Prod. P4RA

Lyrics:

ima turn my body into ashes
ima let my body down cause i let everybody down
ima get a car just to crash it 
i dont wanna live no more im driving til i hit a wall

hope you still thinking bout me 
hope you see things that i see
hope you still care about me
hope you wonder where i be

i let my guard down
why did i trust on a hoe now
i think she hurt now
new man be telling her lies now

i dont wanna fall and regret it
but baby i wish that you meant it
i dont wanna love so forget it
i dont wanna fall and regret it

i let my guard down
why did i trust on a hoe now
i think she hurt now
new man be telling her lies now
i dont wanna fall and regret it
but baby i wish that you meant it

ima turn my body into ashes
ima let my body down cause i let everybody down
ima get a car just to crash it 
i dont wanna live no more im driving til i hit a wall

hope you still thinking bout me 
hope you see things that i see

lavender (prod. P4RA)

ily all, y'all are my everything
go show @emptychest all the love in the world
(casperrr)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

(emptychest)
that the wind blows
it makes it always cold
and i will never know
never know, where the fuck to go
been reaping what i sow, i think its time to float
(i think about it like everyday)
away.
i think about it like everyday
stay in my brain while you stay in your lane
they say that it gets better but i dont think i believe them
smoking hella potent, think this shits gonna free me soon
that the wind blows
i really wanna stay
but i think ill go

i really wanna stay.
(casperrr + emptychest)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

i really wanna stay w/emptychest (wissery)

svnam - hey, darling w/ sendflowrs (jolst)

tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face
tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face


when i'm 20 something, i'll fucking die
sitting high up above with the satellites 
wish that i wasn't a mess like every fucking night
blow my trees just to see if i'm still alive

(she keep me close just to tell me we not like that)

switched up, really switched up, guess you saw the phone
mix up, just a mix up, i feel so alone
lifeline, you are my lifeline
breathing in your soundwaves
through my phone line
let me switch my tone, i-
i fucking love you, i just met you at the wrong time
we both changed, love
but it's all fine
yeah that's alright
we both know i put my feelings into soundbytes

tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face
tell me who i am
i don't understand 
i can hear their screams inside the walls and i cant stand it
i just wanna live, just take me away
blood inside my mouth, i'm filling mud up to my face

mudmudmud (nevrfall)

produced by pekarot

completely non profit

lyrics

she said hold me
but i cant promise ill feel it im seeing stars 
is it haunting
that theres no pain from a blade if its sharp enough
and the gauze sits tight over covered scars
but its damp with blood and it smells of rot
sweat soaked nights in a bricked out yard
with my carved up fingers spilling fat n tar
and im barely concious but ill never yawn
as i stare straight faced at this silent dawn
and im such a sucker for a pretty face
when she looks at me i just melt n place
signals sent are so badly mixed
as my head is empty like a bedroom sit
and i write these songs when im feeling sick
cause a state of panic is how i exist

so i numb myself and try to take away the things that make me care

dont pretend u were there

my heart beats heavy hidden in my chest
n i feel the blood flow out the wound in my neck
n ive said this before but ur face drags the air from my chest 
if u laid me down id do the rest
please do not fret

honestly? im still miserable
but its not ur fault, we were both involved
and i am not but a shit-stained mark
on her polaroids of a bedroom wall

so i sit and i just drink myself to death again for one more night

ima fuck up my life 

i just hate the fact im tired all the god damn time

bell's line of road (pekarot)

i'll be the first to admit this one is rlly weird
song i was originally gonna post for my birthday but then just didn't :')
hope u enjoy it

lyrics:

rip me apart
tear me a new one
gashes n scars from all of the old ones
birthmarks show my alignment
i couldn't betray it's not in my wiring
posessed by a spirit u know what i saw
hundreds of symbols engraved on my walls
if i'd said a thing i'd be in asylum
i should've screamed but i didn't mind it

