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I hope u been well
i hope u eat well
I think I got myself addicted 
to that tree smell
I know u mean well
But I don't need help
I find myself inside this drink
I feel my heart swell 

I'm back on my shit back on the drink
Turn up these cups while I'm lighting up blunts
And I'm all in my job all with the gang
No need to rob either way we get paid
It's something do, blow smoke till I'm blue
And if I've got this time then I'll spend it with u
It's all the time now
i spend it with all the lights out

back on my own i been ready to go
life in the gutter’ll make u miss home
i know i need u
but honey i’ll never admit to
memory shorter whenever i smoke
this isnt healthy oh baby i know
i cant ever leave u
but you’ll probably tell me i need to

but i dont wanna wanna
i been tryin rly hard
n i dont wanna wanna
its gettin harder every day
n i dont wanna wanna
yea u can ask if im ok
i hope im gna b
thats what i wanna b

lover lover
uve always had a knack for placing blame on
others 
others those eyes are shining and shes quite the up and comer
comer
why she always tryna fight its such a bother
bother
placing faith in others

i hope u eat well ft. decks (jolst)

nevrfall sequel 😈

shoutout @ztope for mix and mastr

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the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth, picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

ill wait, wait for u to call my name 
uh, but
we dont got long i wont be forming greys
hey,
this aint my fault i was saved 
had no choice, i was left in acid rain
 

no, now u jus stabbin me
dont, dont let me off easy
woah i cant tell if this a dream 
mirror always fogs when i think i know what i see

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 

pulled on strings oh im more than aware
oh im not lost i just reak of despair

baby its not u i swear 
damage in my own repair
this not what i choose to wear
its all thats left when ur not here
may be safe but scared 
when i hurt i evolve my dear
painting pictures all alone there’s nothing more i fear

the pallets warm so i cant call it art
ripping teeth while picking skin leaves a mark
liquor pours, while our eyes at th stars 
its not much but i call it a start 

paying fees to the dark and unstable
sparks flare as the tags on the toes are unabaled
hearts warm but its taking its toll on the brain
step forward, im in need of updating

everythings gonna be ok

everythings gonna be ok (nevrfall)

produced by neverforever

completely non profit

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told her do not worry
trouble getting up in any way without a coffee
fuck it gimme tea, gimme chai inside a latte
pass the competition no Ferrari I'm Bugatti
summer ain't for me I like my coats with excess pockets

don't go minding me I like to blend in with the objects
from my corner read the room out like a blurb and all its contents
drunk and in the city streets I'm walking singing nonsense
since we were 17 I've never stopped to watch the comets 

ay

lately do not fuck with outings 
no I do not wanna party
everybody here draining
u can keep all of ur conversations 
think that I'd rather just talk to the table
it kinda get me 
it kinda wobbly n never just stable
throwing up on this instrumental
fractured words gonna border mental
I'm offline and she's temperamental
talking shit on her screen of metal
how u let twitter impact how ur head screwed
how u let people decide who can love u
lately I sit in my room
and I just smoke thru
I'm losing the will just to pull thru
but honest it's been good to see u

good to see u
can I get a preview
let me see the other side
and tell me was it peaceful 
come and see u?
I can barely speak dude
I vomit words onto a beat 
but conversations where I'm weak

where I'm weak
and so I weep

winter heat drops
all the leaves rot
my face will leak snot 
I'm like a tea pot
my heart will weep blood
it's filled with red muck
don't mind my weed cough
my lungs are black sludge

I got bad habits in my backpack
how u fuckin with a thumb tat
I got a razor blade and a bruised waist
I don't eat enough and that's my bad
too many fakes just chasing plays
u ain't ever blowing up and it's so sad
I'm not chasing fads I'm just born to rap
I ain't even wrote this down in my notepad

it's off the dome
kicking in the streets without a home
and I almost copped a charge but I came home
so lighten up there's not a lot of hope
and what u got is what u taking home

vomit (neverforever)

produced by neverforever

completely non profit

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i write all my songs on the weekends
shawty hmu say we can be friends
girl u know im good i dont friends
cus i write all my songs on the weekends
im too busy going off the deepend
im too busy working while u sleeping
i just fill my pockets up with cheese n
i make hella money while u dreaming

aint too many zeros in my bank account
but i feel like i been saving up a fair ammount
loaded up with scotch i tell em pour a stout
i need proper flavour when i wash it out
i need u to tell me what u thinkin bout
i cant hear these words this shit is too loud
always when im drunk u wanna fight it out
but listen to what i say girl hear me out

