[Verse]
Words tumble out like broken glass
Shards of meaning
They cut
deeply 
I try to hold them
But they slip on they slice
You dodge the truth
I bite my tongue 
ship wrecked but trying not to capsize this love

[Prechorus]
Why does every step we take
Feel like running in place

[Chorus]
Tug of war
We're pulling tight
Caught between the dark and light
Say you’re here
Then drift away
How do I believe that you’ll stay
Tug of war
It’s all we know
Love’s a game
But if left playing this way       then love between us will never be enough to believe in leaving us in a toxic endless cycle love forever in a endless battle ship wrecked and the tide it's pulling under 

[Verse 2]
Your eyes are storms
They crash rollback look at me and
They rollback feel that thunder roaring deeply inside feel that deliberate breathing a crash in your chest in ur heart the feeling of never fully trusting in me spins your mind in a insecurity storm makes you believe my love is lies but babe don't believe those wicked rhymes convincing u 
I’m a shipwrecked heart playing with your heart  never feeling my truth I love you (yes baby I love you)
Losing control now having to prove to the man I love that he's the only one made for me his arms are the only ones strong enough to hold me all the man I want You say the words yet u decieve me all while 
pretending to believe me But ur words  they feel cold A story left untold could be felt why can't you feel my love deeply within you why must we always gotta question this love between us can't you feel what I feel pulsing electric volt deep in your soul 

[Prechorus]
Why does every move we make
Feel like bending till we break

[Chorus]
Tug of war
We're pulling tight
Caught between the dark and the light
Say you’re here here to stay
Then quietly drift further  away
How do I believe you when you say you wanna stay but your words lack love n honesty 
This Tug of war (exhausting)
It’s the only game we ever play
Love’s not a game but we keep on playing (we keep playing keep playing) like it's a game
But it will not ever grow (no never gonna grow) because of the back and forth you tug I pull (u tug and I will pull) this love is ship wrecked this love is lost at sea (and I feel you more and more ur ha--ating of mee) Noo noo no baby please don't abandon me this love is shipwrecked  (please don't leave me in your insecurity storm) don't leave me alone baby please don't trip(U R All I Want believe when I'm telling you this) this shipwrecked love feels like war you tug and I pull u tug and I pull is it ever gonna be more then an endless cycle can't we just start a new cause I don't wanna lose you

shipwrecked.mp3

[Verse]
Three hundred down on the power this month
You’re out here spinning tales
Throwing junk
stealing 100 bucks got my brother thinking I’m a hundred in the red
While you’re pocketing cash
Enough said
miss shady how in the hell do you sleep knowing the fucked up shit you did and keep doing miss shady bout to learn how if you keep this fucked shit up exactly what it feels like once I cut tyes from you from your cruelty from you wicked hate I'd call you mom but it leaves a bad taste in my mouth when I do so miss shady matches the lady you turned out to be wish I knew the real you before I took all the back lash defending u to my step mom if only I had known your exactly like her one thing I know is my dad has a type and that type hates my fucking guts

[Prechorus]
Why you twist
Why you spin
This game you play
Nobody wins

[Chorus]
I ain’t shady
I pay my dues
You’re the one playing games
Bending the rules
I ain’t shady
Don’t twist the truth
I’m calling it out
I’m so fucking done with you you have done nothing but prove I waisted so many days and all I've given up for you when will it ever be enough ma when will miss shady ever stop making me out to be the one whose fucked up

[Verse 2]
You talk in circles
Leave me dazed got my brother looking at me like I’m crazed
But I paid my share
The whole damn stack
And now I’m here to take my power back I'm sick of you always setting me up so that your lies and twisted truths paint me out to be a lousy mom and a lousy daughter yet those titles have always fitted you best had me call my Aunty to ask to borrow money I'll never forget this betrayal it cut deep I said mom I'll make that call but before I do. do you promise when she calls to check if I'm  asking for you do you promise to back me up you said that you would set next to me while I made that call didn't realize you were setting me up you told her I was lying just trying to steal her money that was the lowest you ever sunk  I felt that blow that's the one I can't forget the blow that hurt the most painted me out to be a thief when my integrity meant the world to me and your sorry hateful ass went and ruined my image to my entire family well guess what miss shady imma make this song to call you out for all the shady shit you have been doing almost couldn't believe you believe you have done something special to earn the title mom ur not a mom just a jealous person I wish I never known 

