featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

1st @user-411557229 | 2nd @emptychest | 3rd @kuriositylol | 4th @northshoremusic
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Losing You w/ The North Shore, emptychest, kuriosity & residential. [+ Jolst]

lyrics:

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

I could do it all perfect and they’d still need more
I already quit once I won’t hide no more
Its lonely in ur head and I need the bottle to survive here
There are no fucking breaks I chose the path and ill die here
Oh u miss my pain well here’s the pain now clap
This shit feel the same as on that bridge when I had snapped
Eat ur fucking food u better enjoy it it cost souls
Im sitting in my room at 2am just drunk and stoned
Of course were all a bit fucked up that’s how it goes
But my job relies on being fucked up to go gold
The stress destroys me quickly but they love it so I stomach it
Abusing all this shit inside my body im in love with it
I cant hold relationships cause my body doesn’t work right
She touch me on my chest her hand went numb and she got frostbite
I been broken forever so u can treat me how u deem right
Vomit on my sweater Im throwing up because it feel nice
Its only right I give my wounds time to heal yea yea
I thought 150mg of Zoloft pills might help
I was wrong I was cursed from my birth I swear
This aint shit to fix with cigarettes and dyeing hair
I been out my mind since I got back on my meds
I cant even fuck or feel emotions in my head
I feel so alone inside this home that I built
This shit been my life every day it dont feel real

Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love
Even once great men die of broken hearts
And the worst part is im not that great at all
I could take these welts but they’ll chop it off
If its always like this what’s the point in love

i start to rust (eric godlow)

may 23 2021
official file <3 found by me
lyrics: 

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

This pressure in my chest tend to push too hard
Its always fun and games until it goes too far
I kiss her on the neck inside her beat up car
I love u to death no matter where we are
She is a fallen angel
I think she lost her halo
Could u tell me ur name again
Ill keep it confidential
I could see the patterns in her lies I work it out
It won’t work the second time around
Guide me to good give me a pill to take
Deep in the rut she gifted me sudden faith
Feather toes I didn’t wanna go im sorry
I promise ill be back in the morning

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

Talk is cheap but ive no more funding
The waves crash I cant believe I aint seen it coming
Break my bones and ill repair them and ill come back
Id let it happen again if u would like that
Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down
This pressure in my chest tend to push too hard
Its always fun and games until it goes too far
I kiss her on the neck inside her beat up car
I love u to death no matter where we are

Wipe the tears from ur face
Cause Baby we’ll be ok
Its been so long since we parted ways
Now Im attached to the pain
Better off I could see ur better off
But Stay with me and help me soak this rubbing alcohol
Sure we all die in the end but were alive right now
She told me its little things I do that always break her down

rubbing alcohol (splashgvng x ayoleybeats)

the sewerperson sample is used from his unreleased song "that's my brother jay pt2" if fr some reason u want me to remove it dm me

lyrics

she not coming back 
so i’m not outta shit to make 
listening to my emotions keep going back to that mistake
i been lookin at shit different turn that love in to hate
i been feelin summin special
in the blunt in the drank

woah woah
havent got a text but im still scrolling thru my phone
i got love for all my bros inside this smoke filled home
i don wanna let u know u don wanna let u me go
on the porch for 20 mins i bring it up now its too cold?

i know im in the wrong
u know u are too
way too fucking long
to get to the truth

i cant help it why im wasting all this time with u
she said y u blue she said y u blue 
pulling over hoodie coz i dont wanna talk it thru
i just want a view
then wanna hit the stu
cookin up some shit but ive been skipping on the food
hiding in the dark so long losing sight on truth
i dont know how long i can do this im tired of shit sifting thru
know ive got bars forever, living in the …

now u just staring at ur phone
i can feel it in my bones
just one tap ill turn to stone

i guess that i dont need ur help yeh i can do this by my self now
but that not how the world yeh u destined just to fail
should call them all jay coz they got me when i need some help
but this a me thing oh dont u see just let it be if i dont make it just let me melt

they all got my head turned back i cant let em
get inside my head this for their safety i could end em
i dont need to change my ways, its for the better

she just crazy for the words just offend them
i dont wanna hear a whistle walk away when i could end em 
i would rather end my fuckin world b4 i dead em
crossing over paths but they dont see that theirs a dead end

be alright reference

sewerperson sample

bro 2 (jabarionthebeat)

thanks for the love, always
i'm back at it with the sad bangers
follow my friends @oriaoffically and @sewerperson

