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novembermisery

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dishonesty w/ starfall

produced, written, mixed by Bhertuy


lyrics:

Why do I keep failing at everything I do
It only takes one song for me to skip my way to June
Strived 1 thousand times, I'm so caught up on time
I force myself, it kills my health, but I still do it why
Let me leave this place or I will do it on my own
Sadly you think it's a phase till you see my tombstone
If I make it out alive I'll get to claim my throne
Everyone will cease their laughter when they've seen I've grown

I hold my tears in front of people that look up to me
I choke my fears in front of people that make fun of me
I wrote the book about how you should just enjoy the scene
I broke my sight into a fraction so I get to cheat
You got to think outside of the box
Put yourself in other people's thoughts
You're only guilty because you got caught
Get sentenced to hell to a place where you rot
Say that you treat everybody the same
But as soon as you're up you forget all their names
I try my best to hold on to my sane
But a bad day will change up the course of my pain

I keep failing at everything I do
It only takes one song for me to skip my way to June
Strived 1 thousand times, I'm so caught up on time
I force myself, it kills my health, but I still do it why

When you're sitting on your death bed will you satisfy
All your dreams and hopes that you had tried to push alive
Think about it if it's no then you're living a lie
You're just another sheep that lived another persons life

Just shut the fuck up if you don't understand the path that I'm paving for myself
I rather die knowing I tried than to cover up regrets
Fuckers like you will say they're happy knowing they're discontent
I crashed my car again
A side effect of zero friends
I said exactly what I meant
My heart is not made of cement

Just shut the fuck up if you don't understand the path that I'm paving for myself
I rather die knowing I tried than to cover up regrets
Fuckers like you will say they're happy knowing they're discontent
I crashed my car again
A side effect of zero friends
I said exactly what I meant
My heart is not made of cement

last year

sorry stacey

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i wiped my tears for you
nothing seems to matter when i’m next to u
you promised me you’d wait for me
so why am i
sitting in my bedroom
crying time to time
i know it’s not ur fault because

i’m sorry stacey could you give me one more chance
i can’t stand how other guys fuck with u whenever they can
though i know i won’t be here for long
i’ll stay here till i can’t uh
i’m sorry stacey could you give me one more chance

the other day
i said hi to u
and to my dismay
didn’t confess to u
i went out my way
and i said i’ll be here soon
and knowing i am
in a distant room

i hope it’s not too late to be transparent once again
not seven hi’s to byes just to continue off as friends
i care too much some times so i hold back until i can’t
the razor is my only friend that i can’t get it

off

with my head
with my head
uh

baby tell me why the xans don’t talk to me like u
is it something that i’m missing, cuz i’ll gladly fix it now
but at this moment i can’t figure it out

i wiped my tears for you
nothing seems to matter when i’m next to u
you promised me you’d wait for me
so why am i
sitting in my bedroom
crying time to time
i know it’s not ur fault because

i’m sorry stacey could you give me one more chance
i can’t stand how other guys fuck with u whenever they can
though i know i won’t be here for long
i’ll stay here till i can’t uh
i’m sorry stacey could you give me one more chance

sorry stacey

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Hate how this turned out
You’re still mad at me
It haunts me in my sleep
Fucked up my self esteem
You know none of us was right all along
So there’s no point telling lies
I hope you can make a song out of this when you degrade my life
Don’t get how you’re never past things I left behind for heights
You bring me back to places I left long ago behind

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Even say I like me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
Now I’m very fucking sure that you defo despise me
In another universe I know that you’re my wifey
Do you remember why I left ur house that night when I said bye to you
Do you remember how I felt when you called me and told me that I hate you
Do you remember how I felt when I took care the 3am of you who’s drunk as fuck
Do you remember how I felt when you took back the love I gave to you for someone else