i didn't mind it
i didn't mind it
i didn't mind it
i didn't mind it

sat in front of my mic started seeing thru walls
some kind of emblem appeared on my palms
recent nights i dont know who to call
i'm losing my mind i think once and for all
my frie̴̔nds all tell m̶̮̍e to get a gr̵ip
i̷͓̊ frä̴̰́n̸k̵ly don't g̴ive̶͈͆ a single sh̴it
̷̦͛t̵́͜h̵̟͠e vō̵̖i̴̮͑c̸̬̚e g̸̞̾ets loud i̸̲̗̒̐n m̴̡̎y̴̬̅ hḙ̷͝a̴̮͠d aga̴̠̚i̷̞͂n̵̩̔
t̴̿́o t̴̡̖͕̥̃h̴̩̖̒e p̶̐̓ǫ̴̱̘̀̀͠i̷̦͂̌̈n̷͖̪͈̯̓̂t i th̷i̵͕͗͐n̵̹̓k st̷͉̞͛͂r̸͗ang̵̤̒͗é̵͘rs r̵̨̜̣̣͐̏̚ h̵̛̜̝͊̉̓͐̓͝eȧ̶̻ring it
ƚ̴̧̤̠̃̈͒เ̷̧̦͘͘ ̴̯̽́ǫ̵̤̚ᴎ̸͂̌͊เ̶̧͓̥̹̀͋̊͝ɿ̴̨̤̝̠̓ɒ̴̉ɘ̵̨̫̰̋ʜ̷͑͘ ̶̦̀̀̕ɿ̵̗͔͔̌̑ ̷̢̲̼͇̋ꙅ̴̎͋ɿ̵̼̤̦̀̒͜ɘ̷̢͖̋̃͘ǭ̶̬̜̼̩̿͂ᴎ̵ɒ̸͖̇̉͐ɿ̶̝͙̆ƚ̶̧̄͋͝ꙅ̸̲͙̟͌̒ ̵̭̦̎ʞ̶͓͙̿͒͠ᴎ̵̼̻̙̺̂เ̸̣̬̺͕͊͆͆͛ʜ̵̘̯̀̃̀̀ƚ ̶͖́͠เ̶͍͖͙̯̂̈ ̷̯͎͋̽͗̎ƚ̴͍̹̯̲́̎̓ᴎ̴̧̡̝͚̈͌เ̴̟͍̍͆͜͠๏̷̺̪̮̊̆̄͑ợ̷͇͑̋ ̵̪̗̠̍͆̈́͝ɘ̸̡̱͔̠͌̂͝ʜ̵̳̦̻̪͗͛̆̅ƚ̶̰̠̗͗́̆͝ ̵̳̥̺̘̄͐๏̴͇́̽̅ƚ̷͑̀͆͝
