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lyrics:

I try to pick the pieces up like I used to be able to.
I needa stop givin a fuck and honestly u do too
bc its pointless
this never ending fucking conflict its like poison to us
its killin us both and I cant fuckin wait to change
and face it on my own 
but u gon stay the same?
okay.. i guess I'm back alone

when my world turn grey 
I look for some answers 
and all that they say is 
come home

babe are u serious 
we cant hold a convo thats serious…
so distant 

what if I wake up and everyone hates well maybe they already do
cant help but tread past feelings I detached I feel a ghost sometimes 

“do u wanna talk about it?”
they treat me like bitch so I kinda highly doubt it.
I hope that all my brothers and girl dont flake cus im rly kinda fucked up and I cant find my place in this 

ghosttown 
I wish woulda knew what I know now
goin down
the spiral that im used to I know now

u told me u want me to stay away 
well maybe I will u 
cut my lips

cut my lips

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cut my lips.

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I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy babe they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

is this true love 
gonna throw up
if u repeat that phrase
those 3 words make me go numb 
need to get up
been laying here all month
and this weight it holds me down
but the weed help me get up 

and thats ur man, is it?
hes kinda handsome,
well compared to me ur a muhfuckin damsel
think I got 2 greedy follow bread like im Hansel 
I fuckin hate this place and ur friends I cant stand
i can’t stand em 
x2

I need to call her again and get my head straight,
scrape my face on pavement when she drag me cus im dead weight,
I can smoke a pound easy lil bitch they call me sensei 
I dont post on gram, hate my face and thats on everything, everything 
x2

dead weight (taurs x jolst)

je te tieandrai dans mon coeur jusqu'à ce que je puisse te tenir dans mes bras.

lyrics:

shiki
I see why you left, this is awful
I don't wanna die anymore, I just want you
Kiss me while I'm dying inside of this bottle
Fall in love with strangers, now my heart is a hostel

Left my love on the east coast
But I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone, no
And you can text me good morning, but we're in different time zones
And I know that you don't care like I do
I'll find another one just like you
I'll find a new one, call her your name
Black my eyes and paint my face a new shade of grey
I ran away, in East LA where none of my love can get in the way
And baby, I don't think that you could save me
But thank you for trying

I hope you don't know it's about you when you hear this
But I knew you'd listen, only reason I wrote this
And I would bleed for you if I thought you would notice

I'm too scared to dream since I saw you
I told you I would move to New York and write a novel
But I'm still in my mom's house
The one that you warned me about
The one you said was haunted
I'm nauseous, I can't stop heaving
Who would want this? I'm still bleeding
Hide my ribs like, yeah I'm eating
Come save me, this room is freezing

skele:
I know why you left, this is terrible
As I was writing this, I wanted to let you know
It's getting really hard to let you go
I wanted five more minutes baby, just so I could hear you talk
Cuz everything I knew just fucking fell apart
You never really cared, you just played the part
And now you're gone, it's all my fault

hostel w/ skele (love,matt x chris marek)

lyrics

if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
brick walls and a mattress on the basement floor
the worst part is i bet she didnt even think at all
think to call
think to care
would u even care
u got skeletons theyre hiding underneath the stairs
she got patience for everyone but me
im just stating facts
we wasnt meant to last

if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
and im just cold waiting for the sound
dont hmu if ur back in town

1000 miles from ur house thats up the mountains
we say our parts and the tears come like a fountain
broken hearts keep a list cus she been counting 
my head is sore could u try and keep it down
i been moving on
think im going strong
but the damage has been done
and it was fucking wrong
ay i put i on faith
u wont recognize my face
too much has fucking changed
and i dont look the same anymore

and if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
im just cold waiting for the sound
dont hmu if ur back in town

i dont look the same anymore (pekarot)

[+] if you want my heart you gotta steal that </3
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt + @steadysuffer * produced by @prodjolst *

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wanna go back

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wanna go back (feat. skele + steadysuffer)

needed this to change
produced by @pekarot_161
featuring @lilskeleskrrt
mixed by nine to 5 and skele

lyrics:
nine to 5:
Now I'm left in the cold
Stary late night when my breathe turns to smoke
Living in the past when the rest still unfolds
I just wanna go back when my neck wasn't choked I'm
Stuck inside my mind when I'm passing
Highway signs eastbound we were laughing
Now I'm left with nothing but these memories flashing
gone within a moment and I don't know what happened

I can't get away, yeah theres nowhere I can run to
We've been everywhere, I can't begin to forget you
Your shadows everywhere around me even inside my room
Staring at the wall wishing that I was beside you

Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

skele:
I've been a part of you for too long
And I still write the same songs
I'll wait here forever love until I figure out what you want
It's never enough
Just break me down
And I'll stay put til you're done
I fucking gave you my heart

both:
I fucking gave you my all

nine to 5:
But it was never enough

nine to 5 and skele:
Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change
Still needed this to change
Yeah you still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change

needed this to change ft. skele (prod. pekarot)

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
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long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

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i've been stalking you
can i be somebody new?
waiting on a text from you
but you would never get it thru your head
and my head, 
is killing me right now
while you were chilling with your friends
and you'd never fuck around
who do i trust?
probably you, but
i dont love
no 
not since kyra, and
not since kai
not since the boy across the world
world
the first one was a test run
and the second one he wanted none
if you want me you should've kept me
and i dont know why i didnt respond to you
and now i feel fucked up
i think i fucked up.
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up

if not, then rot.