im just off in space dont wanna think about it
i been doing me n i have been for a while
still u pass the blame like someones keeping count
still id trade the world to see u smile once
still i sit alone and let the world drive by me
drunken in my room but swear ud see me smiling
u just do the same but i know in truth u fighting
our fates worked out the same and thats what got me smiling

n im a petty bitch
i dont seek revenge
but charma heavy shit
keep the loose lips stitched
im on a sunken ship
just know these words deserved
im still not over this
all my friends dismissed
go on n pack ur shit
i choose to sit inside my room alone and dwell on shit
hear me tapping out the cone before i let it rip
im only sober when im working so dont count on me

missive from the twilight observatory (neverforever)

produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

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so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

produced by caves.

metallic taste in my mouth
bloodshot eyes and im out
i dont know my route
i dont know my route
i dont know my route..
live, endeavor
☆
old news that i already know
pissed off and i cant get old
what do i have to say?
(could i ever?)
(could i ever?)
(one missed call)
(two missed calls)
☆
and who am i right now..?
MY BODYS TELLING ME 
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
SOMETHING
RIGHT NOW
"I NEED TO GET OUT, NEED TO GET AWAY"
to find contrast
in my life
or all this will be nothing
(nothing)
yeah, it'll be nothing.
☆
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
IM EITHER FIGHTING OR BREAKING
FOR ALL MY LIFE
I SCRAPE ANY HOPE
OFF MY BEDROOM FLOOR
and if i cannot find it,
I'LL LEAVE ANYWAY
☆
a hurricanes coming thru and
it kinda reminds me of you
kinda reminds me of you..
have you ever, have you ever,
been alone like that?
and all this time i finally need to matter

live, endeavor.

【﻿ｏｎｅ　ｄａｙ　ｔｈｅｙ＇ｌｌ　ｈｅａｒ　ｍｅ　ｏｕｔ】



prod. @jeweler737
thank you so much for listening.
thank you for being here.
x

i won't get this right
i never do
just another night,
where i think of you
and i know it's hard to cover all that spite
i do it really well, with a dulled knife
mom i'm sorry if you hear this
i never wanna speak up on how i'm really feeling
i know that you fear it; me leaving this planet
but i want to every moment
i've been caught in my own headlights
they're too blind to notice
turned to my own hand, in search of an answer
but all i receive are emotion enhancers
i've been down like forever
as far as i can possibly remember
(so dismembered)
i wouldn't wanna hurt an ant,
but i'm so selfish
i just can't help it
and i'm so sorry, i'm just not sober
here comes october
i'm getting older
just another disorder, that i didn't order
goodbye sweet child
i no longer can hold you
i don't even know you
here come's the morning
i'm one step closer
maybe i'll get an answer
but i don't have the energy to speak right now
(nor feel)
one day they'll hear me out.
oh,
we're among the earth, beneath the dirt
i feel it all, besides my worth
so all i have are these verbal words
i can't figure out if it's a bless or curse
oh what a mess i've made of me
i won't get past twenty-three
so here i am, still brittling
imagining all that i wanna be
will i ever be?

splitting hairs while the universe has it's back turnt.
a naive child leading oneself into great danger
letting greater danger bid on the outcome.
eyes creeping open ever so softly
are we in
are we...
how come?

fomalhaut [prod. jewelryboy]

don’t cry
it’s okay
she lies
to me 
i’m done, just trash
u threw away 
i’m lost 
at shore
a castaway 
i’m fine, with that 
if you just stay 

and i know we only talk when i’m smokin propane yea 
u gon make me go back to my old ways 
i wasn’t so shallow back in the old days yea
she only wanna talk when she off the cocaine 
people love to say my name but they won’t show face
i’m way past caring bout u 
broke the curse i’m okay 
i don’t show emotion got a poker face baby
i don’t think i’ll feel again but it’s ok 

i don’t wanna talk to you
what the fuck are we gon talk about 
cus every time i try it doesn’t leave my mouth 
i’m drowning here my love 
help me out 

and i know we only talk when i’m smokin propane yea 
u gon make me go back to my old ways 
i wasn’t so shallow back in the old days yea
she only wanna talk when she off the cocaine 
people love to say my name but they won’t show face
i’m way past caring bout u 
broke the curse i’m okay 
i don’t show emotion got a poker face baby
i don’t think i’ll feel again but it’s ok 

i beg 
i plead
but they 
just leave 
you usually keep the spirits away when ur round me but
ever since u left my love 
think they found me

poker/face (taurs + homesick)

【﻿ｎｕｍｂ　ｍｙ　ｔａｓｔｅ　ａｎｄ　ｆｅｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ】

thank you for listening. i really, really appreciate it.

produced by @prod_death 🖤
hope you enjoy.


walking with grace 
behind closed curtains
and i know that pain
finding out they're not the same
it's just not the same.