̶̡̞͆ᴎ̸̝̘̾เ̷̰̩̮́̕ɒ̵̪̫̝͊̈́ǫ̷̛͙̞̝̗̂̕͘ɒ̷̯͈̉͊ ̴̯̥͇͛๔̶̘͒ɒ̶̞̒̽̂̕ɘ̸̥̔͊ʜ̵̢̛̣͈̽̑ ̶͔̋̑̌ʏ̶̜̌๓̴̜̲͉̱̄̎͒͝ ̸̲̻̦̓́ᴎ̸̥̝̲̃เ̸̾͝ ̵̨̨͉͑̕๔̴̙͇̯̟̍ย̷̞̦̐̆̽̈๏̵̯̥̲̍̾̾|̴͍̻͙͕͛̾̚ ̸͓̗̈́ꙅ̵̹̲̫̀͋͘ƚ̶̻̀̔ɘ̷͚̤̦͚̅̎͐̊ǫ̴͉̰̻̜͛̓̑͐ ̷̙͇̋ɘ̵̤̜̞̍͜ɔ̵̧̡̠͐͜เ̴̲̻̤́̒͝͝๏̸̛̮ש̴̨̛͕̾̽͝ͅ ̷̢̪͒̈́ɘ̸̳̖̆͑̒̉ʜ̶̢̩͇͋͝ƚ̷̗̲͐͌̆͐
̸̢̜͇͐ƚ̸̢̉เ̸̮̱̈́̄ʜ̷̖̟̬̭͑ꙅ̵̙̎͛͐͠ ̴̱̿̈́̈́ɘ̷̧̹͓̑͘ͅ|̴̩̣̱̇͒͋͜ǫ̵̲̫͐ᴎ̵̭̿̕เ̴̩͚̆͆͂͠ͅꙅ̶͕̰̩͋̌̚ ̸̹̚ɒ̷͕̎̀́̀ ̸̧̧̲͒̍̈́̃ɘ̶̢̺̥̌͊̚ͅש̴̜͇͗เ̵̧͔̼̀ǫ̶͖͖̂̚ ̵͙͒͘ƚ̴̤̼͂̎͘͝'̴̲̔̍̋ᴎ̴̨̲͂̌๏̶̖̲̣̗͊๔̸̫̱͕̤̈́ ̵̟̋̉́͠ʏ̵̦̈|̴̫̱͎̘͋̇͐̋ʞ̷͈̻̳͎͛́̕̕ᴎ̸̙͖̋ͅɒ̶̰̙͖̇͘͝ɿ̷̮̽Ꮈ̷̘̖̎̂ ̷̦̏̔̈́̿เ̵̠̪̐͜
̶̛͇̍̔̚ǫ̷̛̛̣͎̓͊͋เ̴̰͐ɿ̶͍̪͕̝́ǫ̵͉̅ ̸͓̝͛ɒ̴̛͉͙͗̉ ̸̯̻͌̄̊̕ƚ̴̙̞̇̋ͅɘ̸̪͈͕͊̕ǫ̵͖̠̗̓̋́ ̷́͌̔͜๏̴̨̢̮̬̑͗ƚ̶̲̱͉̃̃ ̷̧̟̐ɘ̷̢͙̰͎͋͝๓̷̢̣̩̕͝ ̵͍̲̏̈͠|̴̪̹̰̂̋̊͠|̴̬̤̻̈́̄ɘ̴̤̩̺̋̋̀͝ƚ̷̪̲̦͓͌̈̍͌ ̷̣̍̒̾|̴̞̭̀|̶̤̣̂̚ɒ̵̨͍͎̿̒̋ ̵̮͛̕ꙅ̵͕͆̓̏̆๔̶͓͒̇ᴎ̷̱͔̀ɘ̵̬̊͊͝เ̷̛̟̥̻ɿ̷̲̲̓́͌͌͜Ꮈ̶̟͇̬̈́͌͘ ̷̧̢̨̎̈́̓̍ʏ̶̟̩̪̿̚๓̷̼͓̳͓͂
̵̣̭͊͒|̷̫̜̯̞̈́͒|̴̩̰̥̙̏͊̚̕ɒ̵̼̅̕ ̵̢̱̜̒̽̀̕͜ɿ̷͇̻͔̺͒๏̷̖̫̩͉͛Ꮈ̸̰́͊̍ ̸͍̫̍๔̶̝̦̉̽ᴎ̸̠̩̲̆̄͆ɒ̶̰́͆͝ ̶͖́̊̇͜͠ɘ̸̩͋̄̊ɔ̷̪͎̼̋̀ᴎ̸̼͒̐̀๏̷̜̎ ̶̲͆͗̓ʞ̷̝̘͐͜ᴎ̵͝ͅเ̸̞̱̺͒͆ʜ̴̨̢͓͑ƚ̷̞̯͋̄̂̕ ̸̻̾͒เ̵̨͓̮͈̀͆͊͂ ̴̙̒̌͋͘๔̴̨͙̰͒̅ᴎ̴̢̟̫̈͐̏̒เ̶͉͎͐̇̆̚๓̶̧͕̜̅͛ ̷̛̥͈̽ʏ̵̦̿̔๓̶͚̬̍̑̓͊ ̴̢̠͎͋̚ǫ̷̖̍̚͜ᴎ̶̞͉̃̽̋เ̷̨̼̦͒̀͝ꙅ̴̠̋̎͝๏̵͍́|̸͎̮̘̪͆ ̴͔̆̋̊̔๓̶̭̯͊̒'̷̼̜̤͕̀̀̉̚เ̵̱̉̾̊̋