[Bridge]
You’re on a mission
Breaking trust
Counting pennies
Stirring dust
But this story’s done
It’s getting old
The truth is out
Let the record hold
miss shady wasn't ever. fair miss shady fried my fucking  hair on purpose cause she was jealous I could never do the shit miss shady does to me it's like she's my worst high school enemy use to cut me deeply now I'll cut the tyes for good move so far away from you miss shady ur bout to lose the only daughter you ever had this thought use to hurt me now I feel nothing if I have tears in my eyes don't confuse them with me feeling at all bad for the future were I don't know you that thought alone brings me joy no longer feel the pit in my stomach when I say that out loud miss shady I'm pretty sure that I've finally detached from my love for you detached from every painful memory made with you your hate for me has taught me how strong I truly am and reminded me it's my choice to cut tyes for my own damn good one day someone will bring me up ask you where I am and just before you lie try and make me out to be at fault I hope ur eyes tear up because you realize how losing me was always ur fault miss shady can't say I'll miss you don't have a reason too so goodbye miss shady miss shady I hope it hurts
[Chorus]
I ain’t shady
I pay my dues
You’re the one playing games miss shady always
Bending the rules
I ain’t shady
Don’t twist the truth
I’m calling it out ma I've finally had enough and now I'm finally
so fucking  done with you

miss shady edited.mp3

I thought I didn't have anything else to say to u 
I thought we were in love 
turns out I was just an appetiser until the type of girl you wanted came around (I finally understand)
nothing I ever do is ever enough nothing u say holds any truth the love that we made was only a bluff but I no longer wanna play these stupid love games no no I just wish u wouldn't keep putting me through pain
was it ever true all the words you'd choose was any plan u made involving us ever gonna come true now I really truly see you can't hide behind the mask now that it slipped off I guess I should be glad it's over cause at least now I can call your bluff I don't hold a grudge all the waisted time will now be just memories of the past something I will lock inside a box someday throw them out cause they no longer have a purpose one thing I know I figured out is not to ever fully trust someone claiming to be in love so stop all your bullshit stop trying to keep me on your back burner I already know that what we had was never true I see past your bullshit silence I now know exactly what I need to do I got a I gotta I gotta but I don't wanna still I got a say goodbye to you
nothing I ever do is ever enough nothing u say holds any truth the love that we made was only a bluff but I no longer wanna play these stupid love games no no I just wish u wouldn't keep putting me through pain
 I don't hold a grudge all the waisted time will now be just memories of the past something I will lock inside a box someday throw them out cause they no longer have a purpose one thing I know I figured out is not to ever fully trust someone claiming to be in love so stop all your bullshit stop trying to keep me on your back burner I already know that what we had was never true I see past your bullshit silence I now know exactly what I need to do I got a I gotta I gotta but I don't wanna still I got a say goodbye to you

I gotta

Today I drew a picture of you ripped it out of my notebook declared I love you then set that pic on fire some will think I'm weird babe could you blame them cause even I have to admit that I don't know why I did this it was a great drawing of you but if you could figure out how much I obsess over you would you think that I'm not toxic (I think I'm toxic) so tell me what it is you find attractive is it the way I wear the skimpy clothes I wear or is it my weirdness I'm asking you because I still don't know why your still hanging around dear or why u still love me I know I'm crazy is that it baby is it cause u know deep down how I was made for you oh baby answer me why aren't you speaking oh yes It slipped my mind again why ur not speaking is cause I sowed ur mouth shut forgot that you departed and now ur corpse it wreaks 

Toxic

[Verse]
I don’t have to read your mind
To know exactly how you feel
Your silence cuts me deeper
Than words could ever heal

[Prechorus]
If this is all my fault
Then I’ll take the blame
I’ll wear it like a shadow
I’ll wear it like my name

[Chorus]
But the quiet between us is screaming so loud
It’s a wall
It’s a weight
It’s a suffocating cloud
I tried to fix me
But I broke us instead
Now the quiet it sits between us is all that’s left unsaid

[Verse 2]
If you could see my point of view
You’d know I did it to get over you
and the sadness your absence left I thought forgetting you would have been an easier thing to do I could outrun the pain
But it chased me until I fell

[Prechorus]
I don’t wanna lose you
Darling
But I fear I’m just too late
I’ll sit here in the quiet
With the echo of our fate

