What U Got

a surprise song <3
written, produced, mixed and mastered by me

lyrics:

i ain't getting no chances
i am tired of running
I am tired of hiding
always felt like i fucked up
always felt like im dying
always felt youre the bad one
always felt like im crying
but we ain't getting back together I know
but we ain't getting back together I know

i know that i've fucked up
will I ever be forgiven
hitting up another pub
im really so emotion driven

said to me you don't want to see my face
you don't see me trying, i don't see you crying
didn't see you running, didn't see me fighting
i ain't even trying to get with you again

i could really mention, all the things you did in the past
but i don't see the point 
cause when i try to talk things out
they always end up on your side
and here's another fight
i'm the one to blame
all the time

i ain't getting no chances
i am tired of running
I am tired of hiding
always felt like i fucked up
always felt like im dying
always felt youre the bad one
always felt like im crying
but we ain't getting back together I know
but we ain't getting back together I know
x2

Always Thought It Was My Fault

shout out @demxntia for hopping on this and making it pretty and @wavewalk for making such a sick unique beat go follow them

Sui:

sick of floating here being stagnant in life know this aint right
but everytime a good thing happens 
storms come in and wash progression all away 
good things come along but they dont ever stay
no~~
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

Dem: 
I don't give a fuck anymore
go to war with myself at the core
you know i felt this way before
everything i used to love feels like chores
i don't know~
which way i should go~
i hope there's room to grow~
i hate feeling so, low~
oo~ oooo~ ye
oo~ where do i go, cause i just dont know

Bofa:

Drowning to my sorrow, keep that to myself
You can save yer rescue, i don't need yer help x2
NO
days dont ever last, curb with broken glass 
sitting there watch the mf cars pass
never show 
anymore emotion feel like going over board like
carry us away, lost my way at night 
flowing down the undertow again
caught up in the fucking cyclone 
waves will crash and pull, leave me on my own
Ill sink with this mf ship never making it back to shore

broken glass w/ demxntia ~ [p. wavewalk]

@yungdoza

lyrics:

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

[verse: gothurted]
Picking up the call
Drunk like every single time
I don't want to hear u saying you love me 
cuz the alcohol in your blood
cuz the one u feel for me is not love
is not love
I know its a trap
I know u will switch side
when I'll be counting racks
crying on my phone
but what am I supposed to do?
what am I supposed to say?
The only thing I want is u
And u know that
I would give everything to be there with u
Cuz I'm crying, dying
Trying to get u lying inside my arms again     

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

[verse: Yung doza]
why u crying girl 
lying and the fighting girl 
with the trying girl
u make me want sigh like girl
I take a blunt to the face
I do not care what she says 
she wanna fuck for the cake
she 20 she catching a case
catching cases all these girls yea they faking
and I’m counting the rackies
all these risks that I’m taking for the bag
always wanted her but then she threw me in the trash
now I'm stuck alone all in my room and smoking thrax
and she knows these gemstones on my coat shit
on my dope shit
smoking till I float shit
I don’t care no
I don’t play fair
threw me in her lair
she so see through she so clear

[chorus: gothurted]
Crying every night
Cuz I'm not with you
Cuz your fucking lies
Cuz your fucking mind games
Calling me crying
What the fuck is wrong with you
What the fuck is wrong with me
Picking up the call again
x2

STREAM

Crying feat. yung doza [prod. gothurted]

Artist:
https://soundcloud.com/deadfishpoland

Producer:
https://soundcloud.com/hxrxkiller

Lyrics:
don't ever fall in love they say
it's the biggest trap, don't go this way
you're gonna get it when you grow up
20 years old, still didn't got that

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

and that is how i'm feeling
i don't want to lay, staring at the ceiling
i just want us to be together
heart to heart, thinking bout whatever
comes to mind
baby we are fine
don't worry bout a thing
i can deal with anything
yea
for you, i'll do everything
i'll do everything
cause

cause i just wanna feel, your heart next to my chest
i just wanna be for you and feel so blessed
don't care about shit other ppl say
when you're not around i feel like i slowly start to fade

cause i just wanna feel, your hand clenched in mine
don't ever let me go, i hope we're fine
when you're saying that you love me i feel so alive
baby don't cry over this, together we can brightly shine

i just want to feel

deadfish - i just want to feel

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

and i know i’m not the one you're thinking of
but your love is like a drug and i can’t fucking get enough
i need your rush inside my veins, just load me up
let me die inside my sleep, this life is just too fucking tough
tell my mom, i’m sorry, but i just don’t give a fuck
i miss your voice, i’m not alright, my life is just so fucking dumb
can’t go a day without fucking something up
depressed as fuck, all i wanna do is cut

baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and you squeezed it till it broke
let me die inside the cold, i'm all alone, just let me choke
baby what’s the point? i know you're turning to a ghost
yeah you say you're down, but who’s that boy inside your phone?
you took my heart and your squeezing till it breaks
just let me die, i'm all alone, just let me fade

you tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
thought that you would fix me, but baby, you just broke me
tell me that you love me, so why do i feel lonely?
baby what’s the point? i know you’re probably gonna ghost me
you like it when my nose bleed; cocaine shredding slowly
i thought that you could fix me, but baby, you don't know me

prod. @prodspyder
written by @lightninglogan

samples from You x Dracula

Ghost Me

SPYDER

ghost me [prod. spyder]

@pposture <3

Lyrics:
[verse]
I'm getting bad to tell to someone I love you
'Cause every time I do so they leave
I'm getting insecure about what I will do
'Cause every time I try the world seems
To stop me to hate me to make it worse
To fool me, suffocate me, make me fall
I remember the good times me and you
I remember we calling in the afternoon 

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone 
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

[Verse]
I tried to move on but that's not easy at all
I tried to go ahead but nothing seems to work
I think I've tried everything that I could
But seems like I'll never come back to you
You told me that you loved me
What's the point?
Did you just try to fuck me up?
Life has never been easy and you made it even worse

[Bridge]
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
Now everything is gone
And I know that you won't come back

[Chorus]
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you
Pick up the phone I miss your voice
One more time I can't live without you
Tired of being the second choice
Nothing can keep me away from you

Pick Up The Phone [prod. gothurted x pposture]

https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

weepings
Head in my hands as you walk away
I still reside in this vacant place
watch the rain fall down from the windowpane
silhouette of you baby I'm missing that face
~
Head in my hands as you walk away girl
I don't really know what to say girl
I've been blinded by the light-er
still I stay beside her 
drowning downing alcohol 
my future has looked brighter
keeping everything in the present time
cause the past was a blast I can't change that line
wear a mask skipping class, whats the point of trying?
everything you doing now changing up you're mind
and I don't know if you noticed, everything in this life make you lose focus
breathe in breathe out keep that self inner lotus
do whats fulfilling to you fuck that bogus 

unknxwn. & weepings
I don't know why insist on leading me on
If you wanna leave then why won't you just be gone?
You get in my head and you're there from dusk to dawn
I don't really get you, I don't know what you want

weepings
Head in my hands as you walk away girl
I don't really know what to say girl
I've been blinded by the light-er
still I stay beside her 
drowning downing alcohol 
my future has looked brighter

unknxwn.
Feel the weight press in, now I'm stresin'
I don't wanna wait for the death that I'm destined
I get too fucked up cause I feel too sick
I gave her trust and she made me feel stupid

Lost all my love to a bitch that was useless
Heart had enough and it made my mind ruthless
Planted a tree would grow to be fruitless
I'll never know why you did the shit you did

So till the day I leave this earth
I'll feel that pain, I'll feel that hurt
I feel the ache inside my bones
I'll never taste, I'll never know love

From no one, I'm so done
I say that shit so much but words don't mean shit huh?
And I know that's how you feel
Cause if you really loved me then I would never be here
You made me feel like nothing

Head in my Hands w/ unknxwn. [prod. hieloways]

prod: @caustyk

I can't talk to anyone, anyone its so cold

Lyrics:
Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight


I died when i realized that nothings ever changed
Always on the edge, every week its the same
And im so insane
I know its not healthy but i think i love the pain
I hate feeling empty, so theres liquor in my veins

She the one i want, but the one i cant save
Pictures that i cropped, shawty your my cocaine
i feel overclocked, i can feel my heart race


I dont like this
Overwhelmed and tired of it
I feel like im losing everyone
Everyone thats close

Since the time skip
More burdens that i cant fix
And i cant talk to anyone
Anyone its so cold 

Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight

I thought i died last night 
Ashes fall its like
Everytime im in a dream
I can see it slowly bleed

I cant let go 
But i might break my bones
I wish i could know
But this my only road


Crashing down with my potion
Losing feeling in my body like its stolen 
So why you down, tell me why u feelin hopeless 
So much shit in life left me feelin so broken
x2

she's the one i want, but the one i can't save (prod. caustyk)

the heart wants what it wants prod. jankai

Music video link: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=18cjnRsgHvA

NEVER (ft. Yates XV & Killsadist) [prod. Malloy x Yeezo] *music video in description*

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deadfish - i just want to feel

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