I don't wanna feel 💔

Emo Rap 14

cpichka

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below [prod. branwen x rvrhiv]

Leaving

Leaving (feat. the bootleg boy & Heroe)

WOW WOW (feat. ROCKET)

written and co-produced by me
produced by @swazyhq and @impursuit
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used to be so caught up in you, oh,
i've given up and now i'm running to the hills, cause i've lost the thrill
stuck in a hole, i don't know what to do, oh
i try to numb and look for something new to feel, but there's nothing real, and now i'm

discombobulated
i kept my hand in the fire, and now i'm getting so tired of this, (i'm feeling jaded)
i guess i'll keep getting higher, cause now i know you're a liar 
and shit, i'm devastated
i'm stuck in my room alone, i wish you'd pick up the phone, 
i feel the patience dissipating and now,

the sparks gone, there's no song, you finally won 
it's not fun, i'm struggling, was it something i'd done?
i'm not strong, nothing inside, my heart you had robbed 
the songs of love that i had, don't mean a thing anymore 
x2

losing a pulse, i need to take a breath, oh 
feel a convulsion running through my chest again, haven't slept again 
drowning my paper in a pool of lead, oh
pull me around like i'm a marionette, again
do you remember when you and me would 

stay up late, we're singing 
you said that i misconstrued it, you didn't think when you threw it away, 
my head is ringing, 
and now i'm feeling so stupid, i wish i hadn't went through it 
but hey, i'll stick to drinking 
the bottles always my friend, i know i'm drowning again 
but it's better than remembering, now it's different because

the sparks gone, there's no song, you finally won 
it's not fun, i'm struggling, was it something i'd done?
i'm not strong, nothing inside, my heart you had robbed 
the songs of love that i had, don't mean a thing anymore 
x2

feresy

prod. @siemspark x @jkeibeats

lyrics
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go
she said baby take your time
have fun out on the road
life is but a dream but it depends on where you go
i’ve been meeting people that i hardly fucking know
hardly fucking know
so now i’m singing woah
this is all i ever dreamed about and god it shows
swimming through this liquor tryna rid of all my woes
something in my head is telling me to take it slow
please just take it slow

please just take it slow
i’ve been tryna pace it
by erasing who i know
lifting up my spirit
in a pirouette with ghosts
dancing with the devil
every time i fucking smoke
but they would never know
panic sits before me
in a newly painted coat
i just drank too much so baby
please don’t rock the boat
fully automatic i go manic in these notes
this is what i wrote
this is what i wrote

she can tell from my eyes that i’m jetlagged
i’m not talking enough i regret that
my coding is fucked but i cracked that
i put my whole life in this backpack
and i’m hoping that i never backtrack

i hope this is forever
my life put together
a mere apparition
of me doing better
i’m sick of this weather
debating on whether
i’m writing this letter
for me or for everyone

jetlag (prod. siem spark x jkei)

draw you inside my book

draw you inside my book (feat. KMays)

COMMUNITY. Vol 2

alone

SPOTIFY

lalena - alone

lyrics:


I locked eyes with a succubus and paid the price
She fucked life into my empty heart that night
Easy on me now
Easy on the pain
I was bleeding out
And she laughed in my face
Stars light up just for u in our backyard
No matter anything you do ill still be urs love
One look can shape my mood and she had known that
I think id be better blue with a toe tag

Dont be shy
Around me
I am still who u met
When we were 14
In these
Porch lights
On halloween
I was hoping that I
Could still see u in my dreams
Tearing up
Never felt so useless
I dont even wanna do this
The energy to go thru this with u
Left me like last Tuesday
She moved in with me soulmates
Now she acting like a roommate
I was never that guy though
Her love you more like a typo

I locked eyes with a succubus and paid the price
She fucked life into my empty heart that night
Easy on me now
Easy on the pain
I was bleeding out
And she laughed in my face
Stars light up just for u in our backyard
No matter anything you do ill still be urs love
One look can shape my mood and she had known that
I think id be better blue with a toe tag

a Tuesday (Eric Godlow x scottysplash)

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[Verse 1: Oddy Nuff da $now Leopard]

i got a chopper
i got a chopper
ain't helicopter
i got some problems
i got some problems
drugs are my solvent now i'm gonna solve em
all of these bitches
all of these bitches gonna end up in ditches
fuck with my emotions
legs are spreadin open
keep your pussy hoe and keep your attitude
ima keep countin this cash
money so long ima change up my latitude
all of these drugs know my gratitude
all of these drugs know my gratitude
face a whole blunt bitch that's how i go ghost
turn into smoke
perfect for hoes
burnin gas all alone i'm never leavin home
burnin gas all alone i'm never leavin home