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

fuck that
i'm ripping the tape off of my face
but don't look at the paste please :(
i wake up and i'm already shaking
there's only so much i can take in
loss of dexterity causes corrosion
i missed every note that i needed the most
don't open their heart till' you've opened your own

the truth (i'm boutta fall through)
i guess you never really knew me (knew me)
that's why i never get through (give a fuck abt you)
it's connection we're losing (losing)
i'll reach my hands through the screen
till i see the spark's out
they're starin' at me; said
"you should be star-bound"
take in the scene
and don't you forget it
the ocean'll sink (sink)
just cause i let it
(let it)

is there even a deeper meaning?
i study her every pattern
i ache then break but they don't seem to take it as a heavy matter
and that's hefty ladder that i'm probably gonna climb forever
and if she goes i let her
and if she goes i let-

kay, i've opened the shades
i thought it was grace, i guess that it's hate
fool me once and take my change
no wonder why i feel the same
fool me twice; i'll start anew
my misfortune falls right back to you
the scent of colors fill my room
to numb my taste and feed me truth

(truth)(4x)
i don't know what does it mean to you..
what do i mean to you? (you-you)
what do i mean to you
you-you-you-you

i feel like i can touch hades
but the thought of you's the only thing that's kept me saving
from all the bloodshed
i take it all in
i let that deep breath
enter my skin
i haven't felt formaldehyde in a while
it's become so difficult to work up a smile
hit me back if i'm worth every mile
i used to believe what i wanted was peace
but when i open my mouth i feel like a mime

i feel like a mime (4x)
(i feel like a mime...)
(am i wasting my time?)

feed me truth [prod. death]

originally performed by sewerperson
produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics

she gets high 
every other night
and just cries
girl I'll be with u tonight
im en route
im near the drop off

every day I fuse into one this month
i can't keep control if the speed too much
triple up my fluid on my last good night
i can't even see my fingers front my face in these lights

everything's different than it had been before
unroll my backwoods and break my meteors
friends like this family I never knew before
life on this planet ain't felt this new before 

get by
she gets high
every other night
and just cries
girl I'll be with u tonight
im en route yeah
im around the block
yeah im near the drop off
really got me locked down
im ten down yeah
i cannot stand for this shame
im to proud
im locked up so I kick the door down
locked down
she really got me locked down
guess she know me too well

im bleeding im falling 
im tearing apart
past the andromeda 
im in the stars
one u look down 
on the earth from this far
u can see just how small 
of a person u are

u could stay girl it's cold, 
can u see the lightning?
i just talk then I leave
im not tryna slide in
i distract then I bleed
if she got me hitting
don't get me wrong
we all human
but in uninviting

tell me if I take too long
i just wanna turn u on
turn u on
rip thru the phone book
she grip me by the heart
plenty left me broken
but the way u do it
turns me on
why's this summer so long



locked_ down_ x turn_ u_ on_ (ztope)

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lyr1cs:

u couldn’t make it up
i couldn’t if i tried
n i been stayin up
i wanna make it by
if i could grant 1 wish
i’d be right by ur side
look at the positives
i swear to god i’ll try

when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

sun sets on the east coast when i’m
breaking away from pressure
mess with the sheets, don’t bother me
(its not like i have a choice)
digress, all the details piling up
tell me its not forever
test: all my patience, what the fuck?
(you know that you have a choice)

so when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but im keeping it steady
u know the pieces that prospered took years to finally be ready
(you know that you have a choice)
and when its time for me ima jump off that ledge
you know you don’t quite see till ur outta ur head
(you know that you have a choice)
i might be 0 for 3 but i’ll try if i’m able
i never saw the other side till i was turning the table
(you know that you have a choice)

i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night
i’ve been up all night

bird's eye [flesh]

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(mostly) songs i wrote about a girl i no longer know

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