twisted

top 2

loosin brain cells

day before

DEPRESSION

Ashes

ITS MELANCHØLY - 3

[verse 1]
i ain't think that i should make it this far in life
but my music growing big, i think thats a sign
my wallet begging to be filled so i try and shine
and my bros go up without me, ill wait my time

[hook x2]
window watching everybody pass
she tell me i should live every damn day like its my last
i act like no one talks to me but i cant open back
i check the mirror every night and i see broken glass
and thats facts, cause im 

[verse 2]
tired of responsibility
talking to my therapist cause thats just what i need
he tell me i rely on everybody except me
i told him im just tired of seeing myself bleed

[bridge]
and i know that i need help, i just dont know how
and im shooting for marriage but i suck with vows
and i dont control words coming out of my mouth
i need you around, im stuck in my house

[hook x2]

window watching

Prod by @imgeist
Mix/Master @farhantnvr
Art by rin_diardi
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Lyrics -
Smile though its killing me
The way we all lie just,
To keep getting by though
Why's it so hard to see
That we're lost in the dark
And we're just fallin apart

Made a bed filed it with roses
It's just so sad they quit when we lost it
Well don't go and throw us away
We still have plenty to say
We're just down for the moment

Don't ever let go
And if you feel your losing all hope (you know)
I'll be there I'll be there
So if your down please just let me know (woah)

Smile though its killing me
The way we all lie just,
To keep getting by though
Why's it so hard to see x2
That we're lost in the dark
And we're just fallin apart

And it just keeps getting worse
My head's bout to explode
With all my thoughts
On my own

I can't feel anything
Without u holding me
And I'm just
Falling apart

And I am sorry that
I keep on fucking up
I'm not, heartless
I just can't keep it up

I'm always giving you my best
Maybe try to reconnect
Maybe give me a 2nd chance
To prove myself x3
Fuck

Smile though its killing me
The way we all lie just,
To keep getting by though x2
Why's it so hard to see
That we're lost in the dark
And we're just fallin apart

Stream

A smile fit for a crime w/ Deadfish (Prod. I'm Geist)

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ty for listening :)
[Lyrics]
you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

why would i wanna see that
its cool id never be there
never gave me a reason
been like this every season
i wish i could help you
i don't fucking know how to
and everyone doubts you
fuck everyone that surrounds you
i've got a silly dream
its better when its you n me
feel better when you're feeling me
well can you fucking stayy
i don't wanna be away
i gotta hit it off
its reoccurring in my head
tell them to fuck it all
can we just end it all
can we just break it off
do i look better off
i don't wanna be alone

you sit in her beauty
you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

you sit in her beauty
i wouldn’t wanna be her
just like i’m Aristotle
i really wanna leak her
stupid innuendos
you heard that i’m a demon
ur so mildly upsetting
i wouldn’t wanna be him

recluse

crybaby

lil jeep

lil jeep (prod. cian p)

<//3

w @heylog
produced by sleepwater
lyrics:

i don't think that i feel it
my stomach can't heal it
my heart i warn you
surround me i turn blue
you doubt me you flew
you drowning in sloot
my heart break in 2
im ready to die
cos i left ur side
i kick back and cry
this where i resite
i laugh at myself
its good for my health (oh no)
whats that on my the shelf (oh no)
i think its yourself (oh no)

ash blonde hair i need you now
carve my life thru the fields im a tree in the ground
i can't feel my fucking heart so why does it go pound pound pound
i sense you wanna dart, so why
 dont u wannaa stay, now

i can sense the fear ik our loves linear now
feeling like a tree thats never gonna grow; help
beat me black and blue with all the words you spew pal
you could save him now but i don't think he wants you now

heylog:

your pretty little words are meshed and i don't feel them
i'm to the point where i just lost every feeling
i still wouldn't feel a thing if i had a million friends
i'm getting closer everyday to ending it
the sun falls and creeps through my window
it's blinding me, now orange is painted on my walls
the same colour i saw when i fell in love
when i see it again i just can't get enough
can someone end my life, i don't wanna be here at all..
i'm past the part where i care at all
that's when i know shits getting bad
and i wonder how long this'll last

tree w/heylog

was a lie

lyrics:


Gimme the quick revive cause my hearts done
When love is the focal point u bun the outcome
Im surprised to see at this function
Cause last time we were close u left my soul numb

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

I heal these wounds with plenty of alcohol
And now im sure I wouldn’t miss u at all on me
Until I think about the nights u were all on me
Oh my god
Alone at 3am in my bed I just miss you
The ghost of u can hit hard
If it weren’t for these drugs Id be gone
I hate that This drink give me courage to push on

Red leaves Fall fast
Us two Won’t last
Friction and Kickback
Good things Will Turn bad
No one had checked on me at my lowest point
So I developed on my own that’s why im to the point yea
Bedbug bites were on my thighs and back oh its bad
Plus people tried to put a price right on top my head

To be honest
She lied for five months for the profit
I was lost for a while but now im on it
How are u I only ask to be the bigger man
What is life if we only live to live again
In ur head im sure ur only seeing static
How u treated me was lessons bout neglecting
So my partner knows I dont need to be managed
How u treated me left wounds more than a bandage could solve

tbh (eric godlow)

Pigeons & Planes & Big.Ass.Kids present: See You Next Year

Roses

Nightstand

performed, produced, mixed, and mastered by goodbyebrody 

written by goodbyebrody, $haded, and mochji

[verse]
I got everything I wanted
Now I never see you callin'
I swear to God I'm falling
and I'm missin' you if honest

Promise me you’ll never go 
Hide the things you’ll never tell me 
Can't wait for the night
Cause I’m tryna get you right 

Her honesty, I can’t uphold 
Block your friends, you call that healthy
Can't wait for tonight 
Cause you know I’ll get you right

[chorus]
I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

[verse 2]
Holdin' you through all the motions, till you feel the time's right 
Feel your essence when we're kissin' under streetlights
You pull me under, all these feelings I don't wanna hold back, 
Keep me closer, I can tell that you won't it go 

Biting my cheek, hide the pain with many drugs
Driving down, any place you feel like livin' up
Cause you got something, my heart racin', I can't give it up
Cause damn I want you, and babe you know that

[bridge]
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted

(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)
(everything i wanted)

[chorus]
I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

I fell in love in the summer, wanna vibe
She works hard, wanna compliment her mind
The way her hair flip, caught my eye 
I took her hand, now I'm just feeling just fine

caught my eye

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

Curser's Lament

Do You Like Me Now

prod. joon & Noah Koslen

Verse 1:
I've been waiting for a lover that could tell me
What I'm really thinking of drinking of,
'till my feelings spill
(you don't waste time)
I've been contemplating everything she sells me
But sometimes it's too good to be true
But you know sometimes I just can't help it

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

(One, two, three, four)

Verse 2:
Having but I'd still rather see you (see you)
But, got people in my rearview (rearview)
Yeah I don't care what they're thinking
Hope you want to walk by me
We won't care who sees
You're just all I need 
You're just all I'm needing baby 'cause I

Pre:
Some days I need someone for the patience
Called you up and felt the vibrations
So just tell me why, tell me why (yeah)
I need some love in these situations
Back and forth I don't wanna take it
Please just tell me why,
Tell me why

Chorus:
I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly

I'm just tryna warn you
I've been waiting for a little company
Boredom right in front of me
You've been sitting patient
I've been just embracing how you're loving me
Taking it so suddenly, I

company

ЛЮБИЛ ТЕБЯ

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

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Lyrics : 
I’ve been told we should link
But you’re a little bit shy, you’re a little bit shy
I’ve been told we should meet
But you’re a little bit shy, you’re a little bit shy

After all that I give
You won’t let me live
You trip to no end
She’s only a friend

After all that I give
You won’t let me live
You trip to no end
She’s only a friend

She want a man who’s gentle, want a man who’s civil
“What’s your plan?” She watching all the things you getting into
She want a man who’s gentle, want a man who’s civil
“What’s your plan?” She watching…

I’ve been told we should link
But you’re a little bit shy, you’re a little bit shy
I’ve been told we should meet
But you’re a little bit shy, you’re a little bit shy

GHOST PEPPER STEPPER - Link
℗ 2023 A MIDDLE EASTERN RAT

Link

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

SPOTIFY

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Lyrics : 
Since
Since you’ve been gone
My sense of my purpose ain’t clear
Guess that feeling is lost without you
(Without you babi)

