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featuring my extremely talented friend @sleepywater 💙
prod. @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~
[autumn]
you ok?..

so i tell myself
don't die on me
don't lie to me

i lie here, ask how i'm doing
words out my mouth 
is it trash that i'm spewing?
i deserve hell for every wrongdoing
you sewed up my heart
just after i skewed it

hate when anybody talk to me
there's not a lot to me
i'm just distraught and weak
there's so much to do in the day (day)
what do i have to do to make you stay (stay)

how does this world expect me to keep going
when all that i have are depleting emotions
and all that i am is pathetic and hopeless
and all that i ask, and all that i ask is to leave

i'm begging please
i'm falling down
whenever you leave
don't make a sound
don't even breathe
i finished counting all my steps
a cliff they lead

[sleepwater]
i'll be ready, drowning
heart beat too fast; anxiety
in my hollow frame
lost cause, puppet brain

spewing my heart 
over a fire; got dark
will you be my ember 
stuck in a cauldron
do you remember when i was holding
your achy arms i was all upon it
you got my clothes but 
you could of stopped it
sorry for the vacancy i wish i locked
it was a fucking job to you 
i wish i stopped it

[autumn]
lawless; aching doesn't stop
isn't this what i wanted from you
i'm so awful

[sleepwater]
don't make a sound, don't make a scene
filling my lungs with nicotine 
oh damn ur the one that i'll ever need
damn ur the one that just let me be

[autumn]
(let me be)
don't really know why you like me
are you just starving
for someone's pysche?
i can hear the hounds
yeah they're howling in the darkness
wonder what they found
either molly or a carcass

[sleepwater]
im prowling in the twilight
everything you say now its a delight
maybe ur an angel in disguise 
fucking up my psyche, cutting all my ties

[autumn]
i cannot talk for long
there's somewhere i gotta be
the green of the forest it calls
yeah i got a date with the-
i got a date with the trees

tell me who i am
and who i'm supposed to be
won't be here for long
bitemarks made with teeth
the frostwalker it crawls
arriving at your feet
let it rest beneath...

puppet brain w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

lyrics:

With red eyes I had pressed back harder the most
If I die promise me ill be with u inside of ur toast
But If I live however
Please Make room for me
Cause In this rainy weather
My ghost dances hauntingly

I Felt this Molly boot me up
I Felt the devil fuck my holes
Fuck with me and lose ur soul
Junkie model tryna cope
Leave ur lover in the dust
People cant prevent the cold
We all suffer in this moment
But right now we’ll never know
Cursed characters spat from out her mouth
Ive known like about three failures she had slutted out
Now its me and im ok with that cause I dont view myself
As a saint im more of a guinea pig for different mental welts she deems appropriate 
My Old bones And Lost memories
I fight To remember these
My Old bones And Lost memories
I fight To remember these
So what 
Of course I couldn’t give a fuck im high
Off drugs we petty fight and petty fuck in time
But this time
I went home uh
Im at peace
In my room all on my own uh
but If earths crust
Was torn up
And our time
Was cut short
Would u wish
You’d shown up
On that night
On my porch

With red eyes I had pressed back harder the most
If I die promise me ill be with u inside of ur toast
But If I live however
Please Make room for me
Cause In this rainy weather
My ghost dances hauntingly
With red eyes I had pressed back harder the most
If I die promise me ill be with u inside of ur toast
But If I live however
Please Make room for me
Cause In this rainy weather
My ghost dances hauntingly

Who Tf (branwen)

COMMUNITY. Vol 2

saving my breath

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shiki xo - saving my breath (vishs)

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

(prod. moneo)

shoutout soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for makin this wit me 

enjoy :))

lyrics:

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x2
don’t go around blamin’ the world for this; for me 

