Happy birthday to me.

Produced by Living Puff

Lyrics

Told her she was all I needed and I meant it
She said, "Ken I mean it too" but she didn't
I don't wanna feel anymore feelings
Girl you great but what you see in me is not what it is

I'm a lost cause baby, it is not all
Greener on the other fucking side when I am the fault
I'm the reason that you can't get right
I got demons and they meeting with me every single night

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

She's a bitch but I know I'm no better, I'm an asshole
And it's been 3 years but she still the one I call though
I'm a fucked up sad little lost soul
I don't know how it got this bad when I fought so hard

Got so far from myself in my own mind
Tar on my breath, I do wrong when I know right
Where you are? I don't know
If I get in my car I'ma throw it off the road

Turned 21, wish I didn't
You sent me a sign, I didn't get it
Why am I'm alive? I need a minute
All this fucking time, I just been sinning (x2)

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

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XXI. What i ask-Brizzybadazz & Potheprxblem

lonewolf

cuts on ur wrists blood on the floor
i dont wanna die u dont wanna see me go

i dont wanna die yea i know that
but this pain is unbearable its a slow death
stayin alive to u i owe that
if my brains blow i blow the whole pact
suicidal thoughts in the cadillac
my heart broken in 2 its cracked
hop out the whip wearin all blk
if i helped u would u help me back>?

cuts on your wrists, blood on the floor (prod. Kuroime)

Cat Scratch

TOXIC LOVE [PROD. HEARTJUNKIE]

thanks to @web_boy for featuring in this track
and to @prodnothingtodo for the awesome beat

Lyrics:
[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

[verse: gothurted]
Dreams of a man who lost all his feelings
Dying with nobody who's caring for me
Dreams of a girl that will never believe in
The love that I feel and I'll never regret
I'm trying to get closer 
But you keep taking the distance
Pulling the trigger
I think that I can't resist that
I'll tell you my last words
I just want you to know
That I'll love you forever
With all my soul  

[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

[verse: Web Boy]
Bury me in the memories
Let my remains lie in the Ostankino
(Lie in the Ostankino x3)
Just forgive me
I didn’t want to end everything this way
But there was no choice
//
Похорони меня
В воспоминаниях
Мои останки пусть
Лежат в Останкино
(Лежат в Останкино х3)
Просто прости меня
Я не хотел чтоб так
Пришлось заканчивать
Но нету выбора

[hook: gothurted]
Look into my eyes not to the tears there are around them
Kill me with your words right after you said that you love me
Look up to the sky and tell me what star that you wanna be
And I'll let you shine forever inside  my dreams

STREAM

Inside My Dreams ft. Web Boy [prod. nothingtodo]

[produced by dj khaled's son]
[mixed and mastered by neek and convolk]

lyrics:

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

stuck here
in the same place
everyone fake 
they all wanna save face
my heart chokes
intimate notes 
everyone wrote
when i lost my way

you don't know what i been through 
i don't show what happened to 
me back when i wasn't cool
me back when i was a fool

feel like i'm kanye back in 06
feeling like what i say, people notice 
colder than an ice age cracking both fists
colder than an ice age heart is frozen 
x2

i swear to god that it's all in the making
i swear to god imma fall if i fake it 
i swear to god in my mind gotta trace it 
i swear to god, swear to god
i swear to god rather die than disgrace it 
i swear to god imma try not to chase it 
i swear to god if i try imma make it 
i swear to god, swear to god

swear to god

https://soundcloud.com/gothurted
https://soundcloud.com/deadfishpoland

Feeling

gothurted - feeling (ft. deadfish)

SPOTIFY: https://sptfy.com/6Ao6
SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/cairnmusic
APPLE MUSIC: https://music.apple.com/artist/cairn/1534352747
YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/iamcairn
INSTAGRAM: https://instagram.com/iamcairn
TWITTER: https://twitter.com/iamcairn_

Lyrics:
I honestly tried to fit in
To the life you want to be living
But I could never be enough
And I’ll never be enough
You’d rather throw away your love
Into the heavens above
You tell me that I’m not alone
I got no doubt I’m on my own
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall

My picture waits in your closet
As my colours fade, I can’t stop it
Got me blind in thе dark
While I’m searching for the stars
And I’m covеred in dust
Locked up and living with these scars
And if you ever change your mind
Don’t think I’ll ever call you mine
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall

Fall

fall

theres this game that i play
where i like to say
im safe in her arms
but i know thats a lie

theres this place that i hide
somewhere no one can find
oops i misplaced my life
kinda lose myself sometimes

theres this trash in my room
it kinda dampened my mood
i had a few friends, a crew
i sorta threw em out too

theres these white little lies
that help me not to cry
like "im fine"
or "maybe it'll be better next time"

I cant get out my head
im stuck in my bed
for the 4th day
watchin my hopes fade

i am tearing to shreds
dont know how ill end
but its okay
if i waste my pain decays
(X2)

i dont know why i isolate myself
the only time ill hang is with my belt
everyone was there to watch me drown
but i lost anyone who could get me out

theres this trash in my room
it kinda dampened my mood
i had a few friends, a crew
i sorta threw em out too

theres these white little lies
that help me not to cry
like "im fine"
or "maybe it'll be better next time"

I cant get out my head
im stuck in my bed
for the 4th day
watchin my hopes fade

i am tearing to shreds
dont know how ill end
but its okay
if i waste my pain decays 
(X2)

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white lies (prod. bartes)

A INDEPENDENT CURATOR, ASSISTING IN THE GROWTH OF SELECTED ARTISTS.

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gothurted - feeling (ft. deadfish)

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