[Verse 2: $lick $loth]

sleep on a couch
cigarette in my mouth
drugs in my house
i'm lookin for peace but i'm scattered beneath what's under my sheets
got them bottles on the table
codeine on the label
my life is far from stable
take the gun then i disable
that's one in my temple with no hesitation
don't fuck them bitches with love situations
fixated on dope narcotics my salvation
i'm tryna get higher and higher and higher so high that i rise up and reach levitation

Now the Moon's Rising

CAN OF WORMS

check out the bros::
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/yungaxstn
lyrics 

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

snow on her dress watch us fade yea,
snow on her chest heart break yea,
she told me we should take break yea,
im lookin at my phone
dumb, stressed out, and i feel all alone,
don’t
try to use yo dome,
if i break out i jus hope i go home,
stressed out in the back so im sippin on crone.

lil skele:
I took a lil too much 
I be moving slow shawty I ain’t in a rush 
yeah black out in the backseat
I’m a lil too fucked if u ask me 
yeah
it’s like bury me in Louis v 
I been hella faded my eyes getting hazy 
Ion love that bitch she crazy 
ion ever leave the house chill by my lonely 
i fw anybody don’t pick my phone up when it’s ringing 
bumping dg and I got wrist on icy 
feel like guitarboi sipping on peace tea
I been steady stacking bands I got the money

yung axstn:
The nicotine helps me get over 
I’m not your friend you’re never sober 
my girl yeah she wants me over 
i feel the same just wish you were closer
now if you don’t mind I’ll be back in a bit
Cause the shit in my head it makes me wanna quit
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there 
and I know that you want me right there
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there
you miss me all the time I just wish I was right there

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

it's getting harder to sleep now (w/lil skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

it's getting harder to sleep now. (w/skele & yung axstn) [prod.nejdos]

фотографирую закат

I don't ever sleep when I'm supposed to
I stay up all night hearing you talk like
tryna tell me that I'm never gonna make it
I'm already tryna find a way to face it
I am insignificant, I know
tryna stand up but my feet can't find the placement
sick of waking up and doing all the same shit
I am wasting oxygen, I know
I am wasting oxygen

my own mother says that I've changed for the worse
and I don't know where I lost the person that I was
I'm trying to fill in the blanks
my fire has faded with age

fuckin tell me that I'm never gonna make it
I'm already tryna find a way to face it
I am insignificant, I know
tryna stand up but my feet can't find the placement
sick of waking up and doing all the same shit
I am wasting oxygen
I already know

I don't ever sleep
I stay up all night
I stay up all night
run away from me
I just can't act right
see the red flags right?

I guess I should've given you
a fair warning but
I would have if I had a clue 
that my head was fucked
I'm stagnant I wish I could move
I am always stuck
wish there was something you could do
but you don't give a fuck

ignoring my feelings
fixated on the ceiling
not coping, not dealing
I let your words send me reeling
tell the secrets you're concealing
I know that I'm unappealing 

I guess I should've given you
a fair warning but
I would have if I had a clue 
that my head was fucked
I'm stagnant I wish I could move
I am always stuck
wish there was something you could do
but you don't give a fuck

fuckin tell me that I'm never gonna make it
I'm already tryna find a way to face it
I am insignificant, I know
tryna stand up but my feet can't find the placement
sick of waking up and doing all the same shit
I am wasting oxygen

I already know

OXYGEN

joke's on you

highschool (feat. convolk) (remix)

You ain't slangin stop, I pull up
Parking lots, you ain't arranging rocks, I know that
You think it's hard cause you've seen it done
Slash heard, you're a sponge, never be your own
Man, can't you understand how I came in the game?
Yeah me neither, no breathin', it's amazing I make
My way out the other side of my personal maze
I was stuffed for a minute, couldn't feel my legs
I had to bounce, back, like the rubber band snap
Round the ziplock bag full of money that we stashed
In the wall downstairs, that was back in 2010
I was just about to leave, no one knew just how to feel
But I did, that's why I wait and feel
Calm inside cause I am real
I am me and you are you
Running around tryin' to chase this loot
Hop straight back in and then I glist to the finish
White noise in the flesh, hair down, never see me
I done tried to make it clear, I do not think that they hear me
Mic check, 1, 2, Ri-ri-rick in the building
Got my hi-vis and my blade look like I'm building
On the site with my clipboard, smoking and chilling
No hard hat, no whistle, still officially killing
Every fucking working brain within a arms length distance
You get melted into ashes and I'm casting you to iron
Turn you to a blade of mine, so I can use your life in spite
I make cash all night, fuck your money and your ice
You ain't helping nobody with the shitty words you write

Think about it
Think about it
Think about it
Think about it

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