I am an extra in your movie 
don’t try and argue I’ll just leave 
we both know that we aren’t perfect we’re far from it 
far from roots we’ve grown a bit  

loving you something else.
I need a second chance, I’ll rip my heart apart from night to day.
I miss ur face could you please say the 3 dumb words that mean so much
it’s hard to hurt when you’re leanin on a crutch 
but baby, please 
don’t tell me that it’s all a fkn dream

skele:

bleed out 
i watched you fall 
just look at me now 

please don’t scream out 
i couldn’t take that sound 
you were all i had 

i’m so bad for you 
all the things i’ve been through 
always drag us down 
is it too late now 
i’m so in love with you 
anything i could do 
i would do for you 
i would cut thru my skin oh my god 
spilling out over the ground

kais:
breathe 
come down that tree and don’t break it now
tired eyes lookin at pavement 
shift your gaze here and please stay a bit 
don’t fall back down x4

pavement

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pavement w/skele

everything by me
thank you for listening
so much.

when the grass is dry
and never green
i contemplate what's happening
and who i was just other week
wonders why the fuck he felt so weak
letting water rise
and stumble down his cheeks
it gets a whole lot worse
when it's just a dream
for every promise i
just couldn't keep
i'll amputate your heart
so it won't bleed
i know it's not very often when we speak
i hope you know when we do
it's so comforting
oh, if i made up these feelings
then how am i still here?
and if the world is still turning
that's all i have to fear
i think that i've been in slumber
since last summer, but what made it end?
i've grown tired of conversations
it's like i'm brainless
(my thoughts go over their heads)
(their heads)
i hate that i get why you leave me dormant
i'm tired of feeling normal
it's horrible

amputee

prod. me

ty for fw me <3, enjoy :)

lyrics:

letting go and losing hope it's gettin hard to breathe again
i get so cold in my room thats warm
its a warning that i cant go much longer

i bleed too
can u see me?
i cant let myself go when u need me
if i leave soon would you grieve me?
i've been in this alone i need saving
cant believe it
i've been sleepin
on my own fuckin life
when kais takes a break he jus needs time to breathe, oh
i been thinking bout being all
that i was meant to be
ignore intrusions jus leave em
and let yo mind be at ease

lettin go and losing hope its gettin hard to breathe again
i get so cold in my room thats warm
its a warning that i cant go much longer

dont you wait, ill take
every inch of your heart ill erase
every slight mistake
shouldn't be held on your heart with such weight
oh, oh
i know what its like to be all alone
hold on don't give up yet
stay by me, love yourself, you'll be okay

it's getting hard to breathe again

it's getting hard to breathe again.

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

White Noise

CHEERS! (prod. Yung brownie)

lyrics:

every day fuse into one this month
i cant keep control if the speed to much
triple up my fluid on my last good night
i cant even see my fingers front my face in these lights
every things different than it had been before
unroll my backwoods and break my meteors
friends like these family i never knew before
life on this planet aint felt this new before

but we'll get by
she gets high
every other night
and just cries
girl ill be with u tonight
im on en route
im around the block
im near the drop off
really got me locked down
im ten down
i cannot not stand 
for this shame im too proud
locked up
so i kick the door down
locked down
she really got me locked down
guess she know me too well

im bleeding
im falling
im breaking apart
past the andromeda im in the stars
once you look down on the earth from this far
you can see just how small of a person you are

you could stay girl its cold can you see the lightning
i just talk then i leave im not tryna slide in
i distract then i bleed if she got me biting
dont get me wrong we all human but im uninviting
in the club but im tryna write inside that top my night stand
i fit too much of my work into this fucking life damn
i put too much of my pride into my fucking spine man
if i had to live a pawn just take my fucking life then

every day fuse into one this month
i cant keep control if the speed to much
triple up my fluid on my last good night
i cant even see my fingers front my face in these lights

but we'll get by
she gets high
every other night
and just cries
girl ill be with u tonight
im on en route
im around the block
im near the drop off
really got me locked down
im ten down
i cannot not stand 
for this shame im too proud
locked up
so i kick the door down
locked down
she really got me locked down

locked_down (nevrfall)

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