2late feat. sewerperson & oriaofficially (sorrow bringer)

lyrics
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gon be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

bitch dont match my energy
she bumping all my melodies
im 17 with felonies
these drugs gon take my memory
they want something that I'll never be
wish she love me like ecstasy
used to look at me so breathlessly 
but her mind full of jealousy

all these fucking drugs that I abuse
cause I don't got nothing better to do
hope you know that I'm in love with you
I'm just scared these drugs will get you too

sendflowrs
I've been thinking about you with a cup poured
if this shit gon kill me why it feel so good for
these feelings must be what they make the mud for
ion know I promise I'm ok girl why'd you run for?
if you really being honest why you hide it?
n they say it gets better, I don't mind it
2019 I lost my heart cant find it
ion know if I'll love again I guess I'll find out soon

residential
I've been thinking about you with a blunt rolled
none of these drugs can take away my sorrow
I don't know if I'm gonna be here tomorrow
so fill my lungs with smoke until my thoughts go
theres no denying that you something special
but you aint give a fuck about my mental
now I'm driving hoes through residentials
sipping purple sprite in foreign rentals

2019 w sendflowrs (nevrfall x branwen)

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
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long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

purple magic in the cup I see
when the fuck you gonna leave me be
only hit my phone for thc
but you a lick so count your money g

started to express my feelings told me tough luck
look at me in my eyes before I drive drunk
hitting me up to party, but I'm still slumped
telling me I'm too mean but I give no fucks

thought she was yo bestie
till she try and text me 
heartbreak in a Bentley

codeine on my white tee
heart so cold my friends leave
cocaine till my nosebleed x2

its 3 in the morning and I pour up twice
but nobody like me when I'm getting high
so fuck everybody that keep me alive
I'm cutting the ties
you aint even try

I stay making money and picking my fights
pull out the purple and pack that shit
I play with the paper and let that shit fly
word from the wise
set shit aside
(set that bullshit aside)

purple magic in the cup I see
when the fuck you gonna leave me be
only hit my phone for thc
but you a lick so count your..

prpl magic (meltycanon)

produced by neverforever

cty_gazing_ inspired by city gazing by hero

completely non profit 

lyrics

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

so c'mon
u get a free throw
i'ma break ur ribs with my feet tho
u can keep those
knocking out some teeth like t bone
12 zero

switch just flipped 
so I drink and drink and drink
Molly got boys fucked 
why do I not feel a thing
sitting in a gutter 
feels like where I'm meant to be
lemme take a second 
i just need some time to think

sunrise
that's home time
well past dawn when I close eyes
my surprise 
pretty sure that i hate going outside
like oh my i can be a hypocrite ik
dont we all sometimes 
like don't lie
u don't see the grey sky

that's all i see
in u and me

all the bad all the hurt
i guess i just see the worst
fuck urself
fuck the world 
save it? nah it don't deserve
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as dirt
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as -

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

fuck like
i really woke up?
fall asleep face up i wanna choke up
fully gave up
yeah
zoning out this bitch while smoking with the raindrops

this ain't life i'm stuck in my own self made hell
hate the world almost half i do myself
i just suck but u should know i'm something else
self aware i take the devil's side in hell

cough up sludge I force it back into my gut
taste just fine it's like a stronger form of bud
bought an h and in a week I'm out of bud
sleeves r stained, recycler bong that's full of muck

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well it gets lonely 
city gazing from the satellites
all alone here 
in this spaceship and the latern light 
well ive got oxygen 
enough to maybe make the night
but ive accepted that this place 
is where I'll come to die

the view ive got from in my coffin
well it's really nice
if I jumped what'd be the chance 
I'd land in powerlines
a mangled body's not the image 
that I'd hope ud find
a lump of coal that u can bury 
is worth the piece of mind

maybe best to turn this ship 
and gun for saturn's rings
I'd meet an alien 
and tell him how I really think
this world is ugly 
if u took the time to sink it in
people selfish and absorbed 
inside of useless shit

ive got a problem
ive forgotten how to let u in
my vision fades 
alarms are blaring, I hit jettison 
a fire show ignites
somewhere above the midnight sky
I hear just silence
void is pretty fond of eating life

city gazing, with my homies:
foreign parasites 
a formed allience 
between the dead and all this moldy life
I pull the plug on sos
command don't give a shite
I found ignition in the pain
that came from u and I

dmg_ctrl_/cty_gazing_ (neverforever)

i hate myself for loving you ft sewerperson (prod. vaegud)

(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

dmg_ctrl_/cty_gazing_ (neverforever)

betweentheveinsandi

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