I LOVED YOU ONCE BUT SEVERAL MONTHS AGO I STARTED LOSING HOPE

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pretty but toxic

take off the cape you not a hero
through the chest i take an arrow
think that im the one not me
the halls are getting narrow
look in the mirror hate it so much
what i wanted so desperately
i hate it all i wanna disappear and 
never come back i wanna change it all
and make it so i never relapsed
i hate this pressure and this pain
feels like a damn heart attack
say this life is what its worth that 
there's no damn string attached
i feel attached to a puppeteer
life pulled by strings a decision i fear
no point in crying over nonsense
i wont shed a tear i feel just like a project

you say that theres no strings attached
you lied to my face broken by the past (x2)

and i lost my way of life 
where do i go from here
i cant sleep at night

art by moosekleenex on deviantart

strings attached (p. 19hearts)

dishonesty w/ starfall

i recorded this while i was hella sick

Mean more than you could ever know
Sittin by myself in an empty grove
Still the same kids know we never grown
Haven’t seen you since the day I left home

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches

Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own
Relapse and crawl back to nothing
You took to long and now I’d really like to be alone
Still just singing all the same old songs
Really wish we’d get along 
But know I’m better on my own

(Every now and then I lose track of
What I want from life I’ve lost passion
Fall asleep I won’t see the sun up
Brain feels like it’s made of plastic
Burn the house and play in the ashes
Seen a ghost, do you believe in magic?
Mouth sewn shut, your face dunked in acid
Last thing you’ll hear is me striking the matches)

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nothing (weikoo + 02ashes)

@rouri404 - vocals
@vaeo-music - vocals
@samthraxx - guitar
https://www.instagram.com/polboii_otto - art
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(rouri404)
 Notice every time i called you were never there (ever there)
If there are broken promises still know i was not prepared
Dreamed the world burned I'm flipping in my bed
Holding back the same tears years I've been fighting
Just want a place of comfort yeah you know I've been trying
Still I know that it all means nothing in the end
(vaeo)
Cat had my tongue so I can't speak your name
Every time that i hear it the blood in my veins
Turns to acid and burns all the ashes away
Turn away from my gaze ‘for i finally disintegrate 
(rouri404)
Know that I've been locked in a tool shed
Mind is empty always and my body is feeling useless 
Sick of cycles and moving just drained my body of fluid
Don't think its ever improving 
though either way I'm gonna lose it can't pretend
(vaeo)
Showing love no reciprocation 
I can't sleep here while you are lying in the bed adjacent
I've been waiting for a lifetime running out of patience 
Now i see your last breath before you take it
(rouri 404)
Knife in the back I've been falling watching me stumble down
In this empty room crawling been screaming don't think they hear a sound
And I know there's not a difference when I'm not around
Lately just been feeling lost and found
(vaeo)
Still lost, still hurts
It always costs more than what its worth
Wrong directions and broken spines
Crooked edges intertwine
Still lost, still hurts
It always costs more than what it's worth
I thought I told you I'm doing fine
But its all torture by design
(rouri404)
???
???
Haven't slept in weeks and you know I'm shedding pounds
Wont see the sun up I'm hoping that you wont come around
Jumping from the top of a bridge I'll just watch my body drown

Lost And Found (feat rouri404 + vaeo)

produced by Bhertuy

Lyrics:

Baby you showed me love
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
Only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting so silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
Baby you showed me love
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
It’s only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
 
Why don’t you reciprocate everything I do for you
You’re just like a broken mirror I can’t even fix you back
Said you wanted me to come here soon as I’m here you’re at
Another person’s house you could’ve told me that you’re attached
To him
Not me
I’m just a remedy to you
I guess it's sad to see its you
You chose him over me that’s you
 
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
It’s only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
And I showed it back
So why aren’t you texting me saying all that
I fantasize
How you’re in my life
Taking care of me
You’re right by my side
Right now you hate me
I feel so shitty
It’s only cause I’ve been attached to you lately
Baby forgive me
I’m acting silly
Let me sing one song for you ‘fore you leave me
 
 
It’s sad to say
My feelings gone
I’ve been waiting for way too fucking long
What time is it
My time is up
Turn me to a fucker that don’t give a fuck
I spy with my little eye she’s surprised
She don’t know I know that she commit crimes
You’re filled with lies but the type to deny
I’m satisfied with the size of my lies

broken mirror

Produced by Bhertuy & Yeezo

Hate how this turned out
You’re still mad at me
It haunts me in my sleep
Fucked up my self esteem
You know none of us was right all along
So there’s no point telling lies
I hope you can make a song out of this when you degrade my life
Don’t get how you’re never past things I left behind for heights
You bring me back to places I left long ago behind

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Even say I like me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
Now I’m very fucking sure that you defo despise me
In another universe I know that you’re my wifey
Do you remember why I left ur house that night when I said bye to you
Do you remember how I felt when you called me and told me that I hate you
Do you remember how I felt when I took care the 3am of you who’s drunk as fuck
Do you remember how I felt when you took back the love I gave to you for someone else

She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when I know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me
She ask what I’m doing I say girl don’t worry bout me
I’ve been tryna find my way out of here maybe slightly
Sometimes it gets tiring when i know that you’re not with me
Nowadays it’s hard for me to even say I like me

Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine
Endlessly feeling my type of insecurity
I hate how this all happened from one night of routine

endlessly feeling my type of insecurity

produced by me

baby please don’t play no games wit me
my friends been telling me that u tryna fw me
i told them don’t worry bout nothing i got it locked
u the only one that understood my paper heart

every single day i sit in pure dismay
u the only one that brought me out this way
personally wanna thank u for everything
possibly u the one that i wanna date

doesn’t everything seem too perfect for me to fuck it up
but i took it for granted and went for lust instead of love
i’m a shitty person i’ll admit that i did have it rough
but it’s not an excuse to throw ur love in the fucking dust

baby i’m sorry for everything
i mean it i didn’t write this out just for me to sing
trust me i’ve grown as a person and i would’ve changed
for u my love id do anything i won’t stay the same

woke up on the wrong side of my bed
now i’m stuck thinking bout my death
rewind to the day i wasn’t dead
i thought bout why i wasn’t dead

woke up on the wrong side of my bed
now i’m stuck thinking bout my death
rewind to the day i wasn’t dead
i thought bout why i wasn’t dead

baby u my remedy
to my insanity
ur the reason why im still alive why i can breathe
baby if u go im scared that i won’t feel relieved
i might get way too stressed but it’s my fault that im

fucked up in the head
u my only friend
that gets me fed
i said what i said
u make me feel better when i’m dead

every single day i sit in pure dismay
u the only one that brought me out this way
personally wanna thank u for everything
possibly u the one that i wanna date

paper heart

original: https://soundcloud.com/ghostsocial/friends?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

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never knew

trash gang amv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lNngFb-Rxsg


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lyrics:

autumn spring and summer change
and we won’t ever stay the same
i loved u once, but several months
ago i started losing hope

when winter comes and starts to snow
i might just lose some/ myself control
you’ve gone through highs and gone through lows
but we still find it hard to cope

don’t leave me
don’t leave me now
don’t leave me
don’t leave me now

you look different since the last time i saw u
and sometimes i regret the things i say to u
oh help me why am i so selfish
i think that i just talk too much my thoughts keep running from my head

seasons

Bhertuy

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