chapter i

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes 
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

makes u numb
hit my head on rocks below
blood
blood fills the water oh my god
god cannot save us
oh we're fucked
fucked
sleeping on this bed of rocks
shadows of the trees
they dance on ice thats 3, 4 inches thick
is that lantern light
i ask her body what the fuck she thinks
this our savior 
and i hope he drags us up or else we'll sink
please just save her
i do not care if im on the brink

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

it makes u drown

drowning at the bottom of a frozen lake (ztope)

track 3 
n i’ve never felt as low as this
when u told me that u hate me
i died a bit 
now the sun feels so cold on my skin 
and nothing tastes the same, again, you win

 
yea and i cry every night when i go to sleep
i don’t wanna fight anymore please just bury me 
you’re the one i like
despite what u said to me 
i’m high as a kite 
off this mud
keep on tellin me 
that i should get help 
but u never been a friend 
so please don’t sit and cry
fake tears on my bed 
u the one that tried to help me til the end
why the fuck i need a therapist when i got u instead?

*inhale*
*exhale*
it’s as easy as that
*inhale*
*exhale*

just breathe it’s as easy at that 
as easy as that 
so i just breathe when this bitch get me mad
grayfox the king i be here til i’m dead 
had a slow year think my shit about to fall off
but i’m still here with this blood on my hands
shoutout to tropic, as easy as that
shoutout to loveless, as easy as that 
run thru the street when i’m off of my meds
but i’ll still be right here while these boys follow trends
3 playlists 1 week i’m scheming again 
people can hate but ain’t bled what i bled 
i’ve seen the fall when ur stood on the edge cus i’ve seen my own mum in a hospital bed
i’m way too high so go argue with them
got my whole life in the palm of my hands
make a no hook and then go right to bed
and u can sendflowrs when im laid to rest

just breathe, it’s as easy as that (mackk)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

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Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

music video
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https://youtu.be/w9Jfkvx8xbY
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prod. beamerboy
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lyrics_
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hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold, on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when i sit, and think about my future, always running free

death was creeping on to me
in my mind,, i could never say what's right
i keep pushing on the knife, let me be, let me breath
disassociate with me
climbing high, cause i cant see
where am i suppose  , to be
hate just keeps waiting, on me

hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when I sit, and think about my future, always running free

you were pushing on to me
always sexualizing me
always mess a making me
just come decimate me please

patient 23

【﻿ｉｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ　ｗｏｎ＇ｔ　ｓｅｌｌ，　ｋｅｅｐ　ｏｎ　ｂａｒｇａｉｎｉｎｇ．】

thank you so much for listening.

prod. farber x @jang0x
(additional piano implemented by me)

another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

i cannot leave when the ground has been holding me
weep and repeat, cause the cycle has grown on me
you'll brush it off, "oh he's spittin some poetry"
but really i'm trying my best so you'll notice me
i ain't been up on my luck in a minute
it must be my fault that my health has diminished
but i'll fight my way through this shit to the finish
cause i'm all i got, and it's all i was given
i wish they saw what i see on the daily
but i no longer desire a saving
i've learnt a lot, but i still fuck it over (i always fuck it up)
birds feeding out of my chest while i smolder

i watch them fly away
my intestines in their veins
i'm in an empty space
in a stagnant state

this moment's passing me by
but just whose fault is it this time?
with wings made of sludge
blue is more than just the color it's made out to be
what chilled lips to cave into the temptation of frost
if the truth won't sell, keep on bargaining.
having the upper-hand doesn't determine how many fingers it's broken
but you can assume a lot, right?..
RIGHT?
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another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

with wings to fly [prod. farber x jang0]

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

prod by caves 


click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it 

i know where you’ve been 
know where you set off 
i know where you get on the bus
and you get off 
she say that i’m crazy 
she don’t know the half of it 
my vision blurry
i don’t know what’s happening

she took my hands
into hers
told me “everything will be okay 
just stay right there”
i got two cuts 
on my face 
she looks scared 
but i promise i would never hurt you
baby i swear … 

you thought you got away,
i’m afraid it’s bad luck 
you just wanna drink alone 
and chill inside the bathtub 
already know she keep a key under the mat, tucked 
hope that you didn’t think that you would get away with that, love .. 
6 months have passed 
since we were matched up 
thought that you could play me, 
block my number and get gassed up 
now i’m climbing up your stairs and i’ve got bad blood
wonder if you’ll recognise my face under this mask, love 

she saw me in the mirror, frozen. 
“don’t try to run baby it’s over
i wrote you everyday for months” 
i was crying as i told her
“now i gotta do something i hate, girl yeah you know i cant control it” 
she tried to scream and shut the door,
but back in pinewood, soul was stolen

“i’ll call the cops” i said “what for” 
i just want a conversation, open up the door 
i see your heart drop on the floor 
if i can’t have you no one can, i couldn’t ask for more 

click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it

bad luck (caves)

<33 luv yall w/ all my heart :) tysm for 30K on nites !!!

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

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dead (heyylotus & warheart)

new cover w the brother @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @nevrfall
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original by @sewerperson:
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson/lrt-nevrfall
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hope u enjoy <3

LR7 w/ betweentheveinsandi (cover) [nevrfall]

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

prod. project luna (s/o them<33 amazing prod)

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

drive slow, driving for eternity 
die so, taking time to try n breathe
sidenote, no sleep n  im goin geek
eyes closed, all i see is u n me 

craving for sum remedy 
or something to help w helping me
listen to the melody im 
really about to take my leave
speaking with all the honesty 
nothing could really fw me 
more than seeing you
breaking what's left inside of this shell of me

this life it was forced upon me
just know that i didn’t ask for any of this
the candle light burns dim and slowly
now i must go
before i start to fall to pieces

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

let me rot away.~

the haunting (ft. casperrr & epitomeoffailure)

(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

drowning at the bottom of a frozen lake (ztope)

betweentheveinsandi

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