2021

im really really gay

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maneater-nelly furtado

This is the first song I'm releasing which was recorded and made using only my guitar and my pedals. No vst's ,no presets just me trying to craft and find my own tone and sound. I hope you all enjoy and ill continue to make songs in this way and hopefully keep improving.

This song is about many things, it encapsulates a lot of the failures and let downs of my life as of lately. Most of these failures are self caused, I'm a liar, and not only do I lie to all those around me but worst of all I lie to myself. I'm going down a path I'm not proud of and as much as I want to change and become the man I know I can be , I just can't seem to change my ways. I'm too weak , my will is tainted and content with being where it is. But I have to change, let this song be a reminder to me to not fall into my failures but to overcome and surpass them. I hope one day soon I'll have the strength to change...

bandcamp download:

Fragments Of Failure

hi guys. i know uploads have been very slow on my end and i've been rather quiet. towards the end of 2020 my drive for producing dropped heavily and as a result i began to resent it. i have however been more inspired and been uploading more frequently through my rap page @yungmangomusic as i found rapping alot more enjoyable and it was nice having fun making music again. lately i have been coming back to producing here and there but i can't guarantee consistency like i have in the past. please enjoy this flip of: https://soundcloud.com/matonges/ghoul which i believe was made in my prime haha. 

thank you for the years of support, i appreciate and love you all. - matonges

drumkits:
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ghoul² [SOLD]

confessions (to you)

A.L.I.V.E (prod. by Discent)

Gazing (prod. by Lxnely Beats)

counting the days

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

produced by @imtiredmusic

lyrics:

 Save me from another heartache
I promise to come back and see u one day
The sand in my hourglass falls to heartbeats
I cling to the smell u spilt into my bedsheets
I listen to my heart but it just brings me bad news
The stars in the sky burn out the same damn route
I wonder if she feels when im at the end of my wits
I figured out the code and I haven’t slept since

The wind reeks of war But I laugh in my room
Maybe if im bored I can go to war too
Bullets in my neck Shrapnel in my lung fluid
At least it missed my heart So I could still love you

Another night fucked up all on my own
Stringing out the Christmas lights from a couple years ago
Oh it hurts me to think about the times that I fold
Im Forgetting what I was as long as I keep my eyes closed
If im Lost I don’t ever wanna be found
Keep me safe but im Im at war
And Ill be standing my ground Till I die Till I die
U got me torn But im not taking no more no more no more
So burn me to tar Add to the scars
Just carry on Forget about us we’ll be alright
The mood feeds in into the tears I wipe
Oh how uve grown I can’t believe my eyes

The wind reeks of war But I laugh in my room
Maybe if im bored I can go to war too
Bullets in my neck Shrapnel in my lung fluid
At least it missed my heart So I could still love you
so I could still love you

cannibalism (hateful x moonsight)

https://soundcloud.com/rainingonroses

lyrics:
so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright

loves complicated 
i know you’ve waited for too long 
i wanna say it 
just don’t wanna come on to strong 

it’s like everytime you come around 
you find a way to break new ground 
i sing my pain out so loud 
now all these walls are coming down 

coming down 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright

i know that im gonna be alright 
cause i’m so done with all the stupid fights 
i dont always do what’s right 
i feel like shit so i get high 

all the bullshit was killing me 
when your love was all that i really need 
i don’t know how you couldn’t see 
me and you was meant to be 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright 

so what i didn’t show up last night 
was so drunk i threw up and got in a fight 
you left and sure i guess that bites 
but i’m young and i know ima be alright

So What!

RainingOnRoses - So What!

NF -Goodbye

New Perspective - Panic! at the Disco

produced by: trill skeleton @trill-skeleton

cover art by: SirC https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

set me down
lay me down
on the ground
facing down

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

come around
while im down
breaking down
on the floor

stick around
close the door
i been feeling
fucking bored

what the fuck
did i do
when you took
out my name

from ur phone
back in june
and said were thru
said were thru

new year where the fuck is my head at
new friends but some were a set back
new wave hit home like a whiplash
5 rings like maybe i should get that

5 texts like maybe i should check that
im drunk like maybe i should text back
you called so maybe i should call back
im lost like show me where my friends at

im all like "show me where my friends at"
shes all like baby we should go now
you can leave girl i could get a ride down
grab a train yonge and bloor going southbound

gimme time while im finding where my phone at
whats the time 2 oclock and its pitch black
she say the time is time to go grab my backpack
new year where the fuck is my head at

wtf im crying (prod. trill skeleton)

sorry (hbeatz)

Over You (prod. Rinne)

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New year
Same dreams
Old faces
I'm tired
I can't take it
So sick of this bullshit
I might fill my brain with a full clip

I might fill my brain with a full clip

They wanna see me dead
Voices in my head
Falling off the edge
I can't stop it

It's hard to love again
I don't have no friends
I just got a hole where my heart is

Yeah I got some scars
Don't get me started
Gave my all for you
I tried my hardest
We're nothing in the end
We die regardless
I just wish my head
Wasn't like this

I isolate myself I can't help it
Cause nowadays I'm always fucking anxious
Waking up at night still faded
I don't even know what the day is

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing 

New day
Same pain
Old problems
In a trash can
Laying at the bottom
All the stress piles
Up I can't function
All the drugs help
Remind me I'm nothing

spotify

problems (prod. jody)

song that every1 be wanting but i kinda dont like

It's never enough

it’s never enough

Hey Bunny

sample : https://soundcloud.com/m-i-s-e-r-y/sorryx

Death made me beautiful.

EP: EXISTENTIAL

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Hell On Earth (prod. CapsCtrl)

static <3

scars (caspr & saint tomorrow)

ghoul001 - i'm kinda sick of hurting

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3/4 TRACKS RELEASED "UNCHAINED, VOL. 4"

RainingOnRoses - So What!

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