produced by xona

//ep

-lyrics-
and I’ll stay inside 
where I reside 
I’ll stay and watch the night
until i die

why do we fight?
mirror what we like?
take my holy life
I’m sorry to say it’s fine..

~

I got sick of everybody who speaks
to me you’re nothing, I can’t even get a week
to be alone with someone that I wanna see
and these crevices you placed cause you know I was weak
so push back.
and I’ve been personal
so let it go
I feel like..
you don’t even have to know me
that I don’t want you to hold me

~

~I’ll cry and end... 
my life.
stay and watch when I die~

I’ll quit 
to forget that I exist
but these spiders are my only friends
are my only 
friends…

spiders II

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produced by xona

-lyrics-
im worried on what i do 
battleground where i fought for you
betting steps on my life, I’m tuned
to the harmonies that ensued

new year, who’s me.. huh?
nothing’s different, knowing me… no-
you’d pull the trigger in front of me, god
within these trenches where we meet “love”

~

you would KILL ME in a sec lose track of your senses
deep end- WITHIN MY ROOTS
you would LEAVE ME IN A SEC UNDER PRETENSES
you’re so NERVOUS UNDER THIS PRESSURE

feeling awful to my stomach (oh)
you make me sad and you love it (oh you love)
i suppose i feel off it (so off)
but it’s the same since of august

mm oh i don’t want you now
we don’t even click and that’s something profound 
Ill keep my mouth shut, no attempt to make a sound-
but i can’t keep still when you’re killing me around

~

you know when you talk to me
we can’t be tight or we fall by piece
and ember’s all through my chest
it’s the weight of me that kills the rest-

god..

velvet

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(Do I really want it anyways?)
(Do I really want it anyways?)
I tried my hardest to not care, coming back to you know its not fair
Dead roses been left out, bugs crawlin'
I guess you noticed I'm calling
Got a bad hand, still fuck it going all in
Know when I wake up yesterday will be forgotten

Need something more need something realer than this
I fucked up bad, there's some things you cant fix

Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)
Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)

We been falling off so slowly
Taking every hit you made my nose bleed
Running out of space the door is always slamming in my face
Yeah I thought it would be different but you can't escape your fate

Why do we try so hard when it wont last
Closing my eyes now hoping we don't crash
Sick of your voice, know I still cant forget that
Think its a choice, if I could I would go back

Only need one night, to show you I can be your man
Please give me your hand right now
Things never go according to plan
Think I saw you last night laughing, dancing with him

Still you know that ill be okay, yea ill be fine
Taking life at my own pace, think we met at the wrong time
Really thought you were mine
Guess its all my fault and I really don't mind

Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)
Said its not my fault but we both know that was a lie
(Yeah I never really tried, yeah I never really)

(We been falling off so slowly
Taking every hit you made my nose bleed
Running out of space the door is always slamming in my face
Yeah I thought it would be different but you can't escape your fate)

Do I really want it anyways?
Do I really want it anyways?

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nosebleed (dercept)

vocals by @dylanlongworth, @ghostsocial & @rouri404
produced by goodbyex2002 & en.

amv: 
https://youtu.be/OvaIdnWDsys

lyrics:
i woke up with my heart in my stomach 
tired as fuck but i'll roll with the punches 
opened my eyes, thought that we could be something,
got no choice, but sit inside watch it fade into nothing 

i woke up with my heart in my stomach 
tired as fuck but i'll roll with the punches 
opened my eyes, thought that we could be something,
got no choice, but sit inside watch it fade into nothing 
sit in agony 
trust in fallacies 
it's a tragedy 
that it ended in falesia filled with apathy

if i was fine, then i'm lying
something bout this shit, it feel enticing
the way you say you hate my guts, i think i like it
but lately, i’ve been feeling like i might try it

capre diem, doing 190 on the highway
i’m living life like i don't care if i die today
i’m living life i don't care about what they say
i know you never cared anyway

