Can you just stop for the weekend
can you just stop with the tweakin
can you not feel how im feelin
can you not get what im feelin

wakin up late every mornin again
stoppin the drugs cause u loosin again
fallin asleep without you in my bed
fallin asleep and u not in my head

breakin apart and im lonely again
wishin that i could just touch you again
its 3 in the 6 and im loosin my head
takin a walk, dont get shot in the head

distance in earth is just too much to take
makin a livin off beatin me dead
i wanna move out so i can get the bread
but im stuck alone, and im loosin again

Can you just stop for the weekend
can you just stop with the tweakin
can you not feel how im feelin
can you not get what im feelin

can you just give me a reason
can you just fall with the treasen
would you just leave me in feelins
couldnt just stop how im feelin

-not home.-

felt like cutting up my eyelids
i been working hard inside the silence
running circles on the island
like why the fuck i even trying?

codeine bright violet
ive been smoking on the hybrid
thoughts inside me turn to violence
emotion seeping through the highlands

welcome to my fucking head
i take the words and i put it to rest 
garbage to still floating and filling my chest
i cant pretend like im feeling the best

i guess im next
they want me dead
pump up my head and my legs with the lead
she second guessing im fucking her friend, yeah

Give Me A Reason w/ not home. (prod. nvki)

prod frevel & 5head

i decided to try and recreate my old 2019 mix for this one and i rlly like how it turned out

lyrics:

run it back run it back, yea 
snow so cold that i cannot feel my hands yea
ima need to take a break lil baby 
but i’ll be right back
and her smile so sweet
that i can’t stay mad

but i can but i can yea 
runnin shit sendin shots at ur man yea 
she the queen, she hold it down
in the netherrealm 
when i’m not around 
catch the smoke
from 100 rounds
can u hold it down 
4 the GANG (no idea why i said that, i’m sorry)

think u need to switch it up
go change ur attitude 
and i can’t wrap my head round this shit
he can’t have you too 
x2

ur the sun and the stars and the moon and the sky, 
nah i don’t wanna talk to u lil bitch go get offline’d 
and i’m never fuckin sober smokin cookie till i die, yea
i jus need some help think i’m struggling tonight 
x2

run it back run it back, yea 
snow so cold that i cannot feel my hands yea
ima need to take a break lil baby 
but i’ll be right back
and her smile so sweet
that i can’t stay mad

but i can but i can yea 
runnin shit sendin shots at ur man yea 
she the queen, she hold it down
in the netherrealm 
when i’m not around 
catch the smoke
from 100 rounds
can u hold it down 
4 the GANG

netherrealm (frevel x 5head)

1st @strivemusicau | 2nd @kuriositylol | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @autumndropsdead | 5th @user-411557229 |

(strivesad.)
yeah i won't play nice
am i doing this right
i'll confine
in my sadness tonight
and i'll never say goodbye
to torture my mind
turn this darkness to light
gotta fight for my life (ooh)

(kuriosity)
lately ive been nauseous
cant eat right
ive been throwing up
smoke a L so i can eat
i put my feelings in the trunk
smoke till i cant see
drink till im throwin up
what am i waiting for
no im not blowing up
cheap liquor i put it on ice 
if it aint me u aint doin it right
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
lil bitch why u switchin up sides
fuck u ion play it nice 
fuck u ion play it nice
fuck u 
fuck u 
fuck u ion play it nice 

(noxiousnights)
i just took a break from that drink and that weed
i'm sober as fuck and i'm so fucking exhausted
working on my health, i was killin myself
had to throw away all the pills on my shelf
but i don't give a fuck, i could die tomorrow
they would run over my body if it was on the road
heart like stone and broken like my phone
i'm left in the cold and it's freezing my bones

(autumndropsdead)
can’t correlate with my head 
even though i try 
i don’t feel any better yet
so i sulk instead, life’s on the line
never knew where my shelter is
but we never knew what we started
people talk, but i choose not to worry us
at least i go all in, fuck your polish 
you ain’t gonna make me trust

(residential.)
wasting time
wasting shit
i been in my head
blew a stack
cause i can
now the beamer red
talking less
to my friends
now im in my bed
where the fuck
do you go
when your better dead
smoking gasoline under evergreen bleeding
sold your daughter green now she on my screen feening
never showing up
i been in my room leaning
i think i enjoy when my fingers lose feeling

Darkness 2 Light w/ autumndropsdead, residential, kuriosity, strivesad & noxiousnights [+ sogimura]

-NAVY-
i aint nothing
i aint nothing
do ur talking
i know u like it

u try to stop it
ur fuckin drugs which confinement are u hiding in, i cannot fuckin find it
-Hiraeth-
staring at the ceiling baby all i see is blood
u dont gotta call me now its nearly been a monf
u. aint gotta tell me that u luv me its a front
all my feelings are gone now u said u where done
i dont even wanna text you
i never thought id bean issue
"didnt mean to mistreat u"
my god have a reason