̷̛̳̊̆͑|̷̢̗͎͑̐͆͊|̵̩̓͛̕ɒ̷̬͈̊̀͛͘ɔ̸̥̙̟̌ ̵̭̠͗๏̸̼͍̼͂ƚ̶̬̦̤̳̋͝ ̵̱̞̽̏̕๏̸͔͖̮́͂ʜ̵͕̃̇̎̚ฬ̶̤̑̑̓ ̸̬̌̈́̕ฬ̵̢̺͍̽̏͝๏̸̤̩̠͝ᴎ̴͇̐̃́̕ʞ̵͓͈̭̿ ̴̘̰̹̫̍͂ƚ̵̞͖̉͐ᴎ̸̢͉̣͑๏̸̯̳̣͙͒̉͝๔̶̢̺̜̗͌̆̀͝ ̷̠̩̲̠̾͘เ̴͖̠̟͕̉̑͐͆ ̷̫̉̓ꙅ̴͓̞͙̾͗͠ƚ̵̛͈̱͊͘ʜ̸̧̤̲̊̾ǫ̵̡̫͒͒̎͜͜เ̷̮̳̽͆͝͠ᴎ̶̛̯̘ ̴̩́͐͝ͅͅƚ̴̟̣̳̹̇ᴎ̶̛͍̜̭̃͜ɘ̸̡̣͗̊ɔ̷̰̟̜̽͘ɘ̷̢̲̹̣̊͝ɿ̸̎͜
̷̮̞͋̃̊̒ꙅ̷̳̘̾͋͝͝๓̷̧͖͋͑̌͘|̵̦̥̯̀̾ɒ̷̰̯͑͌̈́͝ợ̷͖̈́ ̴̠̑͌̾͒ʏ̸͚̙̤͝๓̴̱̖̳͕͐̃̑͝ ̵͚̔̄̉͘ᴎ̶̱̤͚͑͝ͅ๏̷̧͍̯̀̾ ̸̢͙̐͠๔̶̭̿̆ɘ̴̥͍̩̈̀́̕ͅɿ̴̘̈́͌́̚ɒ̵̤̐ͅɘ̶̜̺̭̅̕ợ̴̣͉̠͊́ợ̷̢̤̣̖͊͒͊ɒ̵̘̜͔̀̈̌ ̸̢͉͖̬̍๓̷͍̱͊̈́̂͆ɘ̵̨̺͕͊͋|̴͈̒̍̒๔̶̣̓̑̔͆๓̴̮̰̠̤͛̐ɘ̶̞͎̼̦́̀͘ ̶̳͌͌Ꮈ̵̨̟͠๏̵̢̫͖̓̆̐̒ ̵̼̘̌̐͜๔̵͙͖͑̋̀̌ᴎ̷̳̲͖̀̊͂เ̸̹͚͉̉ʞ̷͖̗̳͔̎ ̶̖͉̔ͅɘ̶̓͆͐ͅ๓̵̗͍̳̓̓͠๏̶̡̫͋̐̌̔ꙅ̸̗̅͆̕͜
̸̢̳͒ꙅ̴̗̯̈́̃|̶̡̯͊̉͘|̷͙̖̬̔̕ɒ̶̺̟͙̀͒̐͝ฬ̷̳̒͒̄̔ ̷̨̰̒ย̵̡͔̈͘ɿ̷͈̄̓̈́͜͠ʜ̷̧̘͇́ƚ̶̰̗̘͒̈́̏͝ ̶͖̭͆̓͠ǫ̸̤̝̼̈ᴎ̷̼́เ̵̺̬̋̕ͅɘ̴̨̟̝͊̅ɘ̸̫̦̇͒͂̅ꙅ̸̬̭̉̍̇̈ ̴̨̜͗̅๔̷͓͖̌̄͛́ɘ̴͍͍͔̋ƚ̸̢̞̘̮̿̉̄͊ɿ̵̦̰̏̚͝ɒ̵͍̗̋͝ƚ̶̝̭͔̓̓ꙅ̵̭̦̭̱͐͝ ̸̰̱͔͍̈́̌ɔ̶̙̳̒̌͠เ̸̪̤̦̞̚๓̸̤͎͖̐ ̵̡̳̱͗͂̈́̎ʏ̵͚͉̿̽͘͝๓̴̨̙́̉̓͌ ̶͎̩̜͊̇̕Ꮈ̷̨̈́̊๏̴̳̺̎̉̄̓ ̴̺͍̀͜͜ƚ̸̭̘͈̝͗ᴎ̷͓̙̃͂̉๏̴̢̛̯̞̙̊͗ɿ̶̛͙̮͇̽̿̉Ꮈ̶͓͙̩̔̒̏̐ ̶̡̤͗ᴎ̷̯̘̒̀́เ̶̜̼̟͐ ̵̣̭̜̽͑ƚ̵̭̺̒ɒ̶̼̞̫̠̋̍ꙅ̶͚̖̤̖̏̾̕

