produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

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heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

use me up to tell me that u never loved me
I feel like I’m never nothing
I’m tired can u just leave me alone
Please stop staring swear my face is fucking boring
I don’t need to be important I’m swinging until I knock him cold
Staring at the mirror
Should I be alive
I’ve got reason to believe that it’s just not my time
Maybe in another life

I only eat when I deserve to
Clouded mirror sit and stare in the bathroom
I been thru it all before I’m just like you
I never wanna let you down but I had to

I’d give up on everything to be a better me
I’ve got people streaming songs
but no one listening
Every lyric that I write, you know I fucking mean
You only hmu to make a song with me

I won’t get that mad
I’m just frustrated
I can’t seem to get a break and I just hate it
If you lived in my shoes maybe you’d get it
Why I get pissed off and I’m not patient

WRITING EVERY FEELING BUT I’LL ALWAYS FORGET
EVERYTHING I EVER DID OR EVER SAID IN THE END
BUT I’M TOO FAR GONE TO CARE
I DON’T LIKE YOU
I WISH THAT YOU’D CARE FOR ME
YOU DON’T TRY TO

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

Produced by navyxower
Written by Heylog & navyxower
Mix and master by Heylog & navyxower

lyrics
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its so challenging
you can throw me out, recycle me
I'm mortified
trying everything to keep me in line
I was neglected, but I'm feeling fine
will I be alright
i cant see through the fight!

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

YOU ASK ME IF IM BORED OF YOU!
i tell you its alright
nobody ever missed me, im happy that your mine
ill stay here watch some cartoons
*do nothing with my life*
a lonely little child
just trying to get by

sing me, a lullaby to put me right to sleep
sleep by my side, and ill be happy as can be
a life that's full of trauma, guess healing aint for me
wait until the morning, ill be throwing up you see

she's upset, I know I messed up
in the bed, I slowly get up
look around, this is the last time
in ur room, it's home in my eyes
thunderstorms
travel back
stay the night 
then miss u bad
one hour
till I'm home
the last place I wanna go
seeing you like everyday to not seeing at all
how'd it go from talking every night to not one call
these changes, I don't like them, especially being alone
it'd probably be worse if I didn't learn how to grow

I'm really a joke
you can see it in my eyes
a lonely little child
nobody by my side

they stay up for a while
night shift, go for a drive
ill wait until the morning to see you both in life

sibling w/ heylog

Produced by @hiraethsry 
Check out @hiraethsry and @sinxi
Lyrics

You don't need a lot to get me fucked up in my head 
I barely keep a lock on anything I hold 
You wont know the things I really feel 
When I been up inside my bed 
I swear theres shadows in my room they keep me warm 

So I fuck up my room 
Throw your clothes all away 
I'm as toxic as the day 
you were cheating on me 
Put a ladder to your problems 
Cuz your tryna relate 
Kick the ladder while your climbing 
Falling down to your fate 

Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
              (stop,ok)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk 
Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
           (throwing fire)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk

I can’t relate 
To mistakes you seemed to make 
My hands are tied
My heart unwinds 
               
Sorry i’m late but these days 
I find it hard to make up for mental stains 
It ain’t you oh i promise love 
It’s just life drive for pinnacles
               (run)
Run I needed more I needed more I needed more time 
I know my patience is running on a thin line 
Leave I gotta leave I gotta leave I Gotta decline 
My body’s aching 
You can bring yours closer to mine 
Oh I 
Wont lie 
I’m getting sick of being just another guy 
Oh I
Wont lie

Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
              (stop,ok)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk 
Call up, I don't want to love you anymore
           (throwing fire)
I don't want to do this anymore 
Had me fucked up even when we never talk

RUN w/ sinxi & hiraeth

i love him more than i love myself 

prod: michael harrison
master: @onlyfriendyeah

do i deserve to be this broken?
i must've done something wrong 
and when i speak i feel like choking 
it must've been all my fault
i love him more 
than i love myself 
i'll endure what he gives me 
nothing can change my mind,
nothing i won't sacrifice 

you've got such a violent taste now 
is that what it takes to turn you on?
he want me to pour my veins out 
is that what it takes to be your crush?
i'll keep a compliant face now 
you know i would hate to make you stop 
i'll be so silent, stay down 
if that's what it takes to be what you want 
(be what you want)

violent taste

Prod @heylog

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

So ashamed of me
Feel my body limp
I was sat wondering
What I’ve ruined again
If part of me listens 
The other half’s dead
I was waiting in the corner 
I was rotting in my bed

I see waves come in
I see oceans rise 
You were there for it
Fractions of my life
I wouldn’t spend this 8th with anybody else
Know I saw through it
Puppet on a screen 