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when i know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine
Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine

endlessly feeling my type of insecurity

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baby please don’t play no games wit me
my friends been telling me that u tryna fw me
i told them don’t worry bout nothing i got it locked
u the only one that understood my paper heart

every single day i sit in pure dismay
u the only one that brought me out this way
personally wanna thank u for everything
possibly u the one that i wanna date

doesn’t everything seem too perfect for me to fuck it up
but i took it for granted and went for lust instead of love
i’m a shitty person i’ll admit that i did have it rough
but it’s not an excuse to throw ur love in the fucking dust

baby i’m sorry for everything
i mean it i didn’t write this out just for me to sing
trust me i’ve grown as a person and i would’ve changed
for u my love id do anything i won’t stay the same

woke up on the wrong side of my bed
now i’m stuck thinking bout my death
rewind to the day i wasn’t dead
i thought bout why i wasn’t dead

woke up on the wrong side of my bed
now i’m stuck thinking bout my death
rewind to the day i wasn’t dead
i thought bout why i wasn’t dead

baby u my remedy
to my insanity
ur the reason why im still alive why i can breathe
baby if u go im scared that i won’t feel relieved
i might get way too stressed but it’s my fault that im

fucked up in the head
u my only friend
that gets me fed
i said what i said
u make me feel better when i’m dead

every single day i sit in pure dismay
u the only one that brought me out this way
personally wanna thank u for everything
possibly u the one that i wanna date

paper heart

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lyrics:

falling out of earth
how do i match ur worth
how do i deserve
ur whole entire world

so i’ve made a plan
i don’t want anyone laying
hands over u i don’t care bout what they’re saying

so i’ve made a plan
that will stop u misbehaving
pls don’t be mad
ill be there with u in haven

walk u out the door
with my knife beside
oh god i can’t decide
this is it i can’t revive
no explanations from me
i know the glass half empty
i had to feel it complete

kay, run it back how would u like me to play it from start
cuz
problems ascending as soon as i take it too far
well
spoilers alert you’ve been talking to my facade
so
criminal’s minds got a criminal heart

falling out of earth
how do i match ur worth
how do i deserve
ur whole entire world

so i’ve made a plan
i don’t want anyone laying
hands over u i don’t care bout what they’re saying

so i’ve made a plan
that will stop u misbehaving
pls don’t be mad
ill be there with u in haven

haven

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i wanted the best for u
i wish i could get to choose
what’s best for u

although i’ve hurt u more
than i could ever imagine
i didn’t expect you to do the
same right after

tears down running down my eye
people think i’m fine
they always think they’re right
tears running down her eye
whole world saw she cried
they all wondered if she’s fine
but what about me
u lack the patience to see
the original story
like honestly i’m not tryna be an asshole
this just how i feel oh
i put you over my health

i wanted the best for u
i wish i could get to choose
what’s best for u

although i’ve hurt u more
than i could ever imagine
i didn’t expect you to do the
same right after

although i’ve hurt u more
than i could ever imagine
i didn’t expect you to do the
same right after

best for you

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lyrics:
say i don’t wanna be toxic
how am i gon stop it
look at jim n joe they doin exactly what i’m stoppin
and all of u are fallin
for whatever they’re plotting
don’t listen to them do u ever hear ur heart stoppin
say i don’t wanna be toxic
how am i gon stop it
look at jim n joe they doin exactly what i’m stoppin
and all of u are fallin
for whatever they’re plotting
don’t listen to them do u ever hear ur heart stoppin
don’t lie u chose to walk this path but does it describe you
i say a lotta lies in my songs about u
i hope that youll be fine now that i’m without u
tell me tell me what’s the worst that’d come to me
i swear that i just need one person for my company
i’m so bad at talkin i can’t always provide therapy
just look at my discography that’s what u meant to me
say i don’t wanna be toxic
how am i gon stop it
look at jim n joe they doin exactly what i’m stoppin
and all of u are fallin
for whatever they’re plotting
don’t listen to them do u ever hear ur heart stoppin
say i don’t wanna be toxic
how am i gon stop it
look at jim n joe they doin exactly what i’m stoppin
and all of u are falling
for whatever they’re plotting
don’t listen to them do u ever hear ur heart stoppin

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do you ever hear your heart stopping