[Chorus]
But the quiet between us is screaming so loud
It’s a wall
It’s a weight
It’s a suffocating cloud
I tried to fix me
But I broke us instead
Now the quiet between us is all that’s left unsaid i don't have to read your mind to know exactly how you feel cause if we are being honest I felt the emptiness and if to you this is all my fault then I guess I'll take that guilt wear it on my sleeve if you could see from my point of view I did what I did to help get over you I don't wanna lose you darling I feel that I'm just to late so I'll sit in the quiet that sits between us hoping this isn't over but still accepting fate even if unseen I still feel your spirit sitting next to me I'd read the novel once but in my mind change the ending at least a million times I'm sorry if my choices killed what u felt for me this sorrow that your stuck in doesn't need words to explain it I feel that emptiness your filled with so I guess this is where we part

Where We Part

[Verse1] if you asked around about me it wouldn't take you long to adopt someone's reasons to hate me if you needed their reasons to hate  reasons to hate me like the rest 
then you weren't truly worth the time it would have taken to realize ur as ugly inside as their lies  they make up about me let those lies be ur battle cry (cry while you hate me it's ur loss ur loss) ( oh-well) if you needed a reason not to like me should've taken the time to get to know me 
I'd have given plenty (thanx for not waisting my time)
[Chorus] but here it goes grab a pen take down notes cause of my outlook on life my perceptions are truely mine and different than u haters think ur judges shame me try and down me always hang around me hate how I carry my light (so bright) I'll never walk in line don't dress like they do say I'm a different type of girl I like to flaunt everything I got I say if u got it better flaunt it cause who knows how long u got til it's gone if their starting why u care( if their talking just means u got what they dont)(Who Cares)
[Verse2] NO NO they say my clothes are too tight my dress is so short showing all of my thigh and I'm so outspoken when I'm higher than clouds louder than the guys  they judge and talk their shit but I'm still walking with my head held high never letting their talk bring me down so talk your shit I'll laugh at the rumors as if they're not about me (hehe haha) no baby sorry (but nothing ever gets me down)
[Chorus]come on gossip's a sin (but haters will keep on talking. always trying to bring me down) and it won't change how I carry my light no no I'll sta-ay bright yes my lights so bright
 I'm a self proclaimed weirdo different than everyone else and no I don't plan on ever changing I like me just how I am
[Bridge] I flirt so innocently I'm always changing atmospheres when  I enter a room all eyes are on me I never notice til someone's gotta point that shit out (I hate when it gets pointed out) it doesn't go to my head cause I don't live for the attention I beat to my drum no one else seems to hear it only drums for me my confident drum solute hating me for always having fun Yea yea I'm always having fun
[Verse3]so if you thrive on attention I'm sure you will die when I enter the room I know that those types hate me the most but I don't care I live lost in my own world so if you asked around about me needing a reason to dislike me should have just taken the time to get to know me you would have had your own reasons (but I guess thank u) I don't like waisting time on fake insecure small minds
[Outro]but if you made it to the end of this song I surely gave you plenty of your own reasons why if you're an insecure attention whore you will never get to know all the cool things about me like I'm an unconditionally loving friend til the end kind of girl and that's your loss your loss your loss would have been a true friend the only one in ur corner something youll never fully understand no u know nothing about too busy hating on me for shining my light bright so brightly authentically me you're just haters your always talking shit gossiping about me with those friends you could never trust truly 
it's your loss it it its your
your  loss...

