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@rouri404

(maxime)
you left me open cut me open like a surgeon
cut so fucking deep now its got me hurting
yeah i didnt deserve this always lookin at it wrong
like did you deserve this?
yeah im uncertain get the money
then you know im fuckin splurgin
on a never ending cycle self destruction
blow it up escape this rut and then im running
now i fuckin run shit

(rouri404)
cut 2 deep blood puddled 2 my ankles
constant state of panic
Know id do it if u say so
anxious throwin up always say we goin up
know I used 2 give a fuck 
now I just want on that payroll 
clawing out my eyes at the sight of seein u with him
sun will never rise if I don’t admit 
2 myself that I need 2 get over this shit

self destruction w/ rouri404 (p. jolst)

take off the cape you not a hero
through the chest i take an arrow
think that im the one not me
the halls are getting narrow
look in the mirror hate it so much
what i wanted so desperately
i hate it all i wanna disappear and 
never come back i wanna change it all
and make it so i never relapsed
i hate this pressure and this pain
feels like a damn heart attack
say this life is what its worth that 
there's no damn string attached
i feel attached to a puppeteer
life pulled by strings a decision i fear
no point in crying over nonsense
i wont shed a tear i feel just like a project

you say that theres no strings attached
you lied to my face broken by the past (x2)

and i lost my way of life 
where do i go from here
i cant sleep at night

art by moosekleenex on deviantart

strings attached (p. 19hearts)

featuring @webkins @lo3rd @0arid & @glostarteeg
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produced by @1wuko, @webkins

kins, lo3rd, arid, glostarteeg ⇝ shoot2quick

faces god and walks backwards into hell

passion pit - lifted up (adam daylight remix)

i ask of u to just preeeeteeeeeeeeeeeeendddddd

(lyrics)
she said "baby r u sad again"
idk,  i just feel mad again but its ok
idrc im just brittle idrc its so small i feel little

all the time when i cry ur right there
and when i die will u drop right there?
i hate the way that i feel when im with u
but idrc much when im not with u

my life is a losing battle
and i scream all the things i cant handle
i cant handle much i cant take it
and im sorry for this i wont make it

can u call me, again
i ask of u to just pretend
pretend, pretend, pretend, just pretend 
its ok, i feel fine
dont touch me
just pretend x4

(all the time when i cry ur right there
and when i die will u drop right there?
i hate the way that i feel when im with u
but idrc much when im not with u)

i hate the way u make me feel
im never right its always u
i can never relax, whats ur deal?
and i can never do much without u

can u call me, again
i ask of u to just pretend
pretend, pretend, pretend, just pretend 
its ok, i feel fine
dont touch me
just pretend x4

pretender

pretender (dead yami)

4 bee <3

prod. ashley

main sample: https://soundcloud.com/dynastic/caldecott-feat-polygon-cove

the newest scholastic book fair sucked

the sequel is https://soundcloud.com/leastfavorite/ariacore-2a

~ songs used ~
crave you - flight facilities
trndsttr - black coast (lucian remix)
gold dust - dj fresh (flux pavillion remix)
monster - meg & dia (dotexe remix)
overtime - cash cash
hot milk - snail's house
cinema - benny benassi (skrillex remix)
turbo - tokyo machine
kill everybody - skrillex (koan remix)
pumped up kicks - foster the people (butch clancy remix)

1-A. if ur scrolling through my popular tracks u should just skip this one tbh

The main guitar is taken from Goonnights' song "sober"
link: https://soundcloud.com/goonnights/sober-ft-ever

The lead guitar in the second half was recorded by 2045
link: https://soundcloud.com/sc2un-sh4re
link: https://soundcloud.com/2045

Struggler is written about a sort of cycle I go through a lot, and trying to break it, but failing.
I always end up falling into slumps of creative block, and I always try way too hard to get out of it, and I always end up feeling horrible.
This song is also indirectly about me and my new alias, with some lyrics specifically referencing and responding to "To Disappear" which was a very difficult song for me.

As for this new alias, there's a full post on twitter, I'm sorry for deleting everything so suddenly, it was a really silly decision. "Rapture" will always be available on bandcamp for free.

remix stems:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1L6wVfOrNyYRWd7d7iVrHIA5V-PZnGjcb/view?usp=sharing
(162bpm, idk the key)

As always, Soundcloud isnt the best listening experience (specifically butchers the high end on this song), try spotify or youtube or something
The mixing is definitely intentionally a little messy, the vocals are a little quiet on purpose, I really enjoy the sound this song has, but I can agree it might not be for everyone.

[LYRICS]

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die

So tell me, is this healing?
Or it's a cycle that's repeating
And I need to know
If I'm gonna be here

Thickened Water
And Tarot Smoke

I guess I can feel it now
My gums are melting away
But they continued

And Oh, I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive
And Oh, I might struggle and I might die
So please don't disappear
Don't leave me in a shallow river

Struggle 'til I die

Struggler

lets go in a mineshaft

i don't go out much
--
@kurtains
for 🌸 & 🔔. love u both

scorpion by kurtains (user cover)

produced by @01kon x @least_favorite

@staggyucrazy @luvkurtis @1sloan

gtfo [staggy + kurtis + 1sloan]

She gon eat your heart out 
make you fall in love and knockout
cuz she’s bad she’s bad

She gon make you tap out
when the leather straps gon come out
cuz she’s bad, yea she’s bad

Couple thousand dollars
for the black on black pradas
when she’s bad, she’s bad

Never let ya mama 
meet her if you don’t want drama
cuz she’s bad, she’s bad

Discover

ZHU x MIGOS - Bad and Boujee.

I PROMISE IM TRYING - CAVETOWN

Rain On Me

Gorillaz ft Andre 3000 and James Murphy - Do Ya Thing

90 Degrees (FULL) - 5/13/18

- COMING OUT FEBRUARY 12 ON ITUNES -
Download "Clarity" on iTunes: http://smarturl.it/Clarity

Zedd - Clarity feat. Foxes (Zedd Union Mix)

idk if they will get mad at me for posting this but its so fire I can't live without it XD
all rights go to Jude, James and harry 
from the whatsgoodfamthepodcast live

lets go in a mineshaft

bh2