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lyrics:
don’t be sorry to me
don’t be sorry to me
before i go to bed
tap right into twitter just to figure out ur dead to me
since i never said it then
u mean the whole world to me when ur not with ur friendnemies
did they tell u why i left
cuz i’m so fucking sure that when u find out you’ll regret
guess this is the end
never got my point right i’m not doing this again
don’t be sorry to me
don’t be sorry to me
before i go to bed
tap right into twitter just to figure out ur dead to me
since i never said it then
u mean the whole world to me when ur not with ur friendnemies

before i go to bed

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cuz i never knew if ur serious
when ur intimate
so it left me thinking ur different
that ur ignorant
that u no longer give a fuck
i swear it was like last night when i said that i love u
but now really is the last time i’ll ever wipe my tears for u
i remember when i had nothin
we would spend our time laughing
now i finally got something
then i spend my time crying
if u made me choose again
i'd choose to get hurt again
back when i had zero friends
now u are my only friend
no i dont want this to end
got all the damn time to spend
i wish u could understand
i cant go back to unsend
every single messages i meant
every single night that i’ve spent
crying and crying cuz i never knew
cuz i never knew if ur serious
when ur intimate
so it left me thinking ur different
that ur ignorant
that u no longer give a fuck
i swear it was like last night when i said that i love u
but now really is the last time i’ll ever wipe my tears for u

never knew

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1/3 of transparency

track 3 on may 12

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lyrics:

used to think way too much bout how people see me or treat me
now i let them say what they want cuz it ain’t my responsibility

you said he said she said sh
you shouldn’t let them in

you had what he hadn’t had
you point to what he had

you ought to let go what he has
(free yourself from ur sins)
(don’t ever let them in)

distraught from things ur still attached
(go look under ur skin)
(it grows before you cringe)

go look under
go look under your skin

blank my mind out from what happened last year cuz it ain’t matter
you got two choices either leave it or let your heart keep shattering

you said he said she said sh
you shouldn’t let them in

you had what he hadn’t had
you point to what he had

you ought to let go what he has
(free yourself from ur sins)
(don’t ever let them in)

distraught from things ur still attached
(go look under ur skin)
(it grows before you cringe)

go look under
go look under your skin

look under your skin

2/3 of transparency

track 3 on may 12

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lyrics:

“hi i’m just passin by
i’m not here for life
ur troubles are not mine
it ain’t worth my time
i’m a bystander in a line
with all the other eyes
we ain’t lookin ur way of sight
this the way of life”

oha
oh how u gon treat me like that
never have i asked that
or thought that
gave a fuck back
never read into it
so don’t bother me through it
im set on my mind
on my size that i’ll dine

im set on my mind
on my size that i’ll dine

can’t chase a thing
in this damn life youll go blind

i’m not the one who decides what u plan by
im not the one who derives where ur art lies
i’m not the one who disguises my outside to infiltrate ur damn life

hi i’m just passin by
i’m not here for life
ur troubles are not mine
it ain’t worth my time
i’m a bystander in a line
with all the other eyes
we ain’t lookin ur way of sight
this the way of life

how did yall ever fly
thinking by this state of mind
thinking where the statement lies
knowing u ain’t crossing the line
the story writes itself
how could i pass it on to anybody but myself
this my responsibility
for my own damn health

bystander

3/3 of transparency 

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baby i’m back to square one
where the hell r u
a single reassurance
wouldn’t fail to ease my mood
fucking forget it
u left b4 i got to u
rinse and regret
ur single action that caused us to
go back to square one

we didn’t need to take a look to notice that we're regressing
in a picture perfect world where it wouldn’t get depressing
i’m standing by you

it took you forever to notice that you no longer need me
like the way u did before whenever i barely knew me
i found myself but lost you

when the snow hits you’ll intrude
i can’t be lying to myself bout how you move
absence holds control

square one

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lyrics:
if kissing him goodbye
was ur way to play it safe
then leaving u by five
shouldn’t make u misbehave
he needed u inside
but u didn’t wanna stay
a needle in my eye
will be the reason that

i won’t b the first one
stepping out of here
out of fear
watched them say ur name
it changed the atmosphere
blood was smeared

first five weeks
you’re held wit love
next five years
you’ll hold a grudge

Newport between ur lips
i’ll light it for u
before u ash it out
il take it from u

leaving you by five

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u thought u thought i was gon let u do whatever whatever u want to me
you knew you knew that ur the reason to why i why i began to dissipate

i never laid my hands on u
n i don’t think that i’ll ever do
even if they saw u that way
i would never take that leeway

pull away if
you feel
your body rotting love
pull away if
you need
a body to stop you love