Your Loss

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[Verse1]
it's all been said and sang everything in the world already been discovered and played
 it's time to rise Rise up out of the 3rd and in to the five yet so many left behind it's sad yes but this is what it is so raise your vibra-sion yea
[Chorus]
this is our life our world and we are all family so quit ur trippin/ slippin/ fallin/ down stop all your bitchin/ it's just life its about time you got use to the end of the world so stop stop trippin/slipping/sliding oh those painted lines won't trip u up  stop  ur whining it won't get you nowhere 
[Verse2]
everybody up in here be trippin/slippin/ fallin/slippin/ over painted lines lookin/ all around for someone to come up off of but it's just how it is is is so learn to shut up quit bitchin/
[Chorus]
i says quit your bitchin/you could be friends if you quit acting like a child can't you hear why won't you listen
[Bridge]
trippin/ slippin/ Fallin/ over painted lines askin/ trappin/ tryin/ to come up off someone that shit is gettin/ old get a new hussle stop stop robbing/running/being dusty u gonna keep bitchin/trippin/ yellin/ acting like your someone but we all see ur bluff not so strong once the curtains pulled hey look at how u don't know where ur at or nobody around you don't know any one around you so sit the fuck down dooown yo listen just chi-ill out your safe right here but only if u can stop pay attention
[Verse3]
so please stop bitchin/ trippin shut your mouth and listen it drives me up the walls everybody's caught up in li---ife not trying/ to pay the bills gotta pay the land lord but nobody seems to get it they not noticing just look around pay more attention to your surroundings how come nobody sees how fast the world's ending (ri---ight
[Chorus]
are they dumb everybody's stupid always whinnin/ bitchin/trippin/ stop shoutin we should care but not about money and yall keep trippin/slippin/ fallin/on them painted lines waisted time they still won't pay attention to all around them just hear me now and look at the natural disasters going/ down
[Outro]
it's time to wake up look at all the signs around you see it's gonna end in chaos it's time to elevate ur souls nowpay attention to the signs the water that's drowning some of our neighborsor the volcanos the earth needs are good intentions to fallow thru give a bit of ur attention so elevate ur on the verge of the endin I said    
it's time to wake up look at all the signs around you see it's gonna end in chaos it's time to elevate ur souls nowpay attention to the signs the water that's drowning some of our neighborsors and them scarey volcanos the earth needs are good intentions to fallow thru give all your good intentions to save our Earth so elevate ur souls ur all on the verge of the endin I said  elevate give ur highest intentions let's elevate ourselves take us all to a higher dimension give ur very best intentions that's ri---iighhhtT
```(i says iii)....
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I tried to beg but you just would not.stay 
no matter how much I cried it was you who chose goodbye was it for better or was it for her 
cause if we are separated then it really would not put you in the compromising posission 
I wanna believe but you chose to leave come to learn she disappeared a few days right after you and then you slipped up and now I know the truth and I know she was with you and I only want to hear the truth from you but I'll never get that part of you but I learned to play the fool so I'll bite my tongue and for you I'll carry on but just know I no longer think your cool forever I'll use you like the tool you choose to be I'll forgive you but I won't ever let you close 
you created distance and forever we will be apart I know more than I told and baby I'll bite my tongue I'll be your fool but just know that you will forever be my tool I'll always love you but I won't trust you cause you can't tell the truth but I know you love me so I'll play with yooouuu
I know the truth was she worth what she costed you I think not cause your here acting like you still love me but love doesn't stray not to fuck with junkie girls just cause we broke up doesn't make it right I'll slowly let go in my own tiiime I'll slowly let you go in my own tiiime 
I begged you not to leave and now I believe that you can't love me cause you chose to leave a fool for you I'll be until I'm ready to leave forever a tool you will be to me was she worth costing you me oh baby tell me so I can be set freeeeee

tool you will be

captivating knowledge

Verse]
Stayed away in my sin, in betrayal,
Eyes couldn't cut through my veil of denial.
Your pain pierced deep, a sword in my soul,
But I saw through your mask, I always knew whole.

[Prechorus]
Today I walked, no chains on my feet.
Found a new soul, where love feels complete.

[Chorus]
wrapped up in forever gold, eyes that see my fight loves my inner light
Said "I do," not for spite, but for what felt right.
Thought I loved you, but figured out your plan blind me with your love  bomb, but now that the smokes gone i an finally see through your fake love.

[Verse 2]
Your love was a flash, bright but fleeting,
Promises sweet, but the truth kept retreating.
This man chose me, from the moment we met,
Said "I love you," no lies, no regret.

[Bridge]
He saw the sorrow my heart used to hold,
Turned it to treasure, my pain into gold.
No more confusion, no more disguise,
I'm whole in his love, it’s truth, not surprise.

[Chorus]
wrapped up in forever gold, eyes that see my fight loves my inner light
Said "I do," not for spite, but for what felt right.
Thought I loved you, but figured out your plan blind me with your love  bomb, but now that the smokes gone i an finally see through your fake love.


forever gold

My name is Becky I'm a legend in my own mind a Master-Debator of my world aka a bitch apparently. I'm also an aspiring songwriter who just wants to put my music out there thanks also I have anothe4 arrest account I got locked out of its BexkyMari this is my other arrest account check me out there if u want 