still wonder why you're leaving me
and i just wish we were meant to be
but i'll just fade in your memories
i just wanted something real
instead you gave me a fantasy
and there's nothing in that pill
i'll smoke my way back to sanity
not someone you want
i just fed into your vanity
just something to flaunt
guess it's a tragic reality

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deaded w/ capoxxo [prod. 5v & odece]

i’m always stuck in my head
i always overthink shit
like was it something i said
and it’s a lot to digest

now i feel better off dead
and every thoughts a regret
guess i’ll just lie in my bed

so i sip bottles to block it
and i get high as a rocket
my mind is constantly foggy
i just ignore all my problems
give me a pill and i’ll pop it
i’ve never been one for stopping
i’ll go till i’m in a coffin

it’s not the same anymore
don’t think that i can keep on pushing through the pain anymore
and i keep taking all these drugs. don’t think it’s safe anymore
but i don’t really give a fuck, i wanna crash bitch
plug ran out, goddamnit
what the fuck am i supposed to do, i didn’t plan this
i can’t sleep at night if i’m not on another planet
she said i needa stop ‘cause she can’t fucking stand it
she says i’ll overdose, yeah that’s the fucking plan bitch
that’s the fucking plan bitch 

i’m overdosing on my problems
yeah
and i don’t think that i can solve em
yeah
so i been falling like its autumn
yeah
like all the way down to the bottom
yeah
just reapplied my nail polish
yeah
she likes my chains, well, i just bought em
yeah

i got a blunt in my pocket
i think i might have to light it
my mind’s always so divided
but all these weed makes it silent
just got a text from the plug
he delivers, i buy it
no, i don’t give a fuck
‘cause i’m tired of trying

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dysphoria [prod. heylog]

i don’t think that i can change 
lately i been feeling stuck inside my ways
pretty sure my life is just a fucking waste
yeah
maybe i should go ahead and throw it all away

sick of life 
i wonder what’s after
i’m a fuck up
i’m a disaster
i wish that i would die faster
restless nights, could use dreamcatcher oh
‘cause you left me all alone
never even met you, only saw you on my phone
yeah
i still miss you on the low
i cannot stop thinking bout the day that you went ghost
yeah

so i’ll make it on my own
i don’t need you anymore, it’s time for me to go
yeah
all these girls are tryna hit this
they don’t really want me, but my name is on they hit lists
damn
so i think it’s time to dip bitch
i been chasing after my dreams
and yes i’ll risk it
you best get up out my way
i’m on a mission
you always got sum to say
but never listen

would you hold me close
i can’t let you go
you already know
how i feel bout you

dreamcatcher [prod. ahnboi]

Produced By Michael Bao & Nash
instagram.com/michaelbao_
instagram.com/nathan_lamarche

Contact Vino Tarantino:
instagram.com/vino.tarantino
Contact Ryster:
instagram.com/ryster

Cover Art Direction By:
instagram.com/designbyfriday

Fucked Up ft. @ryster [prod. by Michael Bao & Nash]

[produced by nicasso beats]
[mixed and mastered by neek and convolk]

black sheep

popped off
yeah i did it
i been making smoking weed and making music for a living
goddamn
i split designer on my fit bitch
i been tryna cope by spending thousands on my wrist it’s
lit
and lately i been on my mischief shit
cuz i been really tryna make it big
i wish i wasn’t such a misfit kid
i’m always bleeding so my wrist stay slit

these drugs may have cost my soul but it’s worth it to me boo 
so i’m over it
cocaine in the bathroom stall like it’s 1982 took two lines n dipped

she hates what i have become
and i hate that i am so damn numb 
i pack my bong and fill up my lungs 
lately i been feelin so gone
i wish that i would just die
‘cause i’m already dying inside
i hate this world i hate my damn life
might just end it all tonight
don’t waste your time on me 
i wish that you could see
we just aren’t meant to be
i guess that you should leave

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nineteen82 [prod. number48]

feels like love but i know it isn’t
i’m so damn numb who’m i kidding
i hate life i wish that i didn’t
i’m poppin percs just to fix it
but i know that i’ll never fit in
an outlier to the human race
i’m a lost soul and i’m drifting
i wish that i could just be erased
i hate the me that i have become
i’m just a fiend and i need more drugs
off a thirty i’m so fucked up
i’m running out i best hit the plug
i took a journey with no way back ay
i got money i’m chasing so ima make that ay
she jus pass me a swisher so ima face that ay
if you ain’t talkin benjis then just get outta my face
please let me lie here
i wanna die here
i’m so sick of this life
i wanna give into my fears

pain in my head guess i’m broken
i’m already dead they don’t notice

its2much [prod. zach sutton]

let me die
i don’t really know what the point in life is
everybody knows that we won’t survive
i jus wanna go shawty i can’t fight this
always on my page but you never like
it’s fake
you ain’t really love me
that’s great
i been counting up my bankroll 
all day
i been drowning in my problems
let’s escape

i been in my bag
and i ain’t stoppin bitch
i love poppin tags
so i been shopping
i don’t understand
girl what’s your problem now
you make me feel dead
cuz you’re a toxin bitch
i already know your love is counterfeit
pretty sure she hates me but she loves my fits 
strung out on the daily but these drugs are bliss
i don’t wanna live i’m fucking done with this
i don’t know what i should do
i’m lost and missing you
i wish it wasn’t true
what the fuck am i gun do
oh whoa
i’m just dying in my room
oh no
i keep falling for you boo

why’s my mind feel like it’s a prison
i don’t understand
i just wanna life that’s worth living
won’t you hold my hand

toxin [prod. thatboineco]

i keep asking is this really love
shawty tells me i should sober up
ion know if i can take this
i can’t take another fake bitch

big bands in my hand
i’ll count it on my own
ain’t need no fake friends 
i’m better off alone
yeah
why’d you stab me in the back
again
what the fuck is up with that
goddamn
you don’t really love me
can you just tell me the truth
you’re dreaming of my money
while i’m stuck dreaming of you
oh
it’s a lie
you never cared
i don’t know why
you’re never there

put my money in the bank bitch
yuh
lil shawty made a lane switch
yuh
pass the blunt i think they laced it
yuh
but you know i’m still gun face it
yuh
basic
you’re really basic
i can’t fucking take this
you make me so sick
left me on the pavement
thought you were my friend
i’m always sedated
i fucking hate it
cuz you’re so basic

pseudoLove [prod. sketchmyname]

https://soundcloud.com/gothurted
https://soundcloud.com/deadfishpoland

Feeling

gothurted - feeling (ft. deadfish)

ion really get it
i don’t know
if it’s ending or beginning
you can go
i won’t even feel a difference
lil bitch
i jus want some ice to flood out my wrists
give a fuck about a price ion really give a shit
ion really give a fuck cuz 
i can’t
i feel so alone in
my head 
ion really got no feelings
i’m dead
bitch i jus pulled up
so high
been poppin pillies to survive
off a thirty i’m still hurting
what’s the reason i’m alive

i feel so dead
in the head
watch me fuck it up again
ima disappoint my friends
i can’t help it
i’m selfish
i want it all to end
yuh 
a fatal zen
yuh
already dead
you can blame the percocets
yuh
i got problems on problems
i don’t know how to solve em
i hate the life that i’m living
too many pills i look livid

pseudoLove [prod. sketchmyname]

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