Guardian vibes, i love thiiiiiis 🖤🖤

lyrics

is ur life so fucking boring
that u feel the need to stalk me
and do,
u tell all of these lies
for attention? well our eyes are on u
is it weighing on ur soul?
everything that u uphold?
or are u just a psychopath?
ur feeling pretty bold
and ur eyes are looking cold
for someone that wasnt built to last

all eyes on u

and this isnt real, do u care how i feel
when the moments that we used to cherish are gone
n my skin starts to peel, so then i made a deal
with a devil of sorts that i have in my bones
n he took the hate, n he took the pain
n turned it around till theres nothing to gain
from sitting in place when i cant feel my face
when im finding some solace in drugs that i take

all eyes on u

Come Back (prod. switch)

Wish I could  (prod hieloways)

track 3 
n i’ve never felt as low as this
when u told me that u hate me
i died a bit 
now the sun feels so cold on my skin 
and nothing tastes the same, again, you win

 
yea and i cry every night when i go to sleep
i don’t wanna fight anymore please just bury me 
you’re the one i like
despite what u said to me 
i’m high as a kite 
off this mud
keep on tellin me 
that i should get help 
but u never been a friend 
so please don’t sit and cry
fake tears on my bed 
u the one that tried to help me til the end
why the fuck i need a therapist when i got u instead?

*inhale*
*exhale*
it’s as easy as that
*inhale*
*exhale*

just breathe it’s as easy at that 
as easy as that 
so i just breathe when this bitch get me mad
grayfox the king i be here til i’m dead 
had a slow year think my shit about to fall off
but i’m still here with this blood on my hands
shoutout to tropic, as easy as that
shoutout to loveless, as easy as that 
run thru the street when i’m off of my meds
but i’ll still be right here while these boys follow trends
3 playlists 1 week i’m scheming again 
people can hate but ain’t bled what i bled 
i’ve seen the fall when ur stood on the edge cus i’ve seen my own mum in a hospital bed
i’m way too high so go argue with them
got my whole life in the palm of my hands
make a no hook and then go right to bed
and u can sendflowrs when im laid to rest

just breathe, it’s as easy as that (mackk)

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

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death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

happy new years!
hope i can get back to posting weeklys again
i know i keep promising but it's just a cycle of me trying and then getting demotivated, but 2023 new me !

Lyrics:

i'm still alive
i can feel feelings
i'm clinging on with all of my being
i'll fuck u up
just give me a reason
i own the skulls of my demons i slayed
you've got the horns but i smell that ur fake
i've got thirty forms and i'm adding to date
got guts on my boots and its teeth for a necklace
this blood on my hands i'm gon take to the grave

if u put em higher i'll raise u the stakes
the curse is a part of me u cannot take
use me as cover please harvest my arteries
leave me my vocals so still i can hate
bash me n bruise me with chairs like my colleagues
so i can hit back justified by the state
fuck all ur weapons n copters n guns
with my bare hands i could rip up a tank

-
with chiseled abs u still bleed the same
so hurry up i cannot wait
U SAID I COULD TRUST U AND U LIED TO MY FACE
OR I GUESS HIS
CAUSE I KILLED HIM AND I'M WEARING HIS FACE

i think i need to take a few more bodies
this arsenal needs growing
the werewolves declared war today
and man i can't wait
these monsters ain't got shit on me
i'm the reason they're extinct
the passages of the folklore are just archaic not fake

if u put em higher i'll raise u the stakes
the curse is a part of me u cannot take
use me as cover please harvest my arteries
leave me my vocals so still i can hate
bash me n bruise me with chairs like my colleagues
so i can hit back justified by the state
fuck all ur weapons n copters n guns
with my bare hands i could rip up a tank

i'm still alive
i can feel feelings
i'm clinging on with all of my being
i'll fuck u up
just give me a reason
i own the skulls of my demons i slayed
you've got the horns
but i smell that ur fake
i've got thirty forms
and i'm adding to date
got guts on my boots and its teeth for a necklace
this blood on my hands
i'm gon take to the grave