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me 

u hurt me again
fuck all of ur reasons
ur fucked in the head 
alone in the end 
fuck ur fucking treason
ur fucked in the head 
i gave you all my love
when i had nothing left
u never gave it back
so aknowledge u fucked my path 

look, the seasons changing
sunny days but it's still raining 
the look u gave me
i always knew that u fucking hate me 
stop, with all the blaming 
if u shut up i'll simply take it
ur attitude is still the same and
i know that u won't change it	


i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me

i can't tell lies with this cup (vyle & rxhff)

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vocals, mix & master by wrentek

flame needa light my spliff
really miss my dawgs on nights like this
we were jus 16 started scheming 
i need big stars in the roof of my whip
need big stars wrapped inside of my spliff
heat wave ting how i fry these pricks
don’t smoke reggie, all u boys just fiend and
i stay with the pine, sugar free, i sip 

and u can get hit by the white boy quick
big tommy gun how i throw these fists
one left hand put u on ur knees and 
i don’t like violence but try my clique 
one hand drivin i don’t even whip
jack line bumpin he don’t even fish 
that’s triple 3 on the set and it’s 139
on my own i don’t need no bitch 
need no whip
need no bits 
bro got the corn, he aint eatin crisps 
bullseye the shot n he don’t even miss 
like OTN know who ur dealing with 
cus u can get hit with a big 4.5
not from me but from bro, that’s slime 
leave you with a hole in ur chest like shepard
soap mctavish how i throw this knife 
sittin on the shed, sippin lean i’m nice
“big crime lords” but u stealing bikes ?? 
30 year olds goin out on rides
hittin kids in school, 
u ain’t about that life 

so i’ll sit here now for a little bit
if you wanna swing 
just swing 
make a call and get gone
i don’t  wannatalk to civilians 
cus they ain’t about shit 
all this fuckin talkin is long
i don’t ride on opps 
just a little one two
beef on the estate 
grab a knife and get armed
all these broke boys 
sharing spliff and i 
don’t wanna have to expose 
what u really is on 

so slow ur role
watch the roads
look both ways before u shoot that pole
b town shit 
fuck ur road 
i don’t wanna 
see another yout 
turn cold 

pass me the flame needa light my spliff
really miss my dawgs on nights like this
we were jus 16 started scheming 
i need big stars in the roof of my whip
need big stars wrapped inside of my spliff
heat wave ting how i fry these pricks
don’t smoke reggie, all u boys just fiend and
i stay with the pine, sugar free, i sip 

and u can get hit by the white boy quick
big tommy gun how i throw these fists
one left hand put u on ur knees and 
i don’t like violence but try my clique 
one hand drivin i don’t even whip
jack line bumpin he don’t even fish 
that’s triple 3 on the set and it’s 139
on my own i don’t need no bitch

SOAP MACTAVISH

just a vent, very drunk rn 
shoutout my brother @jolst on the production



tell me baby does he write you songs? 
blood all on my pillow when i wake up shit is wrong
i been takin 30’s got me itchin i can’t stop 
every time i think i got a hit it start to flop
i wish that i never saw those numbers from the start 
try not to let it bug me but i can’t lie it hurt my heart
i spill my soul on the mic n go smoke a dart 
shoutout to big veins we just alike in that regard 

everybody write bout doin drugs, it’s ok
but u ain’t ever threw up in ur sleep it burn ur lungs
i been sippin lean for 4 days babe im havin fun, ay
feel my heart beatin in my chest i’m dying young
and words are powerful theyll kill u like a gun 
watch the shit u speak cus ur whole life it becomes
people love to talk their shit but watch em when i run
when i fly to USA im landin with a punch 

i got G.E.R.D
regurgitation ): 
might pop a 40
and float away and
can’t stand you phonies
so go away yea
got good friends round me
but they won’t stay, yea 
and i’m used to that 
always been the same 
since a small boy i been
always filled with hate 
but i love my momma 
and i love my dad :)
and i’m thankful daily
for the shit i have 

maybe life is okay
maybe it’s not that bad 
i got someone who loves me
can’t argue with that <3 
i still get so fucked up
til i can’t call a cab 
i been tryna love myself 
but i don’t love me back 
i still wake everyday 
with shit on my shoulders i’m a heavyweight
get away
from all the negative things i always say 
fill the page
with shit i would think but i would never say
care+ in my drink 
but i been tryna get in better shape 

i can’t even think yea 
baby i’m just sitting here recording with a drink yea 
shoutout to the gang 
that’s double L all on my krink yeah 
shoutout to the goat jolst 
can’t wait till we link yeah <3 (love u bro) 

n i still wear a hoodie 
even when it’s hot
pull it over my face
so u can’t see me rot
baby take your hood down
girl i’m self conscious
everybody talkin money $$$
don’t know what a job is 

i guess this is what they call 
a r- release 
i just love you all so much 
that i can’t even speak
i feel fuckin worthless
but you’re all helping me
this one for the soundcloud
ima go to sleep … 

(love u all bro i get a lil soppy when i am drunk sorry )

maybe its not that bad (jolst)

(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

i dont look the same anymore (pekarot)

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