prod. ria and billsburyjoeboi
^_^    fun song plez dance plez move 

intro 
i cant bring time back
we running all these mind laps
your love just slipped through my cracks
my city weighs on my back

hook 
im so damn fed up right now
im too damn high, can't bring me down
she off the liquor, 'bout to drown
she caused these problems i spin 'round
i give too much of my time to clowns
she mix all of my hopes with her crown (royal, the drink)
ain't no trick stopping me now
i'm not done, baby im just x2

verse
giving up
way better than everybody that you can trust
don't listen to your friends cause they talk too much
you shouldn't listen to him, you should listen to me, cause im all that you need
'cause im all that you want
you think drugs gon' fill the void in your heart? girl you so wrong
i'm just tryna show you every night that i am the one
but the night is still young 

hook

fed up! (ria + bbjb)

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5aH6JWfAkWLyEXEwIY3HYP?si=c9882776859943a1
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/trust

produced by roku
written by me
mix and master by me

thanks for sticking with me

///
drop dead
when i said
i'll be back though :)
spending all my days at a microphone
tell em it's all broke, like your old folk
don't lie
said you wna die
give me some time
i'm hurt all over
i'll make it right
in need of a clover
but there's none here to find
is it all a little too much?
my love,
you shouldn't have broke my trust

but who am i?
jus another average skinny guy
go live your life
i can't say i understand it think my brain is fried
oh you're not tht broken
infatuation
in love with the idea of no moderation
5 pints 'fore you lay down
my dear,
rough past make you wanna leave town

heart race like a hundred miles
my fate has been sewn a while
upset when they read the file
disgust, how is it so vile?

jus let it down softly
how could you done harm me?
faceless
sorry
scarred up
hardly
was it all at my fault?
tough luck
i'm done speaking to a wall

drop dead
when i said
i'll be back though
spending all my days at a microphone
tell em it's all broke, like your old folk
don't lie
said you wna die
give me some time
i'm hurt all over
i'll make it right
in need of a clover
but there's none here to find
is it all a little too much?
my love,
you shouldn't have broke my trust

repeat

trust

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/16aPg17al8DKBm8LyMn4eE?si=9f8e74ca0f344527
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/cd-feat-ry-2

guitar by othello
additional production by me and ryan
written and performed by me and ryan
with @rywrrd (show him love please)

i lied i'm sorry next one will be a summer tune <3
thank you for listening always :)

///
a toast,
play your cd
the music brings you peace
alone
so don't mind me
I had a stupid dream again

you thought you had from the start
I don't want have to break your heart
but it broke
and now that cd drowns in static
a sour note
I highly doubt it

your favourite song
your radio I turn it on
we fell in love in your shitty car
with static on your heart
screaming out our favourite part

I made a stupid decision
in my mind, clouded dumb inference
I gave it all that I had
but all I had was indifferent
I'd break my arms off to help you
if it meant that you would listen
I stare and talk to the wall
scratched disc had tarnished the image
I thought I loved you

cd w/ ry

produced by anh & pct

Lyrics:
One step forwards, two steps back
I've been trying to reach you, won't you call me back?
Know that it's important to you, but it don't mean much to me
Darling I wish you could see, I'm falling victim to these...

Petty thoughts, yea they eat me from the inside out
I'm distraught, won't tell you what I'm thinking about
Oh why, do I have to decide
If I could just lie n' throw it all to the side?

But I know, that don't lead to no good
I want it in the moment but I need to mature
Always comes back to bite, but I could use it tonight
It's out of sight out of mind, I still know that it ain't right

Always throw my dreams away, just to feel alright today
Put my heart up on display, don't wanna hear what people say
I feel it's too much for you
So baby what you wanna do?

Distraught

@kasologyy
@jades714

lyrics:
(jades)
don’t care don’t worry bout me
tryna count money not sheep in my sleep
ima bag getter til my fingers get weak
you bitches know better than to follow my lead
don’t care don’t worry bout me
tryna count money not sheep in my sleep
ima bag getter til my fingers get weak
you bitches know better than to follow my lead

(me)
i kill my brain
eyes roll back, takin novocaine
hit it one time, dont know her name
told you not to fall in love, oh what a shame

tell me, tell me
why the sudden interest?
you aint got no shot, but you puffin yo chest
show me what ur made of, try ur best
no time 2 talk with all this stress

told me a minute,
im reaching my limit
yeah i can feel us getting tense
but i wont fold under pressure
u know imma stand my ground
wont be pushin me around

