Name: ethel cain - dust bowl live recording by ʚ♡ɞ in lorn
Duration: 5 min 25 s
Description: not the best quality :/ sounds like she's made some changes to the instrumentals hopefully we get preacher's daughter b-sides soon !!

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lyrics

here i am in california
wondering if you’re still alive
thought i had escaped the pain
that brought the rain and made me drive
past your house at night alone
i reeked to death of alcohol
barbital is washing out my brain
i fucked up and god i know it
but can you at least let me try
i feel so embarrassed 
even caring if you live or die
crying on the back porch
while you looked away and told me
we’ll make it work or won’t make it all
(hey. it’s me. i’ve been thinking about you. 
i hope you’re alright. i miss you, i do. 
i wish you were here. but i understand.
take care of yourself, ok?)
you need time, i know, but jesus,
is this all you think of me
a portrait of my love in all white and on her knees
I’ll go back to california, bleeding but i still survived
maybe you were never mine at all

a portrait of my love on her knees - ethel cain

not the best quality :/ sounds like she's made some changes to the instrumentals hopefully we get preacher's daughter b-sides soon !!

ethel cain - dust bowl live recording

Ethel Cain ~ Dust Bowl (Live)

everything you said was wrong
everything you said was wrong

you don’t see me at all 
you only use me to cuM

you don’t know how to feel

cum machine (demo)

Ethel Cain covering Bette Davis Eyes live at Lollapalooza 2024 in Chicago, minus the crowd noises. The ending is a bit weird because the live version immediately blend into American Teenager.

Ethel Cain - Bette Davis Eyes [live - no crowd]

A soft clarity settles, the kind that comes when two people understand each other without words. The thoughts are no longer questions, but promises: “We’ll keep this safe. We won’t let go this time.” The past and present blend, creating something new—memories still to be made, together.

we’ll remember together

Strangers (Vyva Melinkolya Demo)

cr @/nanash on yt — i only added south alabama to the mix
08/01 update! i was inspired by the mv to make a little intro out of the original demo's first line. hope it sounds alright.

[Intro]
Cold enough to see you, cold

[Verse 1]
The road is longer than it is hard
With no one to guide you
And no one to hold
No best foot forward to sway the odds
And just a voice inside you
And a stone to throw

[Verse 2]
Could you be someone else
If someone else is what I need?
But I shouldn't ask that of you
When you're old, you'll understand
But we're hurting now, so what are we to do 'til then?
Cradling pictures of you

[Verse 3]
It was a highway to nowhere, and we rode it
Cold car with no gas, and we chose it
Soft bodies playing in the street
Our kids will grow up with half as much
Trying to build something out of dust
Finding out too late what they need

[Chorus v1]
You've tasted love and it tastеd sweet
You drank the blood and bit the meat
You hold it, you hold it, you lеt it go
You close your eyes and count to three
You say the word and come to me
Baby, I know

[Pre-Chorus]
Take care of me god

[Chorus v1] ↻
You've tasted love and it tastеd sweet
You drank the blood and bit the meat
You hold it, you hold it, you lеt it go
You close your eyes and count to three
You say the word and come to me
Baby, I know

[Verse 4]
There’s a hole in the wall where you keep your head
Lost it one too many times
Say your mama’s funeral’s next Sunday
What’d your daddy go and do now?
No matter just how hard they cry, a dog is a dog is a dog is a dog is a dog, and they still get hungry
And they look hungry
So once you’re dead, who’ll be there to let them out?

[Interlude]
You don’t need me like you think you do
And I can’t pull you through
You just need to feel like someone wants you
And I promise you, they do

[Verse 5]
You are young, you are young, you’re too young, and you cry til you’re soaking wet
You're not your father, but you wear his clothes to bed
Going over something he said
All American
No good, worn through, and on fire
And they’ll chew holes in whatever’s left
'Til there’s nothing left

[Chorus v2]
You’ve tasted love, and it tasted sweet
You drank the blood and bit the meat
If you hold it and it cries
You should let it go
I’m trying hard, so baby, please
Don’t sink in me with your dog teeth
Please, I’m already on my knees
(In God’s country)

[Verse 6]
It was just a Thursday, and it wasn't right for you
So we planned a car chase, down the highway
Say goodbye when it hit one-twenty-two
I'd write the note
You'd leave a pack of your favorite smokes, and we'd take the byways to
South Alabama, and run those great big hills to the great big blue

[Verse 7]
You sound like you're underwater when you talk to me
A little preacher's daughter lying to her father about where she's going every evening
And kissing through thе screen door on the back porch, 'cause he scrеams, "Lord, help me" when he sees you touching me, yeah
South Alabama is looking better every week

[Chorus v3]
You've tasted love, and it tasted sweet
You drank the blood and bit the meat
When you hold it, if it cries, you should let it go
I'm trying hard, so baby, please
Don't sink in me with your dog teeth
Don't be naive to the one good thing you know

[Verse 8]
You smell like gasoline
Trailing the death of me when you come home
Then you’re gone
Stained like the memories
Stuffed under the car seat
Behind me
I’m not coming back
I’m not coming back again
You ruined all of that
I always told you that
Your white horse can’t hold your hand
So it passed you running again and again

[Bridge]
The road is longer than it is hard
(Love overwhelms me)
With no one to guide you
(It's all that I want, and it's all that we have)
No best foot forward to sway the odds
(But is it enough?)
Just a voice inside you
(To make it worth it in the end?)
Don't sink in me with your dog teeth
Don't sink in me with your dog teeth
Don't sink in me with your dog teeth
Don't sink in me
Don't sink in me with your dog teeth

[Chorus v4]
You've tasted love, and it tasted sweet
You drank the blood and bit the meat
You hold it, you hold it, but you'll never know
You close your eyes and cry to me
Don't sink in me with your dog teeth
We're better off if you let go
In God's country
In God's country

[Outro]
If it was harder then
It will be better now
For I am here and changed
I couldn't tell you how
There before the grace of God go I
Laughing to myself
Forgetting what about

Ethel Cain - God's Country "South Alabama" (15 Minute Solo Version)

god's country (solo) (extended) Ethel Cain

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

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"In The Symmetrical Moment of Time, Where The Light of The Cursed One’s Life Fades, He is Delivered To The Despair and The Pain That Echo in The Void of Darkness."

This composition is an auditory meditation on the irrevocable moment when the condemned understands: his fate was inscribed before his first breath. The symmetry of time unveils its cruel perfection — the same void awaiting him at the end has dwelled within him from the beginning. The melody is not a lament, but the cold acknowledgment that suffering is not punishment, but the final truth.

"His sentence is not death, but eternity in the void — where his victim's scream echoes within his own flesh."

Inexistential

In The Symmetrical Moment of Time, Where The Light of The Cursed One’s Life Fades, He is Delivered To The Despair and The Pain That Echo in The Void of Darkness

ethel cain - dust bowl live recording

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