(i think it kinda goes something like
ichi ni san yon go roku nana hachi
kyuu juu juuichi
juuni juusan juuyon juugo
one two ready? go!)

i haven't slept eight hours in
like nine or ten or eleven months
it's easy to fall down
the whole way

a hoax, a hack, a star, a champ
a fake, a fraud, a king, a god
i choke on words
they haven't said it's okay

an inconvenient time for
you held your skull against mine
too soon too late, i had died
with our fingers intertwined

an all familiar thought has come
planted there by somebody from
a time before the concept of the lack

paintings
of the same things
made before we
had ever been

watch the leaves
are you bleeding?
don't you touch me
fucking freak

how lucky they are to have so many options
amongst all of the heads that they have talked with
overthink all of the words i have been saying
oh my god what if they hate me
they definitely hate me

i don't believe in superstitions or whatever
but it's fun to pretend whenever we get together
that there's energy in crystals and meaning in the numbers
because i know that these things bring you a great comfort

beyond practical and pragmatism
i am dedicated to an idealistic caricature
of a body sculpted from stone and born from heaven
scornful, contempt, and so irreverent

october usagi

ultraviolet ultraviolence, bleeding the full color spectrum
＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／

A collaboration between myself and And Cowboys (Canada). This originally started as one song (Kokoro) for a compilation album for Asian Glow's discord server. AC reached out to me after I had stated I was open to collaborating with someone and sent me his music. I was very impressed, and surprised that he was so underappreciated. We made Kokoro together last year, and the first version released on New Year's Day, 2023. The version uploaded then was largely incomplete and I wanted to redo it (you can still listen to it if you look for it), and whilst in the process of doing it I suggested that we just make a whole EP. AC sent me some of his unused project ideas and I built on them and sent them back, and he would build on those. This repeated until we had 4 songs done (both parts of Manta Raves were originally in one song). We had never met in person during all of this, and it was done entirely through Discord communication and Google Drive file sharing.

Ontan was one of my listeners a few years prior and eventually I found their art and followed them off of that. She offered to make me art for any type of musical project I need it for. Apparently, she knew about AC already from a Number Girl fan discord or something, so I thought she would be a great fit for this project. Small world huh?

I am very proud of how it all came together, and I'm forever grateful to AC and Ontan for their patience with me and contributions on this project!!! It feels like we all worked really hard together on a group project in community college and got an A+... 

ENJOY!!! (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) <3

Manta Raves (二)

the ballad of ickle stardust

enough for you

Tonetta - Does Anybody Know I'm Here

(song about monster energy)
(I'm too lazy to finish this lmao)

I've seen some better days
right when she dumped me
got lots of energy for self destruction

pour up myself a drink
with lots of caffeine
I think it's time to die
so say goodbye
and say goodnight

pop that shit and party rock
I forgot my Adderall
suicidal chemicals
kill the cops and fuck the world

baby I'm on ritalin
tryna get us both a fix
overdose on pixie sticks
cut yourself before it hits

MONSTER

GUEST VOCALS BY @kikiromi

born under a bloody moon
in december
he was gifted in the arts and soon
jinxed from birth
the Furies had managed to
manipulate the Fates
all the karmic debt he had accrued
still had yet to be paid
she came one month following
on the 21st
jealous of her beauty,
Nemesis made sure that she would hurt
alone, they'd be invisible
but in companionship, they're an overwhelming visual
wicked wicca kids
the aurora borealis is
draped over the house
where the gods drink from their chalices
and cast misfortune down
"let's guide them both together
and turn them into lovers,
they'll hope it lasts forever
then we'll take away the other!"

fatality, mortality
the burden of humanity
pulsing through the veins of all the greco-roman tragedies
civility, nobility
beyond my capabilities
preparations made to learn a lesson in humility
unconsciously,
astrology, astrocartography
buried underneath some kind of jungian psychology 
idolatry, astrolatry
you are the star i'm following
promise that you will return to me
the love you're borrowing
mortal in the moment
i'm vulnerable and terrified
lover, lover, don't let me down
where we're going we won't need ground
what i'll give is more than words
wedding rings sourced from saturn
lover, lover, let's disappear
catch a comet far away from here

it's okay if you exploit me
it's okay, i don't
it's okay if you destroy me
it's okay, i won't
it's okay if you don't like me
it's okay, i do
it's okay if you're just lying
it's okay, it's true
is it okay if we stay out late?
i don't think it's wrong
is it okay to reincarnate?
can i come along?
is it okay if we continue?
i think that we should
is it okay to finish in you?
i was hoping you would
i want you and i can't explain it at all
i need you more than the drugs and the alcohol
you're a little piece of heaven
and i don't know how i could live without
i can't- can't live without

mio crashed his car
driving home from the bar
now he's never waking up again
mio's getting high
with the stars up in the sky
you can see him next to orion
julie's gonna cry
when she sleeps alone tonight
now she's never gonna love again
julie overdosed
while she held his picture close
now she's stardust up there with him
mio crashed his car
driving home from the bar
now he's never waking up again
mio's getting high
with the stars up in the sky
you can see him next to orion
julie's gonna cry
when she sleeps alone tonight
now she's never gonna love again
julie overdosed
while she held his picture close
now she's stardust up there with him

julie, baby
don't you cry
'cause up above, we'll reunite!
i've been waiting all this time
for you to be here, too
mio, darling
don't go far!
i made a wish upon a star
that i'd fall back into your arms
i'm coming up there soon!
aquarius! aquarius!
i love you, sagittarius!
they don't know we'll be laughing
when they go ahead and bury us
quiet down, quiet down
the whole angelic choir's out
come on, dance with me
to the sound of Apollo's lyre, now!

Daijokay

makeout party

seven stars

Prod by Dreva Sleep
shotout to naerobi
Yt video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2VZ9WLf3qFM
Spotify : https://open.spotify.com/track/2Yw0fbVtz87480bQiCDqq7?si=2d3e27100a394024

[Dreva Sleep]
I knew it from the start that I wouldnt be anything at all
it was too obvious that, I'd just crash into a wall
I knew the world was cold & I never find anywhere warm
and now Im drivin fast alone, prayin that I bump outta road

Its been so long, since I felt love
I know nothing matters in my life
sittin alone on a sidewalk
just realized no stars in the sky

[Naerobi]
You know u did me wrong
but I still look right past it
and even if you dont
wont you stop being plastic

Its at this point
where I give up figthin
Im sure Im lost
but wont you help me find me

[Dreva Sleep , Naerobi ]
Its been so long, since I felt love
I know nothing matters in my life
sittin alone on a sidewalk
just realized no stars in the sky

makeout party

dead love triangle

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