Out There Anyway

Stayed awake ‘till the sun rose 
Isn’t that how it goes
When you’re stuck deep in a heartbreak?
I always open my windows 
I breathe in that October cold 
Something ‘bout this time of year takes me away

I’ll be alone this Christmas, it’s fine by me 
I tend to buy myself anything I need 
Maybe I’ll take a chance at curiosity 
Maybe I’ll try something twisted 
October’s hitting different

I’ll stay up, watch my favorite shows 
Without your snarky nose 
Always rollin’ in smoke, smothering me 
I’ll sit with my thoughts alone 
I’ll really think about the mother-roll
That you wanted me to play to satisfy your needs

I bet you’re sitting there wishing that I were weak 
Crawling back to you, well only in your dreams, baby 
Maybe I’ll take a chance at curiosity 
Maybe I’ll write something twisted 
October’s hitting different

Dress up as your own personal bitchin’ machine 
All I ever did was try to give you everything you need 
Oh, how I hate this time of year it gets so damn lonely 
But I love it just the same 
Autumn air has seen worse things

I’ll fall asleep when the sun grows 
Into the sky where my love erodes 
Reset my nervous system back in place

Twisted October (Demo)

a song I wrote in 2020 as I was recovering from Sepsis

Yesterday (it's not going away)

Maggie Geeslin's Album

the window song

link to music video 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1ZhrVyq4xY

second skin (demo)

common gardener

(i wrote this in 10 minutes, recorded it in 5.)
(its still messy but i wanted it gone.)
(it's better messy anyways.)

Have I always been a chore?
Was it like this before?
Frantic hands on my skin,
You'd exude my name like its a sin.
You were panting my name.

Dissolve in shades of green
Memories knelt at
The guillotine.

I felt small and weak,
Kissing your cheek.
When I said goodbye,
You rolled your eyes-
And i cried
On the drive home.

Dissolve in shades of green
Memories knelt at
The guillotine.

Have I always been a chore?
Was it like this before?
Frantic hands on my skin,
You'd exude my name like a sin.
You whisper my name
Now it's not that same.

shades of green

urbanation originals

shouldn't you be doing something too (stripped) - 9:12:18, 4.41 PM

Driving With Your Friends

Girl Who Can't Play Guitar and Isn't in Love Writes a Love Song on Guitar Anyway

wrote this this morning when i woke up, i’ve been feeling very stuck lately, as i’m sure everyone has at this time. it felt nice to create new music. i hope u like

how to feel better (demo)

this is a secret little place where my original songs, hitRECord.org projects, & other tiny creations live. like a finsta. but for music
main: @urbanation

shouldn't you be doing something too (stripped) - 9:12:18, 4.41 PM

bianca.mp3