FUCKED UP

The 62 sessions - Jan 6th 2026

Sisa Di Dalam Doa

Photographs 
Call you and leave 
The last word sometime 
Never mind 

Way up high 
We like to be somewhere 
We can stay oblivious 

This is what it sounds like 
Talking to myself at night 
Looking for the kids inside- 
You and I 

We lost it all 
Just to be lonely 
In the same room 
You know I'd disappear 
Just to be near you 

Dancing again 
Out on the edge 
Of our cathedrals 
We're laughing as 
We fall like 
We are special 
Thin air 

Curtain call
Step out and take a bow 
You could end 
Everything

This is what it sounds like 
We just stay awake each night 
Sippin' on the better times 
You and I

Cathedrals

I feel like calling someone
Hate when I get like this
Feel like the doors are closing
And feel the way that I do, do ya?
And if you feel the way that I do, prove it
But what are the odds of that?

Pacing up & down my kitchen
Wonder whether you would listen
I don't wanna play this part no more
Even though I was written for it

Sometimes I feel like you're the only who gets it, baby
Sometimes I don't give a damn at all, damn it all yeah

Why didn't anybody tell me what it feels like?
To wake up in a cold sweat
In the middle of the night
Man, I didn't sign up for this yeah
If you need me, catch me quick yeah
'Cause I'm running
Running from the thoughts that I used to get
I got scared to death without you
I know what you said you want
And what you gotta do
And so I made my bed without you
You don't gotta say it twice
I still think you're nice
I won't say another word

I thought I was good around you
Yeah, my head felt so clear
Wonder if you thought the same things?
Now, I'm thinking 'bout my worst fears

Then, I start to doubt the whole thing
Yeah, you run my mind 'till it's on E
Wonder if you miss the old me?
I know that's not fair but

Why didn't anybody tell me what it feels like?
To wake up in a cold sweat
In the middle of the night
Man, I didn't sign up for this yeah
If you need me, catch me quick yeah
'Cause I'm running
Running from the thoughts that I used to get
I got scared to death without you
I know what you said you want
And what you gotta do
So, now I go to sleep without you
You don't gotta say it twice
I still think you're nice
I won't say another word

Why didn't anybody tell me what it feels like?
Yeah, why didn't anybody tell me just don't
Why didn't you tell me how it feels?
You should've told me, baby
You should've warned me, baby
What are we doing, baby?

Running from the thoughts that I used to get
I got scared to death without you
I know what you said you want
And what you gotta do
And so I made my bed without you
You don't gotta say it twice
Yeah, I think you're nice
I won't say another word

Please don't say it twice

Heads Up

It’s like I’m living here now
Somewhere in between
Who I was back there
And who I’m gonna be
 Now I go back and forth
In my head sometimes
I can’t even leave my bed

So so long to the Midwest
And acting my age
It’s so like LA

I paid for this ride
Now I wanna get off
Stop it, stop me
From wasting my time

Lies I’ve been living
Giving up on my youth
Stop it, stop me

Stop taking me back
I wanna live right, right now
I don’t wanna go back
I just wanna get it right now

Stop taking me back
I wanna live right now, I wanna get it right now
I don’t wanna go back
I wanna get it right now, right now

I remember 8 years old, my parents bought me legos
I built you a city, mom, look at the table
Now I just beg for a label
But I don’t build shit
And my mom’s not proud
Yeah, look at me now
I just wanna play with legos

SO LIKE LA

The song ‘Yeah You’ pairs electronic texture with David’s familiar glazed vocals. Summer Heart tells us: “ ‘Yeah You’ is about feeling alive and having no regrets! It’s about trying to ignore the past since you can't change. But most of all it's about having fun living in the present."

The new song ‘Yeah You’ will be available worldwide on the 16th of March. 

Look out for the hashtag #12SongsOfSummer to hear new tracks released every month of 2018.

You can catch Summer Heart at SXSW 2018.