I'M STILL ALIVE
I CAN FEEL FEELINGS
I'M CLINGING ON WITH ALL OF MY BEING
I'LL FUCK U UP
JUST GIVE ME A REASON
I OWN THE SKULLS OF MY DEMONS I SLAYED
YOU'VE GOT THE HORNS BUT I SMELL THAT UR FAKE
I'VE GOT THIRTY FORMS AND I'M ADDING TO DATE
GOT GUTS ON MY BOOTS AND ITS TEETH FOR A NECKLACE
THIS BLOOD ON MY HANDS I'M GON TAKE TO THE GRAVE
IF U PUT EM HIGHER I'LL RAISE U THE STAKES
THE CURSE IS A PART OF ME U CANNOT TAKE
USE ME AS COVER PLEASE HARVEST MY ARTERIES
LEAVE ME MY VOCALS SO STILL I CAN HATE
BASH ME N BRUISE ME WITH CHAIRS LIKE MY COLLEAGUES
SO I CAN HIT BACK JUSTIFIED BY THE STATE
FUCK ALL UR WEAPONS N COPTERS N GUNS
WITH MY BARE HANDS I COULD RIP UP A TANK

i'm still alive
i can feel feelings
i'm clinging on with all of my being
with chiseled abs u still bleed the same
so hurry up i cannot wait
u said i could trust u and u lied to my face
or i guess his
cause i killed him and i'm wearing his face

changeling (kubsy)

[+ loverboybeats]

@navyxower
@dylaanlotus
@noxious-nights
@souldfadexo
@emptychest
@northshoremusic

(navy)
gotta black tee
some would say its green
baby i gotta lay down
baby im feeling weak

wandering through the streets
heartbreak on the seames
ima travel cross the sea, i wonder what it means

party you party, lets party you talk in ur sleep, i need to get outta here again
why do you wanna get down with him, i heard you talking im sick

when we met by the water
would you think of me differently, if i had a daugher
i watch all these aniamls go to slaughter
its cause ur all selfish, what did they do wrong

(dylan lotus)
i’m burning up, i been hellbound
i’m leaving this earth cuz you hate me
so fuckin lost, i been spellbound 
i’m under the curse that you gave me
fuckin it up til you break me
all of these drugs that i’m taking
lace a few pills and i’m soarin off
lovin a thrill yeah i’m pouring up
fucked up; i’m worthless 
constant soul searching 
am i really worthy of love? i’m not perfect

(noxiousnights)
why am i so hard on myself ?
my goals are too big it's ruining my health
i could really make it easier
but all the summer i make it feel like winter

I distort my mind to help me cope
the world is spinning i'm out of control
sometimes it feels like there's no hope
i'm lost in my thoughts i can't let go

(soulfade)
Surely hate the way you talk to me
When things around fallen downward
In sense I never wanted this
Things would never happen way too soon

Always talking to myself at the noon
Always staring blankly at the moon

(emptychest)
different day different rolls
u know how the story goes
u know how to keep me close
i know how to keep u warm
its my responsibility
to keep u warm..
i never thought id live, endeavor!
never thought id see forever!
i didnt think id find my home
I really thought id die alone 
die alone.
nobody knows whats in my head.
ive been counting down my days
so i can finally get some bread
ay, see my, be my, mind
you'd die in a second!
its crazy to think im the same as you

(TNS)
Take the path that’s in front of me 
Feel the rhythm inside of me 
Tired of just playing hide n seek 

Where you really at girl, I don’t wanna leave 
Self esteem aside, girl I need you with me 
I just did a full 180

Hide & Seek w/ NAVYXOWER, dylan lotus, noxiousnights, soulfade, emptychest & The North Shore

lyrics

on the road nd
like the oceans
when i said u might not c me one day i was hardly joking 
built up all these emotions
mixing these potions 
lit the candle, the smoke there's always someone toking 
and one taken by the wind over there floating
ur praying and hoping 
somebody notice
crying, shirt soaking
but noone approaches

i see 
im helpless
im guilty
im lying outside and im filthy
the rain is so different 
this time i dont think it will wash me 
it was so cold all my edges were frosty
wouldnt done much if u hurt me that party
i settle down with th trees when its foggy
coz i see so clearly that id be missed hardly

uh 

ppl helping out ion believe it 
questioned till its answered then we seal it 
scars and battle wounds we’re told theres healing 
theres more that we’ve been fed 
but dont stop feeding

coz thats life 
so try live 
and love 
and yeh give
but not fucks 
dont give em that
i say shit once 
i dont double back
i know my luck 
i dont bring a match
uh, uh

hardly missed

hardly missed (idealism)