Since 
Since you’ve been gone 
My sense of my purpose ain’t clear 
Guess that feeling is lost without you 
(Without you babi) 

Since 
Since you’ve been gone 
My sense of my purpose ain’t clear 
Guess that feeling is lost without you 
(Without you babi) 

Since 
Since you’ve been gone 
My sense of my purpose ain’t clear 
Guess that feeling is lost without you 
(Without you babi) 

Since 
Since you’ve been gone 
My sense of my purpose ain’t clear 
Guess that feeling is lost without you 
(Without you babi) 

Since 
Since you’ve been gone 
My sense of my purpose ain’t clear 
Guess that feeling is lost without you 
(Without you babi)

GHOST PEPPER STEPPER - Without You
℗ 2023 A MIDDLE EASTERN RAT

Without You

lyrics:

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

What am I supposed to send
Letters all wrapped in red
A ribbon or two or ten
For anything to make sense at all
Every single thing I said
It's gift-wrapped in my head
All paired up with some greeting cards
I scribbled in my bed

So there’s a ransom for a promise that I'd never hear
Burn it down and build it up for another year
If I take my pictures down will I disappear
That's really what you gotta hear, that's really what you got

I don't got lies to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep an eye out
For a daydream of a rescue
I don't know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep a cover up
On the things I never meant to

I don't got truths to sell you
If you want I'll pretend to
Keep a blindfold on
For a nightmare of a rescue
Never know what to tell you
Maybe I'll just forget to
Keep it all away
Say the things I never meant to

Hear me out
I'm not a saviour anymore
I keep on melting through the floor so I can't
Stay around
Let me just get my shining armor
And go ride off on my horse

That's what you wanted right
A daydream of a rescue
What you wanted right
A fairytale to run away to
What you wanted right
That’s what you wanted right

SPOTIFY + APPLE

rescue

should have 
should have been my body
should have 
should have been my body

ill never get another chance now
and i dont want it, i just want you back now
i cannot deal with all these faces looking at me
i really think it should have been my body

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

i really thought i tried my best
im putting all my scent across your messsages
just to ruin it again
youre my love and all my medicine

whats stopping me
nobody can stop me now
what is happening 
words barely leaving my mouth
but im lost again
gaps of air barely creep out
im asleep again
i dont mean to let you down

ive been lost now for a while and i need some help
but none of my friends even seem to care
throw me on the ground while youre walking out
say its all because of me you know its not fair

have so much to tell you bout my come down
its not funny its not funny im still bleeding
how much do i need for me to pass out
if im gone before the morning then i need it

should have
should have been my body...

body

https://soundcloud.com/auburnleavesfall

lyrics:
go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones

go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones
shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, dont wanna die in vain

go stay
wont mind
crush me
shattered all my bones
shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, dont wanna die in vain

vain

auburnleavesfall - vain

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Lyrics : 
In search of better days I wasn’t ready babe 
Got my head on straight I used to hesitate 
Locked your heart away it’s in a harder place now 
Getting back ain’t something you won’t contemplate now 

Don’t make me call you know I will 
Applying pressure know I will 
Got me i’m simpin’ now for real 
Yeah yeah 

How’d you go from that to being only a friend 
How’d you go from that to being only a friend 
Now we gotta start from the beginning again 
How’d you go from that to being only a friend 

Don’t make me call you know I will 
Applying pressure know I will 
Got me I’m simpin’ now for real 
Yeah yeah 

How’d you go from that to being only a friend 
How’d you go from that to being only a friend 
Now we gotta start from the beginning again 
How’d you go from that to being only a friend 

GHOST PEPPER STEPPER - Only a Friend
℗ 2023 A MIDDLE EASTERN RAT

Only a Friend

@teamsesh
@cat-soup-cfgsta

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https://drewthearchitect.bandcamp.com/album/sl-n-w-bones-cat-soup

lyrics:

and i guess thats how life goes
live a long life then turn to a ghost
its a one way road
take a million turns still end up home
now your body cold
memories play like motion pictures
now you outta know
this ain't what i depicted
were placed then taken away from our loved ones
live from the place where money is more important
planet earth
what is it worth

the inhabitants ruin everything
there is no break in this chain
all we want is everything
then everything is induced with pain

they still don't know
they think its alright

they still don't know
they think its all just a lie

download

i guess w/ bones & cat soup

ghost girl (prod. lederrick)

yesterday (prod. charlie shuffler)

crybaby (prod. lederrick x lil peep)

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Lyrics:

I see you more than I should
And it hurts my pride
I’m affected by you

And we go back and forth, undecided
You and I just spiral
Wonder why we fighting...