Tuesday 3/13‪ ‬
‪WOW! HIGH FIVE! Showcase - 6pm‬
‪Greenbelt Touring Official Showcase - 11pm‬

‪Friday 3/16‪ ‬
KVRX Showcase 9:15pm 

‪Saturday 3/17‪ ‬
Rosquatch Showcase - 12:30p‬m
‪Palm Door Official Showcase - 11pm‬

Yeah You

An ode to heartbreak and personal reconciliation </3

Mixed & Mastered by Micheal Kolar

Lyrics:
Yeah there’s something about the old me that you can’t give up
You were thinking about the old me when you gave it up

Cold stares, you’re so unaware
Not the ordinary love affair
Distance flares of what we couldn’t bare
You miss what I do

Yeah there’s something about the old me that you can’t give up
You were thinking about the old me when you gave it up

Settle down I can feel the truths you fear
I’ve fallen way too hard to hear
In time my love will disappear
But i’ll never forget you

I’ve fallen, fallen heavy for you
I’m sinking, bleeding, nothing to lose
I’ve fallen, fallen heavy for you
And I miss what you do

Yeah there’s something about the old me that you can’t give up
You were thinking about the old me when you gave it up

About the old me
That you can’t give up
About the old me
When you gave it up

About the old me
That you can’t give up
About the old me

Old Me

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Written & Performed by Ben Zaidi.
Produced by Ben Zaidi & Myles Avery.
Mixed by Myles Avery.
Mastered by John Webber for AIR Studios.
Recorded in Brooklyn, NY.
Photograph by Omar Harbi.

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cherry piccing, i’m getting
so sick and tired of this lie living
all of the time sitting here flipping
by for the right image, try and get it
cherry piccing

cherry piccing, time’s slipping
by as i’m pic-posting, like-getting
tell me you want this and i’ll listen
it’s just the time that i, i live in
i live in

but you don’t know the half of it
no you only see half of it
so how could you know…
no you don’t know the half of it

they say that i’ve got it
so good i’m so gifted, then why is it
i feel my head splitting, hard liquor
i’m sipping till i got no liver
go figure

why is it like this i
know life would be better if i didn’t
if i didn’t say what i just did when
i did it, i did it, but all summer
i did it

but you don’t know the half of it
no you only see half of it
how could you know…
i’m unhappy

cherry piccing, cold water
i see the life that i’m, i’m missing
try but there’s no winning fighting the
time that i, i live in
i live in cherry piccing

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Cherrypiccing.

Written & Performed by Ben Zaidi.
Produced by Ben Zaidi & Myles Avery.
Trumpet by Tree Palmedo.
Mastered by John Webber.
Recorded in Brooklyn, NY & Seattle, WA.

Lyrics:
When we got to the place
Where we scattered that ash
And the water turned black
And my heart was all glass
And the fields were brown
And I felt like that––
No color to my name
All sour in my brain

I said I don’t care
If you’re even there
'Cause you can’t dig me from this pit I’m in
And your hazard lights
Shone like satelites
And I spat out the words, saying "I don’t need you"

I wasn’t in my right mind

I’ve been walking around
In this wooden mask
Where I never look back
Wrap your head around that
But to tell you the truth
Think I’ve got it bad
I wanna shake myself crying "why’d I leave you"

I wasn’t in my right mind

Fuck was I doing
Fuck was i thinking
Why do I ruin everything precious I’m given
I know it’s too late now
And I should keep moving
But I can’t fall asleep 'cause I still need you

I wasn’t in my right mind

How could I be so blind?
I wasn't in my right mind
And I was wrong
Thought I could make it on my own
But I was so blind
I wasn't in my right mind

I was wrong
I thought leaving would make me strong
But I was so blind
I wasn't in my right mind
Now you're gone
I can't make it on my own
Will you please come home
'Cause I wasn't in my right mind

Right Mind.

Let's make up

poet songmaker writing music out of bedrooms in seattle and brooklyn

mgmt ~ zael.ellenhorn@ymugroup.com
booking ~ jgillette@apa-agency.com

Right Mind.

Ben Zaidi

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