-NAVY-
but it wastes, wastes, wastes
been pullin on ur waist
im in space, space, space
aint nothin like it used to be
erased, reased, rased
im waiting on the day
putta 5 up to my head if u think u can run away
ima end it, end it, i hear voices in my basement

its hard to realize the sounds that fiddle in the distance
but you missed

-Hiraeth-
when i die would you let me grieve 
running out of skin 
nothing left of me
feel the marrow in my bone 
u gotta set me free
my god. 
my god would you let me breathe


-Sleepwater-
i wish u wouldent hurt me
the things u do desert me
so vacant for what concerns me
my bloods in ur vial turn me (into)
a dirty cheating scumbag
i know that i hate myself
i feel like a lost book that turned me down
i guess im just another hand me out

-NAVY-
im vacant, i stare blank, at the floor
theres nothing left, to mourn

-sleepwater-
im just not ur agony
you can lay me down, peacefully
I'm just, not ur agony


I Hear Screams In The Distance ft. hiraeth & sleepwater (prod. uforia)

produced by: @prodneverforever

lyrics, mixing and mastering done by me 

and my eyes 
they burn white
where u been
all this time, i
i’m lonely
on white wine 
u won’t win
this time, i 
i won’t leave
and that’s fine 
and codeine leaks 
from my eyes, i
won’t breathe 
not this time, 
so get up
and don’t cry, boy
x2

burnwhite.

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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

hope you guys enjoy this one <3 each track i put out means a whole lot 2 me, 
so tysm for taking the time out of your day to listen

prod. by @sorrow_bringer 🖤
cover art done by a friend

(got me asking my lungs)
("can you cave in?")
(in need of a reason for clearing my head)

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

heart's beating, now i'm way heated
took off and ran on my own
asking my past demons, "did i really mean it?"
was i in control of my soul?
now i gotta wait. 
i know what i am; shit wasn't great
so why do i stand?
never complained; wished that i did
they'll get what they get
i'm not giving in

they all wanna see me fall, hear me bawl
i know i shouldn't have set foot
into the cage that i'm in
the person i was; he told me to stay where i must
oh the ground personifies
we walk all about it and never bat an eye

let me loathe (let me loathe)
swear i'm changing..
this feeling i know
lessened the seasons

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

subside [prod. sorrow bringer]

needed this to change
produced by @pekarot_161
featuring @lilskeleskrrt
mixed by nine to 5 and skele

lyrics:
nine to 5:
Now I'm left in the cold
Stary late night when my breathe turns to smoke
Living in the past when the rest still unfolds
I just wanna go back when my neck wasn't choked I'm
Stuck inside my mind when I'm passing
Highway signs eastbound we were laughing
Now I'm left with nothing but these memories flashing
gone within a moment and I don't know what happened

I can't get away, yeah theres nowhere I can run to
We've been everywhere, I can't begin to forget you
Your shadows everywhere around me even inside my room
Staring at the wall wishing that I was beside you

Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

skele:
I've been a part of you for too long
And I still write the same songs
I'll wait here forever love until I figure out what you want
It's never enough
Just break me down
And I'll stay put til you're done
I fucking gave you my heart

both:
I fucking gave you my all

nine to 5:
But it was never enough

nine to 5 and skele:
Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change
Still needed this to change
Yeah you still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change

needed this to change ft. skele (prod. pekarot)

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall 

go to school and come back everyday
n i haven't spoke to u in days 
shit idrk what to say
but i promise you that everything is still the same 

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall

imma crack my skull on the floor (ten50)

produced by hero

completely non profit

lyrics

when her life is done n the credits roll on this movie screen
I was only ever credited as victim number 3
when the lights turn on n they all rush to take their leave
but I'm still here laying dead in this cinema seat
in truth I've been dead since 17
none of my feelings r free
they're kept under lock n key
no one needs to know about the pain I hold
heaven knows I've tried but I can't let this go

the lump I feel inside my chest when I'm all alone
tell me why u still the only thing that feels like fucking home
my eyes grow heavy as my heartbeat slows
I was promised death but still my soul refuse to go
oh no
just count it
take my brain n slut it out
take my drink n pour it out
take my dart n snuff it out
make me someone u won't doubt
that shit don't work I'm fucking out
what are plans they just fall out
n what r friends? just tell me now

what is love I think I've figured out
it's just a tool that she gon use for clout
she's an angel with a filthy mouth
and I'm a sinner with a Gucci pouch 
inside my pocket gotta quarter ounce
I got a smoke screen blowing out my house
so fuck me up and leave me to the hounds
I'm just a sinner with a Gucci pouch

I coughed up both lungs up on out of my chest
I've been here before so I'm not scared of my death
fell for the devil's whore n I can taste his breath
so what u try me for, when I've got nothing left?
but I have read these books
and I have read these texts
I've seen it all before
I know what happens next
I watch her lock that door
her lips run down his neck
u could've waited more
I guess that I digress 

n what is love I think I figured out
it's just a tool that she gon use for clout
she's an angel with a filthy mouth
n I'm a sinner with a Gucci pouch
inside my pocket got a quarter ounce 
I got a smoke screen blowing out my house
so fuck me up and leave me to the hounds
I'm just a sinner with a Gucci pouch


digress, i guess (hero)

(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

digress, i guess (hero)

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