(jades + me)
don’t care don’t worry bout me
tryna count money not sheep in my sleep
ima bag getter til my fingers get weak
you bitches know better than to follow my lead
don’t care don’t worry bout me
tryna count money not sheep in my sleep
ima bag getter til my fingers get weak
you bitches know better than to follow my lead

bag getter w/ jades

dispatcherrr | tepcu

Would you leave me if you had the chance?
I'm stuck on leaving you or crawling straight back to my ex
What the fuck's the point if you can't ever go confess?
I've lost all of my trust in you I know there's nothing left
I know there's nothing left

Would you leave me if you had the chance?
I'm stuck on leaving you or crawling straight back to my ex
What the fuck's the point if you can't ever go confess?
I've lost all of my trust in you I know there's nothing left
I know there's nothing left

Right there just when you need me
You always could've seen me
You took a chance with someone else
You know that sits beneath me

You swore that you could keep me
You said that you won't leave me
Right there just when you needed help
I wasn't out your reaching

If it was up to me then I would want to try again
(I would want to, yeah, I'd want to try again)
If it was up to me then you would never see the end
(You'd never see the, yeah, you'd never see the end)

Nothing works and nothing works again
We might go back to being friends
I can't go ahead and play pretend
Doing everything as you wish

Nothing works and nothing works again
Think I'm fine with us just being friends
I might go ahead and play pretend
Keeping you is my only final wish

Would you leave me if you had the chance?
I'm stuck on leaving you or crawling straight back to my ex
What the fuck's the point if you can't ever go confess?
I've lost all of my trust in you I know there's nothing left
I know there's nothing left

Would you leave me if you had the chance?
I'm stuck on leaving you or crawling straight back to my ex
What the fuck's the point if you can't ever go confess?
I've lost all of my trust in you I know there's nothing left
I know there's nothing left

confess

all plats :)

peak
https://soundcloud.com/mitsooya/swallowtail

[Refrain]
Yeah, I'm too fucked up
Babe, I'll admit it
I only miss you when I'm intoxicated
No, I can't help it, but can you help it?
So, what's your ETA? I need you to come through, I-

[Chorus]
Am in the backseat of a yellow cab
On my way back home
Oh, tell me why
Oh, tell me why you're not answering your phone

[Verse 1]
A swallowtail with clipped wings
My worst enemy is myself when I think
Now I'm crawling back to bed
Waking up to your text
Asking, "Do you really miss me?"

[Refrain]
Fucked up, babe, I'll admit it
I only miss you when I'm intoxicated
No, I can't help it, but can you help it?
So, what's your ETA? I need you to come through, I-

[Bridge]
No, I can't run, I can't run
Baby, I'm way too drunk for this (Uh-uh)
Oh, I can't run, I can't run
Baby, let's finish what we started (Uh-uh)

[Chorus]
I'm in the backseat of a yellow cab
On my way back home
Oh, tеll me why
Oh, tell me why you'rе not answering your phone
I-I'm I-in the backseat of a yellow cab
On my way back home
Oh, tell me why
Oh, tell me why you're not answering your phone

[Verse 2]
Sinasabi ko that, "I'm wanting more of you"
Don't know if that's the liquor talking
Whatchu' wanna' do?
Cigarette smoke taking over my view
But when I sober up, I'm wanting less of you
(Wanting less of you)

[Refrain]
Yeah, I'm too fucked up
Babe, I'll admit it
I only miss you when I'm intoxicated
No, I can't help it, but can you help it?
So, what's your ETA? I need you to come through, I-

[Chorus]
Am in the backseat of a yellow cab
On my way back home
Oh, tell me why
Oh, tell me why you're not answering your phone
I-I'm I-in the backseat of a yellow cab
On my way back home
Oh, tell me why
Oh, tell me why you're not answering your phone

mitsu - swallowtail (bex cover)

STAY ft.reiko (Prod.Doughboy)

learning to live again

MOONLIGHT

hiding from the truth (Remastered 2025)

low chance of finishing prolly srry
i got better stuff otw #2026


ma said don't fight it
she's tired of her son not opening up
can't bear the old silence
i shut the door behind me, go out for a walk
cause the rain gon fall either way love
and there's a couple hundred things left to say
came back home and i'm stuck in my old ways
wiping tears running down my own face

so rest your mind
it happens all the time
i'd give you all my life (to make sure you're alright)
i'll rip out my pride
and i'll rewrite those lines
i'd give you all my life (to make sure you're alright)

i love my mom basically is the osng

all my life

covers and covers and covers
#edgecore
#appleearbuds

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