i woke up with my heart in my stomach 
tired as fuck but i'll roll with the punches 
opened my eyes, thought that we could be something,
got no choice, but sit inside watch it fade into nothing 
sit in agony 
trust in fallacies 
it's a tragedy 
that it ended in falesia filled with apathy

know your leaving and there’s nothing that i can do 
holding onto feelings wanna keep you near me
hear the sirens yeah i know there’s nothing i could do
still feel your spirit it won’t stop appearing 
know your in my head and the voices get louder
losing confidence in things i once was proud of
been fucked up but i don’t got the power to keep going on
but i’ll play along for you

i woke up with my heart in my stomach 
tired as fuck but i'll roll with the punches 
opened my eyes, thought that we could be something,
got no choice, but sit inside watch it fade into nothing 

told you i was fine, i guess lied then 
couldn't show all the torment that i was hiding 
yeah it's so tragically gone
i guess i magically lost it 
i think you crossed it, but i can't tell where the line ends 
now i'm gone got me drinking again 
i feel my heart sink down, and it's tearing to shreds
told me you would always care, but i guess it depends
never thought that my demise would be your means to an end, so i'll

sit in agony 
trust in fallacies 
it's a tragedy 
that it ended in falesia filled with apathy

falesia

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dylan longworth - falesia (ft. ghostsocial & rouri404) [prod. goodbyex2002 & en.]

cover of 'wear' by @xona
guitar played/re-recorded by logan

speak lightly
i won't seem
that worried
about u and me
down few
many lose
lives quick
nothing’s new
hiding right behind you
you’ll choose
you’ll choose

from what i wear
to see and stare
i swear i swear
you’ll have my care

how are you here with me
i told you i’m scared of-
graphic and the terror to seize
it’s more than it could seem
it’s more than wear and tear
and i could hardly bear
and i could hardly bear
i  could hardly bear
i could hardly-

from what I wear
to see and stare
i swear i swear
you’ll have my care

wear cover (xona)

prod. by me

lyrics:

cigarettes for fun
got me kinda fucked
never had a choice
and i feel so fake

tyrna die young
im always on the run
never take advice
it feels too lame

sold my body to the things that fucked me up
told myself i'll never be like this oh god
couple lil shots and i think im done 
told myself i'll never be like this oh god

i gave my body away for a better life
for a better time
i threw my life away for a better time
but take a look at my 


bloodbath
~
b-bloodbath 


always having fun now
never ever shut down
never learned for life
i think i might just drop out 

always run around now
never ever think loud
never had the guts to be like this
you know me?

always run away
never solved my problems
cigarettes all the same
cause i know they kill me

never liked the taste of life
imma make it okay
never liked the taste of time
imma make it decay

sold my body to the things that fucked me up
told myself i'll never be like this oh god
couple lil shots and i think im done 
told myself i'll never be like this oh god

i gave my body away for a better life
for a better time
i threw my life away for a better time
but take a look at my 


bloodbath
~
b-bloodbath 

bath

produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

prod logan

lyrics:
hearing conversations that i don't know what they're talkin bout
give a little lip and bet you know that i'll be walking out
holding up the line like seriously what are you on about
stepping up to fight, do you think i'm afraid to knock u out
gloves up, round one
i can't wait to pounce ya
blood bath, get smacked
come on, can you hit back
no chance, throw hands
punch him in his throat glands
your boy is a pussy and i'd like to throw w you next

your excuse is blaming her being a hoe
if that was new to me i'd kill you on the low
but i was stupid then and brushed it off
i'm in the trees and my bow is drawn

it doesn't matter
i'm moving like better than ever
it's all been captured
you notice how there is a pattern
i take a weapon and turn it into an aesthetic
i take aggression out all on myself & accept it
she looks so fine
i won't let her know why
"i like your hair and your pretty blue eyes"
i'm a disaster, oh baby i'm a disaster
and does that matter
oh baby does that really matter

𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳

POSTED OUTSIDE
WAR IS COMPLETE
I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE
IT GOT DEADLY
BLOOD ON MY FACE
STOP HOLDING ME
DODGING A M-
BUT I DON'T RETREAT
don't you ever talk a-
wake up & i'm winning
how does second feel when i'm first
my life might be lame-
least that i'm not lamer
cry
i gotta get going and i hope to see you never

disaster

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

trash

'paranoid' produced by heylog

lyrics:
we go and hike in the woods
what a perfect place to be
all my troubles behind
no sign of reality
i could live here and build
a shelter out of trees
say goodbye to the world
no electricity
the way the sun hits the water
i swear i see god himself
i feel shame, i feel hurt
it's like i'm somebody else
i try to hide but it's not
gonna help or save me
cover up all the shame
like adam and eve

i intimidate her
i think she's scared of me
cause your biggest fear is that i'll leave
and then you'll carry on
like nothing happened
and then you'll think about me one night and leech in
why don't you try me
i'm always hiding
i'm like a needle in a haystack, u won't find me
my teeth, i'm grinding
feel like i'm flying
i told you once, i'll say again you'll never find me

hanging out down by the creek
couple deer following me
if i stop to look at them they just stand there as if they freeze
why haven't they ran away?
figured they wouldn't have stayed
hear some branches crack behind now i'm paranoid of this place
look to my left and my right
check my shoulder one more time
maybe i'm a schizophrenic, i be fearing for my life
you hear that, you hear the tones?
i'm convinced i'm not alone
maybe i'll go deeper in the forest to find out if i'm pyscho

we go and hike in the woods
what a perfect place to be
all my troubles behind
no sign of reality
i could live here and build
a shelter out of trees
say goodbye to the world
no electricity
the way the sun hits the water
i swear i see god himself
i feel shame, i feel hurt
it's like i'm somebody else
i try to hide but it's not
gonna help or save me
cover up all the shame
like adam and eve

paranoid

'12 gauge' produced by heylog

lyrics:
moving swift, moving clean
all my thrift big on me
and i look goofy when i see
order double in xl
when my body lean as hell
and it's all because i'm well
maybe i should get clothes
that i fit for my size
there are barely i own
jacket got holes in it
but ima still throw it on
cause i don't care if it's ripped
you'll never know
you'll never know
where she had went and where'd she go
i wanna leave
i wanna leave
i wonder what is stopping me
she loves borrowing my wardrobe
said i smell good, so you wear all of my clothes
and they come back smelling like her
next thing u know she has my whole attire

i'll wait 
till u make ur mind up
she wants 
everything i wear cause
all of 
it is oversized
the sleeves are 
well below her thighs
don't take 
every single thing i own
cause i'll 
need it back before u go
and she 
wonders why i said that
i'm not 
confident that this'll last

you ever think about where i been?
you ever think about who we was
cause i do
but i just pretend i don't care about us
she's always apologetic to me
but when did u ever do anything
cause i don't
i hope u will never forget about home

and she always tried on my clothes
i pretend and fake it all
what u don't know
oh, you don't know
keeping secrets way too long
and i cannot continue this
i'm struggling to exist
and u don't know
oh, you don't know
thoughts begin to overflow
you would ask for an extra large to wear
but i only have double x in there
oh but she'll wear anything that i give
so next time i'll come over with ur cares

shutting me down, wake up from rem
i had a dream of us both laying in bed
but when i woke up i thought that it was real
i tried to go back to sleep to get a feel
of what it was like again to see your eyes
i knew it was impossible if i tried
now i'm just laying here, eyelids open
i stare into darkness tryna see objects
the only thing i see is my closet ahead
the same one that bears a certain turtle neck
the same closet thats got my 'retta encaged
the same closet thats got my locked up 12 gauge
and here are these nights i spend alone
turn off the lights, open window
jump into bed, plug in my phone
when i still got 90% left to go
and i fall asleep, but before i do
i sit in silence for an hour or two
these vivid thoughts get into view
and this what it sound like when i dream of you

12 gauge

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dylan longworth - falesia (ft. ghostsocial & rouri404) [prod. goodbyex2002 & en.]

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