I’m dreaming in rem
Wake up I’m still asleep
This nightmare is horrible
Following me
Cause I try my hardest 
All for me to think
That you’re getting bored of me
Hate when I leave 
Eyes laying heavy 
Got no sleep last night
Cause im day dreaming about me by your side 
I know that’s it’s horrible 
I wouldn’t lie
You’re all that I’ve really got in my life

limp

i ruin everything i fucking touch

prod: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_16

yeah i better wake up quick
"get it going, gotta get an iced out wrist
aint nobody going fuckin hard like this
and i been down bad but now im on my shit"
and all my friends
wanna act like i switched
now everybody wanna take a pic 
god damn
see your face on the gram
got me really missing when i could hold your hand

it's a lot to see u when i wake up
it's been hard to tell u that i want us
i ruin everything i fucking touch
and you'll get sick of me wont take much

yeah you'll get tired of me 
you'll just stop missing my company
it gets so hard to breathe 
wrist cut straight to the artery
i wish didn't push u away 
but sometimes i really don't know what to say
i see your eyes when u ask me to stay 
i just don't know how much i can take
and it's a lot to tell u that i love u
i swear it's me, i wanna trust u

sick of me (prod. pekarot)

this song was produced/mixed/mastered by heylog

lyrics:
im popping all my cells
where are u now
tell me this is real
cause i love to doubt
i just wanna lay on here
farther from the place ur near
i heard your whisper in my ear
3 words that ive always feared

ur easy to fall in love
i honestly cant get enough
get enough
but hey
youve pulled me away
from the bullshit and pain
i hope that i could do the same
i never been on this page
but tell
tell me this is true
i cant stand being lied to
but you
you wont admit
all the things you did

someone put me in my place
im tired of my mistakes
are u sure wanna love me
baby its too late
i just wanna lay with u
fall back in my dirty shoes
no one even has a clue
i like u cause u think im cool

ur skin and bones feelin mine
thrift shirt reflect off the light
clear frames with big pretty eyes
pretty eyes
but wait
will i see u today?
i already miss ur face
can u call me by my name
i cant go another day
but i
i was in need for your love
i guess i asked for way too much
but you
you wont do shit
you stole what i gave

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shelter

the beat was produced by @lindenpearce @nevrfall

lyrics:
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺, 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨
𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘶
𝘥𝘰 𝘶 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯? 𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘪 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘶

light blonde hair hangs over your eyes
i dont wanna waste all ur time
am i wrong, i think im right
on the search for duds just to light it one more time

eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im waitin for you
im bad at the first move
im breaking for you
im sad now, its not new
not afraid of death bitch im burning in both eyes
when she look at me i lose track of mind
if i give u my heart, will u hold it tight?
and if u gimme yours, i promise ill treat it right
i get nervous on what i could say to u
i dont want u to leave so damn soon
i would spare my time just for u
and if this could be it, id take a bullet for u

im sorry u had to go, ill see u in a week or so
i put u in my phone but im nervous to hit u up
now that youre here, im shy gotta cover up
im a nervous wreck, but thats because when ur
eyeliner covering your eyes
i get nervous wasting your time
am i wrong or am i right
tell her to leave so u can stay for the whole night
on the balcony, im afraid of heights
standing next to u, made my fear shy
is it just me or does this feel right
out here in the cold,
could be here for the whole night

im wastin your time
im sorry, ill shut my mind

𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺
𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘰𝘯 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦

nervous (p. linden & nevrfall)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

if u love me pls dont say it
id rather u lie it
my heart is close to dying
no way i can revive it
leave me here in peace and silence
if im hurt youll hear the sirens
oh take me to the ambulance
these voices feel so ambient
my gas shot i cannot break it
ur bestfriend real good at flaking
honestly i kinda hate him
what goes on inside that brain of his?
she worship all the wickedness
i cannot just stand for this
her soul with flames and ashes
dont look back as i walk past it
my heart is half divided
she threw it in the garbage
that explains why i cant find it
could u spare me a medkit
i been busy duct taping it
but that cant even hold it
the pieces keep on falling
no she dont even notice
she ask "hey should i post this"
OMG YOU GOT ME MEGA PISSED
have i told u how im sick of it
how u love me when im just a kid
she crying while im grinning
im laughing while she fearing
i feel like pandora
tag along cus im useless

i dont wanna talk baby could u just let me go
i feel safer praying even god thinks im alone
nobody can hear me here yelling in the pillow
punch holes in the wall oh man im getting pretty close
move on to ur face ill give ur boy a bloody nose
jump into the ice its cold but i forgot my clothes
she touch 'round my stomach and feeling all my ripples
nails scratching the crevices she kissing my freckles

my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

freckles

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heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

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