ｎｏ　ａｉｒ，　ｂｕｔ　ｓｏｍｅｈｏｗ　ｉ　ｂｒｅａｔｈｅ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ

prod by my guy @solofttt
fucking love you all.
more on the way
stay strong
take care; drink water
try to get some rest.
thank you for being here

too much
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways

that's the price that i'll pay
not to be overcome by my emotions
a hallow frame, left to be hung on it's own
where nobody'll noticed it's changed
feel that pain of your confusion
and just turn it into music
orchestrations of my patience
retrospective-made illusions

just be cautious not to lose it
'cause some bitch said something stupid
trust me, god i know it hurts
but know your worth and keep on moving
somewhere in the sky
just go outside and raise your head
there's reclusive ways to cleanse yourself
without this constant dread
but this toxin's running deeper
i don't know how long i'll last
i misplaced my faith with hatred
as i'm staring down the glass
i ain't hitting you up like i know you (but i do)
but i'm up a few notches, i'll understand
'cause the past, it haunts you (it does)
i try to reach out, but i got ghost hands

felt too much
now i don't feel enough
felt too much
i may have dove a little deep in the ocean
for my lungs,
couldn't handle the pressure that they had been holding
y'all folding, but i'm focused
honestly i feel omnipotent
only when i get my hands on the potion
or i'm broken, i'm not joking
but maybe if i break daylight, then i'll get shit done
and i'll feel alright
with a tone so stale there was no real cry
on a blood-stained trail, we still bleed overnight
fuck, i bet that you feel it again
incisions embellish your skin
and now you're all alone again
deprived of the people you thought were your friends
i made a couple calls, did they go through?
it ain't fair, i really don't wanna miss you
take care, i'll be blowing on tissues
no air, but, somehow i breathe through
it's 4 in the morning, my guardian's snoring
i'm sorry i lied, i've been sippin away
i'd make me some porridge, but puke it by morning
the cycle is horrid, but i ain't complain

indefinite pain ain't just part of my day
it's been shrouding my brain
like a vulturous gate
this shit's an escape
i'm always afraid
of being locked out of my own mental state
try not to run away just yet, i feel you
breaching my skin, for the meantime

too much 
i don't wanna feel too much
(like what?)
beat up; feet are clamped in the mud
no one
fuck this damper wood i'm hunching over every day
you shouldn't feed me love 'cause i'll regurgitate it anyways
(anyways)

woodworks [prod. soloft]

i love these lyrics n the song so much, jus had to do a cover, i promise original stuff soon i know it's been months, just can't record cuz moved out of old place and in a really bad state of mind, lotta really cool stuff planned tho, luv you all even if i don't have the energy to show it <3

Lyrics:

Listen to the birds sing
Kissing in my car I
Idk if there’s a purpose
Feel like we moving at a high speed
Waiting for the lightning to strike me
Getting tempted by the eyes you hold
Hands warm but your heart cold

-

Dont wanna assume it
feels like u been acting
I dont wanna do this
u go push me back in

Stare at me with hate
Through those crystal eyes
And it kills inside
But im acting fine

U dont even know Me
I know that u scared too
U dont wanna fall in love by accidental
For when u decide to leave to hard to handle
I wanted all of u
And not a sample

Far away
see a glimpse
Of your heart but
Its laying deep inside the shadows

After all things wont be the same
So Might as well use this as ammo

-

im breaking through the barrier
i still need to hurry up
baby what u pickin up
i cant tell if this is love
40000 years amuck
we still argue bout what star we from
but stop and look how far we've come
damn i think we didnt do enough

plenty men devoured by the evil lesser known
if i stay focused on the essence of my soul
i got a prophecy entangled with my spirit that the stars
chose to bestow
i bleed from out my eyes into the late november snow
the fox inside my blood has chose his presence to be known
the human left inside me looks to find another home
he says im awful
im way above the ways of thinking lawful
im stuck inside the mouth of reason rippin out his tonsils
my energy is somehow tied to paleozoic fossils
its smothered deep in mother natures arms remaining coddled
but i like it
as for every mortal left alive your uninvited
we take this gift of earth and give it violence
id prefer if inside my world i could choose to keep it private
its not tinnitus
but this noise inside my head id like to attribute to sirens
insomuch i feel the rush of vehicles beside it
these flashing scenes of tragedy sit inside of my eyelids

Waiting For The Lightning To Strike Me cover

(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

all eyes on u

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