prophecy (canyouseetheghost)

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
white shinobi: @white-shinobi
gin$eng: @ginsengxx

they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i think our scene would be alot better without them
do you think we need them?
i dont think we need them?
cause we have nick and we have miles
you know exactly who the fuck im talking about.
they're clones 
and they barely try cause 
they get cosigned and 
they already have fans before they start
maybe i shouldnt talk about it at all
but im just being honest
im just being honest
you cant look me in the face and tell me that it looks fine to you
cause we work our ass off and we get nowhere
i think we all secretly know this is not very fun
cause itd be alot funner if people gave a fuck.
or if we could live off of this, but right now we could die from this
im not tryna be a pessimist, but you know music's more than this
i dont think i wanna stick around to see how it goes,
cause how fucking far can you make it in here?
they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i tried to tell you once but you didnt listen
"we're nothing special, we're just a follower."
im not tryna make you sad at all
please dont give up
i just want you to know
they're not what you thought they were.

bonessss/clonessss (white shinobi x gin$eng)

Mixed/Mastered By Me
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/youngburial
-
(Lyrics)
stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

she just wanna see me when I’m down 
questioning what are we I just frown 
getting messages from other people
can I ask are you evil?
and I just wanna set the mood to winter 

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

and every time we hanging out you don’t speak 
you question all the love you have for me I can see
I can see through this facade protecting me 
Hurting me give me more 

she was out too much 
she would stab me in my back
I know you didn’t care about me 
and I just wish you could love me 
the way I want you to 
and it’s been aching me

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this 

on your way your back that is not true 
you said that you care but that’s all lies
girl I miss you 
you know that I’m selfish girl 
I just wanna settle down 
I just wanna stay around 

and I just need a second to breathe 
I just wanna live here in peace 
no one fucking bothering me 
and I just need a second to breathe 
so please don’t go 

stuck in this room once again
feeling alone again 
can we just keep playing pretend 
I’m tired of all of this

what are we (fats'e)

conclusion; the end of an era
produced by @idlyblare
<3

lyrics:
sing me a song and tell me everything is normal
its been months since i had felt at all, im tryna keep it formal with the
things that i say to those who don’t quite get the most of me
its harder to find out when
they’re leaving

find me a stone & write my name in tiny letters
if u throw it far enough then you and i are stuck together for the
rest of our years or just as long as you put up with me
i know that it has to end
you’re leaving

so if i go
no complaints
we’ll take it slow
until we break

i shop the windows of this breezy inner city
hoping for some inspiration, maybe i’ll find something pretty in the
regurgitation of my life in front of you
i put myself for sale, just wondering
if you still want me too

i break the habits of my past, im nothin better than a
old pair of shoes that no one wears until they gotta
but its
nothing personal
something terminal

i saw the rain
reflecting off your windowsill
i took the pain i gathered
turned it into chlorophyll
who knows the way
we’ll fall back into open arms
i tried to find it comforting
here i am with battle scars

learning to lose

chlorophyll [idly blare]

spotify & apple music!

(prodbylxcid)

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
im been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

you got my back and i got your back too 
rolls Royce Cullinan stars in the roof 
green eyes i swear i fell in love with them 
your not a 9 girl, your a straight 10 

you call me up and ill be there in 5 
look at my watch and i'm stood there on time 
you looking gorgeous you looking all mine 
Cartier rings and rollie 
i need the Benz need to ball like im Kobe
cut all my friends off
no movement they're frozen 
im in the lead like im cheating im doping 
i need to look back and saver the moment 

your the diamond on my earth yh
your the pearl of my sea 
lets climb all these mountains with you by my side 
I'm been driving in Calvin's all day that's vibe 

i don't need two hands 
driving in this whip without you still feels lonely
i wanna make 100 grand 
i wanna get you Cartier rings and rollie
your a bad b i'll do it for you 
and i swear that im all my grind just for you 
i only got one life 
so i booked this table for two

i push the beta shit up of my chest 
ive been grinding week days week ends and the next
grinding for the cash 
cause i just want bad 
wanna buy you a diamond ring and a Prada bag

driving in this whip without you still feels lonely

@wstd 🐐

lyrics

who r u 
not even where r u
u gotta show urself
im not gon talk it thru
7 deep 
but i need sober cues
i can see the distance
like a dusted tune
be

look at me when im talking to ya
always looking at the dark side, future 
past, goin right thru, see thru like its glass 
sand gon hit th bottom u jus watch yo time pass

im feeling light,
feeling light headed
the stars that i see aint tell me where im heading
either lost or unconscious, beheaded
is what happens every night, like i think that im ascending
then come right back down to earth, where those even gates to heaven

uh body tellin that its dependant
no-one get a medic 
jus giv me a minute
with all this loss of blood 
i feel its starting to make sense

oh
set me up
can u get my mind mended
the words that now fall 
i had saved for this day 
ima savour it now
feeling like swaine how i jus cant burn out 

woah
comin back better this time
lost for a min but now almost in sight

im thinking so freely 
cares gone, so nearly
guess death might come easy tonight

distancee

distancee #240622 (wstd)

(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

bell's line of road (pekarot)

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