How could you ever question me
Shit hit me in my chest today
I remember like it’s yesterday
Gave you my best, you just gave it away

Sundays with you were special
I still don’t know how to let go
Why did you keep in touch
Thought we was deep in love
You didn’t believe in us
Boy, you forgot what we had

I need you more than I should
I can’t help but love you
Although it hurts to trust you, look

And we go back and forth, girl i’m tired
Gave you my undivided
Our love is so one sided

How could you ever question me
Shit hit me in my chest today
I remember like it’s yesterday
Gave you my best, you just gave it away

Sundays with you were special
I still don’t know how to let go
Why did you keep in touch
Thought we was deep in love
You didn’t believe in us
Girl, you forgot what we had

You were on my side babe
Now you running wild babe
Running out of time babe
Yeah, yeah

You were on my side babe
Now you running wild babe
Running out of time babe
Yeah, yeah

Sundays with you were special
I still don’t know how to let go
Why did you keep in touch
Thought we was deep in love
You didn’t believe in us
Girl, you forgot what we had

Sundays

owlneverdie - "Проекция забытых снов" - это дебютный альбом, наполненный абстракией и переживаниями, что скрываются за словами в музыке. Все истории частично связаны друг с другом и объединяются в единую, целостную картину, что позволяет погрузится в мелахноличную и рефлексивную атмосферу. По мере прослушивания, вы сами создаете фрагменты картины, которые впоследствии стараетесь объединить воедино.

owlneverdie - театр

(prod. @pxnch)
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rip peep <3

buzzing

buzzing (prod. pxnch)

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(prod. @prod-mangetsu)

LLP<3

first sight (prod.manget$u)

Monday

Before I Die Im Tryna Fuck You Baby

prod. @l1lbiscuit x @gualabeatz

lyrics
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hey you
why you mad at me?
i've been falin' backwards runnin' barefoot through the leaves
i could bite my tongue until i really gotta leave
if the issue isn't settled why you settlin' for me?
hey you
whatchu wanna be?
i remember back when i was sleeping with no sheets
back when we were struggling off 89 a week
when the habits i possessed was partially possessing me
when the root of all my problems disappeared inside the green
and i was acting like i gave a fuck but no one fucked with me
when the busses to the 6 were all i had just to be free
i got a passport for that bitch but but now i travel overseas

yeah it's been a couple years but honestly it's all i see
when i close my eyes & reminisce this shit is just a dream
guess i really overcame a lot & now i've come to see
all the work i've put into it paying off by 23
thought i'd never live to tell but now i'm tellin how it be
when you overcome the obstacles & turn into a g
you could a. run for cover are you ready for the heat?
self destruct until i feel like anyone but me
you could be anything that you desire whatchu seek?
i've been plotting on this shit for years since i was seventeen
never felt like i could do it the depression come in sweeps
i put my headphones on & spit some shit until i fall asleep

back in 2017 i plotted out my death 
tied a noose inside my closet drew a target on my chest
if you think this shits a gimmick you can put it to the test
check my browser history for all the answers be my guest
googled "how to kill myself" but every option involved pain
every forum full of isolated kids that feel the same
saying they would end their lives in hopes of ridding all the shame
it's much easier to talk about when no one knows your name 
it's hilarious how motherfuckers profit off an act
you ain't ever put the blade against your skin and that's a fact
you're bewildered by the concept of a struggle so you cap
yeah my eyes are fixed upon you & i'm ready to attack
guess this is a wrap
fuck you & your homies all the shit you do is whack
this ain't no specific diss it's simply a smack
in the face of all these influencers actin like they sad

music video

barefoot (prod. lil biscuit x guala beatz)

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