ur staring at me
flashbacks on repeat
had to slow down and breathe
suppress my heartbeat

had u heard it racing
youd instigate the chasing
plenty boys here dazing
they reminisce their baby

u thought u thought i was gon let u do whatever whatever u want to me
you knew you knew that ur the reason to why i why i began to dissipate

i never laid my hands on u
n i don’t think that i’ll ever do
even if they saw u that way
i would never take that leeway

pull away if
you feel
your body rotting love
pull away if
you need
a body to stop you love

leeway

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there’s something about u

ashlyn says she’s in love witchu
r u gon take her side
texting her what u tryna do
u know she’s not ur type
but havin someone in ur life’s
better than being dry
except u ready got a girl
u like her cuz she’s fine

desmond says he’s in love witchu
r u gon take his side
texting him what u tryna do
u know he’s not ur type
but having someone in ur life’s
better than being dry
except u ready got a mans
u like him cuz he tries

u should’ve
u should’ve let him known
u should’ve
u should’ve
u should’ve let her known
u should’ve

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you assumed ur life
was ever lasting
took it for granted
you're the reason why the sunsets before you’re awake
constantly grasping
things that went rancid
baby i get why we're stuck in 2006

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that i might’ve lied but this was the one thing in my life

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that it’s hit that time of my life where i start to reminisce

through the frames
of my life
i watched every moment of it through my eyes
ain’t the same
when you try to go back through living a lie

you assumed ur life
was ever lasting
took it for granted
you're the reason why the sunsets before you’re awake
constantly grasping
things that went rancid
baby i get why we're stuck in 2006

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that i might’ve lied but this was the one thing in my life

becca blew me a kiss
those were things i can’t resist
knew that it’s hit that time of my life where i start to reminisce

cuz in a blink of an eye
you've cashed out all ur time
and wonder what it's like
to not be 35

2006

3/4 of novembermisery

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if i wasn’t pickin at it would ya
put a stop n let it heal in silence
girl ur looking too good in my absence
searched the signs for scars knew this was happenin

br- breathe out
br- breathe out n ease
so don’t go hiding away my love
br- breathe out
br- breathe out n ease
i planned on picking away my love

threw on my jacket
put the keys in
started igniting the spark
throw on ur favourite dress
cuz i can’t guarantee we’ll make it far
take away ur wings
guess you’re stuck beneath below everything you know
should i play it safe
i could risk my life, bite the bullet for a change

breathe (scab)

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“baby touch
i need you under my skin
wrap me around ur lips”
baby love
stings when ur untrue
to the words u spew
i never would’ve want someone like u
whispering telling me things i didn’t need to know
but overtime ive stepped on my laces
lacing my thought pattern that i thought ive thrown

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i don’t know ur name
but id love to hit replay
circling the same things
i once had to escape from
mayb jus a little
did he like u for ur beauty
seven second love
before comfort takes the new me
oh baby i
i don’t wanna stay stuck with u
say something new
my cheeks turning blue
i don’t wanna rinse out the you
that i had to grew
from being
closer by an inch
but we’re further from the picture
seven second love
reason why we ain’t together
reinvent urself
so that i would think you’re better
baby this ain’t luv
we should never b together
my attention span started leakin
now i can’t focus
on you
you can’t allude
several other guys queued up in a line
they want you too
u could
pursue
just do

seven second love

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there is just nothing that i haven’t seen
girl
you belong to me
you belong to me love
if you just ditch the one and only thing
girl
it would start to be
it would start be
more clear so we’d move along the way
cause
every second spent
we’re not ever getting back so
you never have to watch what you say
just so
you belong to me
you belong to me love
throwback to when we’re sittin down
and conversating bout our doubts
it’d never crossed my mind that
we became the thing we feared about
time ticks yet we’re left with things we hate to do
is there something to

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autumn spring and summer change
and we won’t ever stay the same
i loved u once, but several months
ago i started losing hope

when winter comes and starts to snow
i might just lose some/ myself control
you’ve gone through highs and gone through lows
but we still find it hard to cope

don’t leave me
don’t leave me now
don’t leave me
don’t leave me now

you look different since the last time i saw u
and sometimes i regret the things i say to u
oh help me why am i so selfish
i think that i just talk too much my thoughts keep running from my head

Bhertuy

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